4 : BIRTHDAY

'Its my birthday saturday. are you coming over this weekend?' By the time he hit send Haruki's hands were ice cold. He closed the phone and tightly shut his eyes and rested his head on the window behind.

By the time he reached home he regretted sending the message. He decided to withdraw the message but it was already marked as seen. Although he repeatedly told himself not to expect anything from him. Haruki was dissapointed to see that his mesaage was ignored.

There was a time when Haruki messaged Jin on daily basis. He wished him 3 times a day like clock work. But after being completely ignored after marking seen or sometimes not even bothering to take a look at his texts Haruki stopped. After the incident it took Haruki abundant amount of courage to text Jin first. And now that all of this courage was left at 'seen' Haruki didnt know what to do.

He left out a sigh. What is he even doing?. Why was it that every little action of his broke Haruki's heart every time? Haruki sometimes doubts if he had a heart anymore. But each time Jin proved that he did ,by breaking it yet again better than the last time. Compared to all those times this didnt even bothered Haruki in the least. He put his head down on the table and remembered the first one of the series.

It was during the 3rd year of highschool. Rumors speard across the school that the most famous alpha of the school- Jin broke up with his girlfriend. It was a news even to Haruki. He met up with Jin just yesterday and Jin didnt mention anything about it. It just showed how little they communicate with each other in the first place. Anyhow Haruki, who until then thought that Jin was already dating him but couldnt make it official since he already had a girlfriend and couldnt breakup with her due to some god-knows-what reason, thought that Jin and him are finally going to be an official couple.

Haruki knew he shouldnt be happy in someones sorrow. But he couldnt help himself. He never wanted anything for himself as much as he wanted Jin. Nothing ever gave Haruki all those feelings that Jin could give him. The omega in him only wanted to be held by this Alpha. And Haruki who always hid himself could be his true self only infront of Jin. Haruki wondered if it was okay for him to be selfish. Unlike all those pretty omegas this was the only chance he had.

Haruki looked at Jin's broad back from the bed. He was putting his cloths back on. Haruki was exhausted. He didnt have the strength to stand up. 'Now is the time' Haruki thought. He sat up straight. He could feel his nose turning cold from nervousness. He bit his lips and asked Jin.

"I got two tickets to the aquarium. I was wondering if you wanted to go with me this weekend?". It took him all of this months treats to get the tickets from his brother. But he thought it was worth it. Haruki continued to stare at his plam and refuse to look up. But even a 5 year old could understand that he was embarrassed. Even he himself could see blood rushing all through his face. He knew he might be looking like a tomato. Haruki was glad that Jin's back was turned towards him.

"pfft." Haruki suddenly looked upto see that Jin was facing him. His face had a smile. But anyone could see that it didnt reach his eyes. He gave a smirk and asked "Dont tell me you though we were dating.." .

Harukis heart sank. He didnt reply but turned his gaze down. " unbelievable!..." He caught Haruki by his jaw and turned his face to look at him. Haruki looked into Jin's eyes and at the moment everything cleared up infront of him.

Jin said "Dont get the wrong idea just because i keep fucking you. Now wash up and get out of here!" then pushed Haruki's face away and stromed out of the room.

The room was eerily silent. Nobody heard Haruki's heart crumple. Haruki got dressed and left. His legs somehow took him home.

That day Haruki cried his eyes out. He tasted the bitterness of first love even before he got to know the sweetness. He recalled the loathing behind the smile on Jin's face and wondered if that was always like that.

This was the only time that Haruki cried for Jin, even in the next 8 years. Because Haruki knew that it was his own choice to go back to Jin after that. The reason was that Haruki couldnt bring himself to leave Jin. Nobody else gave him the feelings that Jin gave him. So no matter what Jin did Haruki reminded himself that he was the only one responsible for the mess he was in.

Even though he knew it was in vain. Haruki liked to believe that someday Jin might see him. And he's been waiting for that day for eight years.

Haruki glanced at his phone. It was still empty.

The next day was friday. Haruki hoped that even if he doesnt want to celebrate the birthday, Jin would just come over. It was always once every two weeks. And even if he didnt, it would be due to some trips or work related matter and Haruki was informed before hand. This was their routine for the past two years after collage.

Haruki made dinner and waited up until ten o'clock. 'BEEP'. Haruki rushed over to the door. Jin knew the password and always came in on his own.

Jin was standing in the door way as perfect as always. He wore a navy blue suit. Unlike Haruki's it was evident from a single glance that it was pretty expensive.

Haruki always noted that Jin was one of gods favourite creations. His body was one that anybody would die for. He didnt have a bulky body and neither was it lean. But Haruki who had seen and experienced the power in those hands knew that it was extremely powerful for its size. He was pretty sure Jin would win any fight even without his pheromones.

His face was even perfectly chiseled face which made omegas, alphas and even betas swarm over him. It made Haruki wondered if he was just a simp for handsome men. But Haruki knew better, he was a simp for just this handsome man.

Jin walked into the living area. His scent filled the room. Haruki who was deprived from it for two weeks shuddered. 'This is the best'. Haruki thought as he breathed in more and more. Jin removed his jacket and laid it on the sofa and sat down.

Although Jin never showed it on the surface Haruki knew that Jin loved the food he cooked. Last time Haruki couldnt prepare anything because he was late and only made a light breakfast. Jin usually never have breakfast even during collage days. But Haruki still prepares them for him. Compared to breakfast he enjoyed having dinner. Now he was waiting for the dinner.

Haruki who was immersed in admiring Jin's beauty suddenly remembered about the dinner and served it.

After dinner Jin took Haruki to the bed. 'i guess he dont remember..' Haruki thought amidst the hungry kisses. Jin's tounge explored every little corner of Haruki's mouth. Haruki moaned in pleasure under him.

I dont think i can get enough of him no matter how many times. Haruki thought and let his body take control over him.

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