Chapter 1 - Love Is Weird

Love is weird.

It started from a quiet crazy friendship we had since elementary school, Tiere disappearance after graduation, we met up on her break ups, we hang out as friends, fake dating to make my crush jealous, end it with the thought I'm going to date the woman I've been waiting for, which is my first love, then we get back together as real couple when I realized that first love deals nothing with someone that I will never truly get over, someone I can't ignore, someone I give my heart to, more importantly someone who appreciates love. We have plot twisting drama during that time. Yep, drama happens in real life sometimes.

My long pointy fingers playing the white keys, creating soft tones. The melody brought me to some memories of ours, the beauty of our love, the trust we build since 3 years ago. I always miss her, sometimes I'd fly over the island just to see her. How dramatic. I must admit it that I miss her every day and night.

And the point is, I regret the mistakes I made. I ruined everything easily, but never get the chance to fix them.

In the past, I took both piano and guitar lesson altogether. Then Tiere learnt guitar herself after few times she saw me playing. She still had her father's guitar with her until now. Even though her parents abandoned her, she never once hate them. Look how kind she is, sometimes I think she is stupid.

She is a pure angel from earth.

I tried to refrain myself since the day one we made our choice to split. I've never wanted this to happen. Why would I agree to such decision?

I can never turn back time like magic and made things work as I wanted.

I cocked my head up with eyes closed, inhaling the wooden smell of my living room. The melody plays inside me, churning in my ears, pumping my heart and my brain is spinning around the notes. I feel the song in me, my fingers dancing above the keys, all I wanted today is to calm myself down.

I play the last part of the song.

Liszt – La Campanella is pretty hard, only some expert could play it well. Honestly, I'm actually quiet good at this and I love music for no reason since I was a kid, I wonder why mom never asked me to become pianist or a composer instead of business man, cause I'll be thinking twice if she did.

Right now, I am playing the song that brought me back to past. The very first time of my life I feel I want to return back to that time...

That time, that day, I remember well the weather is clear, bright in sky blue. I had my window closed, but I still can feel the vibes of a beautiful day.

My eyes glances at the note as my fingers never stop moving. I play music a lot recently since Tiere likes to hear me playing. She always liked to stand by the piano when I'm playing, or sat beside me while I'm playing guitar.

Liszt – La Campanella is the song I finished for her.

"COOLLLLLLL!!!!!!"

Tiere claps her hand and exclaimed vigorously.

"You are still good at it" she rested her chin on her palm. We'd spend the night for video calls when we have nothing to do after work. I miss her so much. I can't resist but I want to meet her as soon as possible.

I shrugged and tilted my glasses, acting cool, "Of course I am. Want me to take my guitar?" like a manga sensei character something. I'm still the gamer freak and Otaku.

(*Senpai: a teacher or instructor usually of Japanese martial arts (such as karate or judo)

(*Otaku: (Japanese: おたく or オタク) is a Japanese term for people with consuming interests, particularly in anime and manga)

Right, I admit it cause I still watch Anime. Currently watching Assasination Classroom on Netflix. Tiere too, we discuss about it sometimes. We were both raised and hang out only with Otaku in high school, so I assume we are 30% affected by them.

(*Assassination Classroom: (Japanese: 暗殺教室, Hepburn: Ansatsu Kyōshitsu) is a Japanese science fiction comedy manga series written and illustrated by Yūsei Matsui. )

"Are you posing as a p*rnstar?" she quirked an eyebrow.

I looked at her from the screen and sighed, "Do I look like a p*rnstar?" she's kidding right?

And we still talk like in high school too, even sometimes it's.... more.... too primitive, like...

It happened right around 3 months ago when I visited Tiere.

"Hey" she was about to lift her whole hoodie but I stopped her, "Hmm" she hummed, looking at me straight to the eye without feeling guilty. Is she not aware about me as a man?

