Thursday, 02 January 2014
The sun on the stairs welcomes me home. But he still reads when I'm around him. And I tried to sit cross-legged without intending to disturb the reading that he always reads over and over every month without getting bored.
Saturday, 02 October 2010
Looks like it just started yesterday afternoon. When Akbar said 'Lek is the one whose name is Kenanga'. Without realizing it, I watched where the ylang went until it completely disappeared at the end of the classroom door. After that meeting I became more and more curious about Kenanga, even now. Not entirely what Adit said was true. Memories are... Beautiful? not that. But it seems more appropriate to feel at ease when you see it. I don't know what it is.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
A secluded corner between the bookshelves. The usual place for me, Adit, Loli, and Akbar to play our sacred game. Truth or dare. This time it was Loli who played. 1, 2, 3 the five of us shouted silently. The direction of the nib spun swiftly past us. Then slowly started to slow down. It drew near to me and continued on its way, speeding closer to Akbar. And at one point it didn't move anymore.
'Aadit… Truth or Dare?' Loli's shrill voice hung from the library ceiling. 'Loli is waiting…' while forming a victory symbol with her left hand resting on her chin and her right hand busy playing with cockroaches in a plastic bag.
'Euh… that's a very capital child' nudged Akbar.
'Truth' Adit slowly gulped.
'Tell me about the girl you like in detail'. You just talk about love, there's nothing else to do, I thought.
'Her name is Kenanga'
'Continue? Where do you go to school, what kind of person is that?'
'School here'
'Hah? Seriously, what class are you in?' my curiosity starts to emerge
'Shhh…' Akbar and Loli said in unison while hitting my head
'For me everything, everything, anything about Kenanga is beautiful. The biggest reason I went to school here is also because of Kenanga. I was dating him. But he dumped me
'You swear? Break up why?' I said spontaneously but this time I didn't get hit, instead Akbar and Loli continued to ask me 'Yes Adit, why did you break up?'. 'Well are you mad too?' I finally had a chance to jitakin them one by one. Not long after, the jitak war stopped when Adit just shook his head. Finally, because of deep concern over the occurrence of Adit's love inflation. That same afternoon we held a meeting of five cool councils that decided to form a secret intelligent agency whose mission was to investigate everything about a girl named Kenanga indefinitely.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Sitting on the steps of the mosque accidentally in my vision I caught the face of a girl who was joking with her friend. I watched the girl, like something was interesting. Maybe because she's pretty. Oh… no. remember. I looked at the girl again. Right. He was similar to Kenanga but with a different smile. Much more cheerful. Much more beautiful. 'Lek watch out for adultery' Akbar startled me and I lost him.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
I walked with my 3 year old sister enjoying the memories of the fried chicken we just ate. The beginning of a pleasant month, this is priceless happiness. But suddenly there was the sound of people sobbing in the middle of the street. At first I thought it was stupid. Erm but sorry too. 'Why are you crying in the middle of the road?' when he showed his face, my heart almost fell out 'Kee… nanga?'.
20 minutes passed…
He and my sister devoured it all. Even I can only look at my ice cream which he asked 'How cruel'. 'Think of it even Put. You pay for what your friends have done. PHP-in my feelings made me like this' he breathed out a breath that seemed to pierce his heart. I don't understand his way of thinking. Does she have to be that sad to see Adit with his new girlfriend? After all, he was the one who decided Adit, why didn't he move on, I thought. I said 'What a strange girl…' my sister looked at me sadly. 'Sorry' I said a little regretfully.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
My father and I went to his house. Haver. I don't know why at that important moment I still think about my teenage curiosity.
'You stalker…' he and everyone else in the room chuckled at my silliness. “S to the Erius Ken” I snapped because I almost died from embarrassment and my suffocating curiosity. He inhaled and exhaled again “Well to the well well well, emm… maybe it's because of Allah. I don't know that dating is not allowed. At that time I was little. So, when I understood it, I decided not to date anymore. I was wrong to involve him in my life. I should have kept that feeling until I was sure he was my soul mate. And why am I crying, because I used to love. But I try to accept it. Maybe there's something better for each of us' then he paused for a moment to give his sister a mischievous smile. 'By the way, what's the interpretation, when are you guys meriting?' the atmosphere got a little awkward but I could tell he was just trying to control the situation. When will she smile without sadness again. Is it still because of Adit or because of other problems. 'What a strange girl' I said involuntarily. 'What?' Kenanga and his sister glared at me. 'Ah it looks like the bottom of my shoes is a little weird today…' they still gave me a suspicious look.
Thursday, 02 January 2014
The sun on the stairs welcomes me home. But he still reads when I'm around him. And I tried to sit cross-legged without intending to disturb the reading that he always reads over and over every month without getting bored. 'Let's visit my family' while closing the Qur'an.
Finally, I obeyed him. Even so, I still feel suffocated when I enter the gate. As if it happened again. When I shouldered one of the corners of the coffin the body was carried and I also remembered when I covered the body with the ground. 'Mas Put come on…' he walked excitedly towards the center of the cemetery. Where there are three simple mounds of land owned by his father, mother, and brother which he always cleans once a week of weeds that have sprung up. Then we will pray for him.
'Mbak Ken...' he smiled sincerely while holding my hand. We departed when the dusk began to seduce us to return to our lap. "Remember, don't be upset anymore. Hope to find a good man in the world there. Haha you weird girl…” I said to myself. "Sir son!" his eyes widen in front of me. "What? no no, don't you talk weird about Kenanga really." "What the hell, there's somay. Let's buy it." Gosh, I thought he could read my mind. Sorry Kenanga peace. Not again, this is the last time
