is it good to be loved by parents?...I also want to feel complete parental love...but I can only feel it in my dreams.
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my family used to be very complete...but it wasn't for long.
at that time our family moved house...and also brought a maid to clean the house or do housework and take care of my sister.
At that time the family was almost broken because of someone under the blanket...
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At that time my mother worked as a teacher in elementary school...and my father worked at a gas station...
and yes ... well at home there was only my sister and also a maid ... at that time I was in school.
I was 9 years old at the time...
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not in a long time my family was destroyed ... because my father had an affair with the maid at my house ...yes...because of that maid my family was destroyed..destroyed
before my mother and father divorced...I saw their fight firsthand...my mother was angry and sad over the behavior of my father who had an affair with the maid...
I saw it straight away... saw it
my mother smashed the existing glasses and plates...everything my mother slammed until it broke and also cried...everything my mother slammed...
I saw it...sob...I saw it...at that time I could only see their fight...I could only stay in my room...can only listen and see everything...
my mother was crying and also angry while talking to my father...
hiks...i just saw it without crying..I cried until I heard the word 'divorced'...
I cried until I fell asleep sitting down because I was silent...
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after their fight...my mother came to court to ask for divorce papers...after my mother asked for divorce papers from the court...my mother went home and immediately signed the divorce papers that... after my mother signed the letter, my mother immediately sent it to my father by ordering someone to deliver my father's things and the letter...
and my mother said to me that 'we will live alone because you are divorced from your father'...
I listened to my mother say that to me, I just said 'yes ma'am'...
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Days turn to months, months turn to years...
I'm getting bigger...
now i'm in 6th grade...i also have friends at school....
when I got home from school...I saw my friends being picked up by their parents...some were picked up by their mothers and some were picked up by their fathers...
I saw my friends being picked up by them, I also wanted to be picked up by my father...
but it is not possible...
because I'm not at home with my father...
I also want to feel complete parental love...
it's only in my dream...
Days turn to months, months turn to years...
now i'm in 1st grade
every day i envy my friends...
I miss my dad...
my father has also remarried...and i have 2 mothers...
I just want to feel complete parental love
that's all....but why can't I be like other kids...
sometimes we all also have desires...but, we can't get them all...
thank you so much for reading...
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