Blood:Chapter04

♡The source of love♡

Inside the mess i was stuck with my siblings, one thing was missing "parental control and supervision "; my parents were the audiences when the boys bulliying me but the judge when i defend myself should i say they are the one to blame? Were they blind that they couldn't see i'm helpless? Or i was wrong, i didn't see it the way they do.

I hate them so much because they weren't in my side, i wasn't treated equally like brothers, in my country the girl has to respect the boy he is the pride of the family, he is the man.

I didn't understand a thing, when i was wrong even if i tell my beloved mother and father they would say "hey they are tour brothers don't talk like that they have the right and why didn't you do what they asked you to do?"

But then at some point i found out that having a girl is kinda of stigma, growing up seeing the boys getting anything they want but if the girl ask for the simplest thing the answer would be "no you can't because you are a girl and the boys have the rights more than you do" I mean c'mon this is just unfair, it's not just my case but every girl in this society suffers afraid of talking because the parents didn't allow it.

Instead of encouraging them to speak and live they shut their daughters mouths, growing up silently while the wound inside their hearts is getting deeper breathing is becoming harder but all we have is "silent scream".

I sometimes wonder maybe I shouldn't have blamed mom and dad, maybe they think all i need was a roof where i can hide, a bunch of clothes to wear, a food to fill my stomach with when i'm hungry, Maybe i was wrong too nobody knows.

what about love and care, what about hugs and forehead kisses?

If the concrete stuffs would warm up my body and cover, then the abstract things would warm up my soul and fill it with light.

I feel so empty inside there is a hole instead of heart darkness instead of light.

The source of love turned out to be the source of darkness.

I'm not the only girl inder this pressure maybe you are suffering too, in diffrent way maybe there are some boys too are suffering afraid to talk so they would judged and asked to man up.

Basically girl or boy are suffering from the parent's ignorance, judgment and the absence of support ....

The reasons why we grow apart from our parents are countless sometimes it's their fault but maybe it's ours too; is it because it's a lack of communication or understanding or maybe because they are afraid we would be hurt by the outside world? If we don't try fall down stand up and make our way up to the top how are we suppose to learn?

The world is changing we are changing as teenagers and young adults but we are adapting with this changes, but the parents are busy with adulta world teying to figure out out to pay the bills, bring the food to their kids and hiw to guarantee their future and before they raise their heads up we grow we change and make our values and principles.

We have diffrent mindest from our parents we are not born at the same time or same generation as them we never tried to understand them, they never try too.

They believe they are always right, know better and we hate when our parents make us feel small, irresponsible and clueless.

Being strict with a teenager will lead to disobedience, shouting at your father's face won't back him off being rude to your mother will take you to your room grounded.

Instead of falling apart and losing each other we need to understand each other as a family and talk about everything so we all can be satisfied, happy and of course learn how we respect each other if we don't that might lead to some catastrophic consequences...

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