"Are-are you gonna change in front of me?" I stammered, honestly my heart is beating so fast. I have never take a single look behind her shirt, even once.

"I am wearing sport bra inside" she jutted her lips out.

"But still.." I said through clenched teeth.

Tiere looked at me innocently, like a kid demanding answers. It makes me wonder what is inside her head, is she really innocent or what. She looked so dumb all of sudden that makes me confused. Then Tiere lifted her whole hoodie up on the spur of the moment without warning, I could see her bare skin and shocking pink sport bra with a tiny Nike logo in the middle, "OPPAI!!!!"

(*From the Japanese word for “breasts,” oppai refers to a female character's oversized “tits” in manga and anime)

"ARGHHH" I quit the room as she laughs so loudly, I can hear Tiere snickering behind the door even I shut it tight. Why so happy to show off her ****** for me?

I never wanted anything more than what we do as a couple right now, I love her, I want to keep her safe and respect her privacy. Kissing, hugging, cuddling are more than enough. I used to hold myself back, stop talking too dirty that could probably turn me on. I don't want to be that kind of pathetic pervert. As my girlfriend, Tiere herself clingily seduce me although I am holding my guts.

The day I spent with her always the best day ever despite of the long distance relationship. She lives really well since she moved out of town and found something more interesting to do, while herself previously struggle much to fulfill her own life expenses. Right now, she has no worries anymore, ever since she moved to another company a year ago. The new company gives her the payment others can't afford, and plus she's promoted this week.

"So...." finally folded the lid down, my hand holding my phone and eyes looking at her close up face, "Do you love your new job?"

Tiere stretched her arms up to the air, at the same time she smiles, her smile is always somehow addicting, "Yeaaa... I kinda love it, even though they are far from what I've expected.. I mean, I expect an easier work. I love working as interior designer too like previously, but the payment I got more is when I work freelance for it" she leaned her head on the table, looking at me through the screen. I always love the way she looked at me, so pure, calming and cute.

"Don't work too much, Tiere. I'll kill you if you stay all night working" I pressed my words, I notice she works so late and have to woke up so early in the other day. Her lips sealed for a while, but then she smiles, showing her teeth, "That's fine, baby. I am happy" she said, "Just..."

I raised my eyebrows, was waiting for her next words, "I kinda miss you" she pouted.

Arghhh, this is so frustrating! I just visited her 3 months ago when I took a week off from my company. Just before, I'd do anything to meet her at least three days but recently the manager took an eye from me, he used to be so forgetful but maybe I took too many permission to make him remember. I could lost my job someday. Shit man, missing her is sucks!

"It's fine! I have never take any leave for you.. I am so sorry" due to her freelances and else, Tiere has never take a leave ever since she moved out of town. I understand her, besides of working in a big and well known company, she has her own freelance job to do.

"It's okay..." I touched the screen, imagining myself touching her fluffy cheek, "I promise to visit you next time" I added. I never doubt her time for me, she is working so hard for herself, I must understand her. Born as just an ordinary, parents throw her out all of sudden. Working to earn a lot of money makes her happy, it's the first time for her to live a fancy life herself. As I myself was born rich, nothing lack of in my life. I could have anything from my parents and they are fulfilling my needs whenever I need it. But as time, I am a grown up man, and I don't spend much. I just spend my money for visiting Tiere, game vouchers and half of my salary for my savings. So my salary is more than enough for myself.

I should be grateful, I am lucky.

"Don't force yourself, baby. I promise I'll take some time to visit you back in hometown"

As long as she loves me, I don't care how busy she is. We are doing just fine.

"Are-"

"Don't argue with me!!" she glares. Okay, she meant it.

Although I miss everything about her. I miss when she spoiled me, when she touches my hair that tickling my skin, when she lets me lean on her laps and brush my eyebrows with her tiny fingers, when I lean on her chest listening to her heart beats. I miss everything we do as couple.

"Baby, I miss you so much"

"I miss you too, Tiere"

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