The step of my love in life - Part 3

This incident made me believe that there was some supernatural power which was trying

to bring us closer. But supernatural powers in 21st century, it‟s unbelievable and

moreover I did not have any faith in God. But then I thought maybe it is because of

Sonia‟s deep faith in existence of God. I was unable to understand and no technical

person would ever understand that. But one thing I was feeling that I was going to be the

most important person in her life. It reminded me of the saying that if you truly love

someone then whole of the universe would try hardest to make sure that you get that love.

But no one knows the destiny.

Whole of the universe seems to be beautiful. I am up in the sky. Love is a very

beautiful thing and whole world seems beautiful to the person who is in love. Even my

family noticed the changes in me. My attitude for every one changed. Now I was more

caring for my family. I started taking care of my mother. It seemed that I had learnt to

love not only Sonia but my family also. There had always been a loving person hidden in

me but it was Sonia who brought that love into my life.

It was the first week of June. 6th June is my birthday and on 5th of June she called

me at around 8 in evening.

She said, “Happy birthday dear, I want to give you a present I am unable to gather

the courage to face you, so I shall give it to your friend Sunil. Ask him to meet me

in university”

I replied “Ok, I would ask him”

At sharp 12 in night she called, “Hi, happy birthday dear, many many happy

returns of the day. May god bless you.”

I replied “thanks dear and I pray to god that I can celebrate all my birthdays with

you”

She took a long breathe and cut the call.

I did not insist on meeting her as I was scared of loosing her. But I didn‟t understand why

she hesitated to give the gift personally to me. Next day she took half day leave from her office to meet Sunil so as to give him the gift. But due to some reason Sunil could not be

at university. She called me in the evening.

She said sadly, “Your friend did not meet me. I waited him for two hours, I had

taken leave also. Where was he?”

I replied, “Dear I don‟t know the reason, but may I know what was the gift for

me”

She said “Chocolates, but now I will have to eat all that. My mother asked me

about all these chocolates but I lied, it‟s too bad”

I replied with smile “You ate or I ate it‟s the same thing so don‟t worry dear.

Don‟t feel guilty for that”

Again thought came in my mind whether I was doing right or not. I was in a fix but I

decided to let the things go on.

With time I was getting closer to her and same for here.

One day I called her and asked, “How are you janu?”

She replied, “Janu! What‟s that?”

I said “It‟s the name given to you by me”

She said in a childish tone “Ok as you wish”

After that I frequently used the words “janu” and “my sonia” and she never objected to

that, rather she loved to hear those words.

One day I messaged her at night “Sonia, I love you. It‟s impossible for me to live

without you. Do you love me? If you have same feelings for me then give me a

miss call before 10 in morning”.

Next day I was waiting for her miss call since 6 in the morning. I was waiting as if I was

getting some reward or waiting for the result of an examination. There were mixed

emotions in my mind. I was thinking if she says “no” then what will happen. It seemed to

be a matter of life and death for me. Minutes seemed to be as long as days or years .I was

very much nervous. Now its 9:55am, I was getting negative thoughts. But suddenly everything changed. I got a call at 9:59am, it was her call and everything changed after

that. I was feeling as if I have got everything I have ever desired for in life. I thanked God

for being so kind to me. I was really unable to believe that the person whom I loved the

most also loved me. It was perhaps one of the most important moments of my life.

Then I tried to tell her about my health. I messaged her that there is problem in

my muscles and I have difficulty in walking.

She called me and said very coolly, “You should take the ashvagandha with milk

to cure the weakness in your legs. I will give it to your friend Sunil tomorrow.

You should take that and you will be all right.”

I replied “Ok dear, I will purchase it myself. Tell me from where I can get that”

She told the place and brand (which was owned by a particular saint whom I didn‟t trust

at all). But I agreed. Just because she had asked me I started trusting the saint also. Earlier

I even used to exchange words with my mother over his truthfulness. But love made me

believe that saint also. Even a lie seems to be the truth when spoken by beloved ones.

That is the power of love.

Next day she asked me about ashvagandha. I lied that I had consulted my doctor

in Amritsar (where my treatment had been going on) and he suggested me not to take

that. She trusted me. I thought I might lose her love if I told her more than that. So I

thought that with time she would get apprised of my actual condition.

Now it was the time to go for the interview for the higher studies. She seemed to

be little sad.

She called me on the day I was leaving and said “Hi Sameer”

I replied, “Hi janu, I am leaving for interview along with my brother, pray to God

that I am successful in it”

In a happy but little sad tone she said, “Yeah, I always pray for you dear. Wish

happy and safe journey.”

It reminded me of the basic nature of a woman, that is, to be always so loving and caring.

Truly I was touched by these words.

I said, “You take care of yourself”. She replied, “You also take care, take food properly and don‟t forget to message

me after every one hour during journey otherwise I will not talk to you”. She was

getting too emotional.

