three

I had no breakfast and I passed out, found myself in the hospital bed.fortunately our neighbour got me there.

and I was pregnant...the baby was two weeks old.

I paid the hospital bill and returned home.I was stressed why? why I have to sleep with nathaniel and become pregnant when everything was in order and ready for me to go to Germany?why nathaniel,what I was going to say to nora?I cried complete two days....

I kept thinking and at last I decided to abort the child without letting nathaniel or anybody else know it.

I sent all my books back to our house in hometown and took time for the abortion for which I had to pay a huge price as it was illegal.the doctor tried to persuade me saying it could also result in losing my uterus too.however I was confident on my decision.when I was waiting for my turn infront of the operating room,I remembered others saying how hardly after eight years mother had me.there was a life inside me and I was abandoning it with no pity.me who was always afraid of being deserted was deserting this innocent baby so cruelly...

it was then when I realised I cannot throw one of my own blood and flesh away,I realised the attachment between us,it wasn't its fault,coming to this world wasn't a choice for it,it was innocent and pure.

I decided to give birth to the child no matter what.

two days later I went back and called him to meet.

-so do you had a change of mind?

+yeah.its important.

-so say it,im listening.

+iam pregnant.

he was motionless for an instant.

-no way,it can't be possible.you said we'll go our separate ways.

I took out the test results and put it infront of him.it exactly showed the date of that night.

+I have no choice,I have nobody to tell,I don't know how im going to face nora...I was going to Germany but everything's ruined....

I was crying infront of him,in short I was begging him....just for the child,because of the motherhood love inside me,maybe....

+at first I decided to abort it,I even went to the clinic that day.

he was listening wholeheartedly.

+but couldn't, at the last moment I realised I cannot just throw it away like a trash.

-what now

+I want to give birth to my child.but it has to have a name,I can't let it be fatherless.I can't just hide in another city like in stories.I wanted to go to Germany but I stayed.

-I understand.

+I wanted to ask if you're still on your word or I should try to find another way.

-you know I can't let my child with the mother live with other man.

+so.

-we'll get married.

+hmm...

+I have some conditions.

-go on

+no sexual contact.

-agreed.

+divorce once the child is born.

-agreed

+the child shall stay with me until two years,after that you can take it sometimes.

-agreed.

-I have a condition too

+say

-I will continue my affairs.

+fine but till we're married it shouldn't effect our life,I mean keep it completely away from the marriage.

-agreed.

-about the marriage your father

+he'll agree when I don't go to Germany.

in a weak we got married so quickly, we held no ceremonies and there was only a family dinner,so simple.

nathaniel's mother was also dead just like mine,and we both had stepmothers.he had an older brother only who wasn't married.I found his family wasn't satisfied with this marriage, ofc they wanted a rich beautiful girl instead if a poor ugly one....but I had no choice too!

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