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I opened my eyes and met another eyes glaring at me, found myself sleeping ***** in a man's arms.what's more shocking he was none than nathaniel!

+you!

I pulled him

he smirked

-morning Adalyn

I wanted to get up but couldn't because I was *****.

he laughed lightly.

hearing his laugh and seeing the red sheets,tears stormed through my eyes.

-hey

he came and held my shoulders.

I pushed him away shouting: don't touch me.

+so it was you in the bathroom.I was drunk I told you to stay away but you!I was a ******.

-I was drunk too,I didn't knew you were untouched....

I ignored his words, covered myself in the sheets leaving him *****.

I got up took my clothes and entered the bathroom.he said nothing but I could feel his heavy gaze all the time.

he was sitting on the bed with the clothes on.

I left the hotel and went straight back home.

everybody was asleep.

I was feeling guilty,like a sinner ,regretting with every cell on my body,I was in pain.

in our town X even though the people were aware of the developments around the world and changed in the way we think,still it was a shame to lose your virginity before marriage,and for me whose father always advised others, it was too bad.second thing if a women got divorced no matter how young she is,no unmarried man would marry her,there would always be old men or already married men with children marrying her,and the case was same with the widows,no one cared what actually they want and no parents would let their son marry a divorced woman or a widow and in my eyes it was completely cruel.there were stories of young men falling in love with such women but the society never let them together,no matter what!

I decided to forget that night although it was impossible.next day an unknown number called:

+yes?

-im nathaniel.we need to talk.please.

we met the next day.I thought he'll suggest me to forget everything, but surprisingly he was taking responsibility of my virginity. he knew what will be my future if the world finds out about it.he wanted to help.

-lets marry,it will be the best way.

+I know we have committed a sin but I don't think marriage will be the solution.

-so do you want to go to a doctor?

+no,I lost it,I don't want to make a fake one.

-but you'll have problems.

+I won't. i'll marry somebody who would understand me with all my faults and still want me.

+nathaniel

he looked into my eyes.

+I want us to forget everything.

-I don't think I can.he smiled.

I really didn't understand what he really meant.

+I don't remember what happened after the washroom.