It really brought tears in my eyes. She was getting possessive for me and I was feeling so

much love for her that it‟s impossible to explain.

Next day I left for that place. Before leaving I called her to say good bye. I

messaged her frequently. My interview was scheduled for next day; we (me and my

brother) stayed at my friend‟s place. We reached at 7pm in the evening. My brother and

friend went out and I decided to remain at home only.

I called her and said “Hi janu, how are you?”

She replied “I am fine. How are you, have you reached safely there, have you

taken lunch, tea etc. etc. etc. etc.?” she asked so many questions without taking

break.

I replied “I am fine dear. I know you care for me a lot. I am taking care of myself

well so don‟t worry”

She said “If you don‟t take care of yourself then I will not talk to you. My mom is

coming so bye and take care”

I said “Bye. God bless you”

I got emotion and messaged to her, “Sonia I love you very much, more than

anything else in life, just be with me for the whole life. It is unable to live without

you now. I will take care of you well. I will take care of our children. I love you

very much and I know that you also love me very much but it is difficult for you

to express being a girl. But I love you and don‟t ever think of leaving me.”

In love a person doesn't understand what he is saying. He is in love and

whole world seems to be lovable to him. I made all imaginations about our

marriage and life after that. It seems strange but when the person is in love then

he can imagine anything he likes no matter whether it is practically possible or

not.

Next day I got up early in the morning and called her before leaving for

interview. Her mother picked up the phone and said “Hello, hello, who are you?

With whom do you want to talk?” I didn't respond and disconnected the call. Her mother seemed to be angry because of the call. But I had to go for interview, so I

left.

I got selected in the interview and at noon I called her, “Hi janu, I got

selected in interview”

She said in an emotional tone “Congrats for that, now you will have to

leave Jammu”

I replied, “Don‟t worry dear; I am always with you, my soul remains with

you only.”

She said “Let„s see. Have you taken lunch? If not then cut the call and take

lunch now”

I replied “Ok, ok dear, I know you care for”

Then she said “You called in the morning, my mother asked me many

questions related to the call .Now go and take lunch and call me when you

reach home.”

I replied “Ok dear, you are so lucky for me. I got selected in it because of

your wishes.”

It shows how an Indian girl has to make adjustments due to the restrictions imposed on

her by her parents or elders but she is ready to adjust with these restrictions with for her

love and that is true in my case also. It once again shows my selfish nature, everything

was being done by my family and I was giving credit to that girl. But at that time I was in

love and far away from reality. But that‟s love. In love a person thinks about his lover

and nothing else.

On the journey back to Jammu, I listened the song of a recently released movie

„Krish‟ (A Bollywood movie) starring Hrithik Roshan and Priyanka Chopra many times

and imagined that I was singing it for her.

Dhup niklti hai jahan se, chandni behti hai yahan tak

Khabar ye ayi hai wahan se, koi tumsa nahin, koi tumsa nahin

On reaching Jammu I gave her a miss call at 12 midnight to inform that I had reached

home safely and in return she also gave a miss call. I felt that she was eagerly waiting for

me to reach Jammu and was awake till that time. I had to leave Jammu after a week. So these days were crucial for me. I had to

make preparations for going. She seemed to be little sad may be as I was leaving. Still we

had never seen each other, strange but true. Now I believed that the true love is between

two persons irrespective of their physical appearances. But it was far away from reality.

However sometimes I felt insecure also that if I met her personally then what would be

her reaction on seeing me. Did she truly love me or she loved me just because I was well

educated and belonged to a good family. I did not have the strength to tell her the truth. I

decided to let the things go on like that only and let time decide the fate of our relation.

Now it was the time to leave Jammu. I had to leave next day morning. I packed all

the things required.

In evening she called me and said with emotions, “Hi, how are you? So, you are

leaving tomorrow, take care of yourself well and call me daily. Don‟t forget me.”

I replied, “How can I forget myself dear? You are my soul and thus you always

remain with me.”

She said with a long breathe, “What if you find someone else there and forget

me?”

I replied angrily, “Shut up, you are my love and I love you more than anything

else.”

Then I asked her to put the call on hold and to listen the song (A bollywood song).

Tum ko bhi hai khabar, Mujhko bhi hai pta

Ho raha hai judaa, Dono ka raasta,

Dur jaake bhi mujhse tum meri yaadon main rehna

Kabhi alvida na kehna, Kabhi alvida na kehna.

We talked for around two hours. She was feeling very emotional and sad on my

departure. Next morning I left Jammu. It was a new beginning for me. On the way I

messaged her many times. I was so much lost in her love that I even forgot my mother.

Now I feel guilty but I didn‟t know what had happened to me that she was had become

the most important person in my life and all others were secondary. It was a great mistake

on my part. Next day I was in my hostel. I called her in the evening and had a talk with her.

Here there were no barriers as none could listen to our conversation and I could talk

freely without any hesitation.

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