Day 1

It was morning, the sun was sunning and I, Jake, wanted to disappear from Earth.

The weather was warm,it was like the world was giving me a hug, which I didn't want.

I am a student, last year in highschool. The place i call hell.

Everytime i go to school, bullies decide to make their appearance, making me remember just how unfair my life is.

My parents aren't any better, they don't care about me and i have started not to care about them too.

They think i am a waste of time and that i shouldn't have been born... That's was quite harsh when i first heard it but now it's just normal talk.

Days just kept passing, like a routine. My life is boring, i have to admit it. I keep waking up, go to school, then to my part time job and then home.

I keep being trapped in this endless circle that i want to break free so much. I don't care how, even if it's by dying, i just want to free myself.

Anxiety, Depression, maybe loneliness too are eating me alive. Those feelings have been with me since i remember myself. I must sound pitiful...I laughed at myself. There was no way i could keep living like this.

Now, night time, i kept staring at the ceiling. Not even sleep wanted me, i just stayed still until the sun showed up.

I got ready with a heavy heart and left the house.

As soon as i stepped in the school, i heard a laugh.

Of course it was Lucas...The one and only person who probably woke up every day and choose violence.

I was his punching bag, literally. He approached me and i felt a punch on my gut. Ouch! That hurt like hell.

I fell down, now being the center of attention...God i hate that. I felt the eyes on me, suffocating i felt like i was choking.

"Get up loser, i am not done yet" Lucas said and i did the complete opposite. I kept sitting on the floor.

Lucas irritated found another way to harass me

"Ha!You finally accept that you belong below me like a good dog!?"

That was the moment i regretted not getting up.

I heard laughs, insulting comments that only did more damage.

Since that day i was the "Dog" of the school.

Random day, just walking to class and there he was,Lucas.

"Come on, say woof and i will give you a treat" He said not even batting an eye.

Moments like this made me wonder what i did so wrong. It was either that or Lucas was a little insecure boy who just wanted a toy.

I moved passed him, looking down feeling sorry for myself. I just wanted a normal life and what i had now was really far from that.

I really wanted things to change somehow, but hope kept dying inside me and something else was beginning to grow inside on my hollow heart.

It was a subtle change that made me to the person i am now.

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