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It's hard to do the things that will make you happy. It's impossible to do everything, but what can we do if the things we want would never be ours. Just running on this place just to escape reality. Imagining that the things you are reading is reality. Doing these things is temporary escaping reality, but what can we do if this is the only way we could do to be free even just for a while.

I know a lot of things but can't even implement one. Not being able to do the things we wanted because of restrictions is so suffocating. A lot of people experienced such thing. Because of this a lot of them can't take it and decided to end it, by ending their own lives. A lot of people will criticize them by doing this, but if you are experiencing what they are going through. I don't know if you will ever last long like they do.

Sometimes putting yourself on their shoes can you really understand them. Being able to understand them will be of great help to them. Understanding their situation is enough for them. Even of you can't help them out. Understanding them is enough and all they want. Hoping and praying for their will being is good enough for them.

Those hardships we experience in life when we are facing them is so hard when we're alone. In the past, when I experience those things and when it feels like life is so hard. I was hoping that I could just die then and there. I don't know at that time that I'm facing a serious depression. I feel so hopeless and sad. Like life is full of suffering and struggle that is so hard to overcome. I never have known that it was depression at that time until many years passed.

That feeling of dread like you don't have tomorrow. Like everything is over, that feeling of being so down, being so hopeless and nothing to feel at all. Until one day when suddenly like i feel so numb of everything that i just want to end everything.

I feel so suffocate that i don't want to live anymore. That everything has lost its color. That feeling when you just want to give up your life. When i remember those feelings i have in the past, i feel so scared of my thoughts back them.

I just realized that if i didn't overcome those days, maybe just maybe I'm no longer in this world. This thought is so scary. Good thing i still have GOD with me. He didn't live me when i feel so down at that time.

Every time I feel like I'm lost. He will always find ways to make me feel like I'm not alone. So if ever you feel like your lost just trust HIM and everything will be fine.

I've been lost but now I'm found.

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