#3.mental peace and piece

{Namjoon's p.o.v}

Well, isnt it just great to be able to breathe, now its suffocating me every time i think,how mom committed suicide. Its my fault, only if i hadnt been a burden on her, she was my only family. Dad i never had one, i dont even know how I was born. Im just sixteen, i have no idea how i will survive. I dont know where mom worked all i know is i am left alone. Maybe i should also die, i hold a knife near my wrists, before someone pulled it away, slapping me.

{Yoongi's p.o.v}

I was on my way to namjoon's apartment, well he is my neighbor, and also has attended the underground rap battles with me, secretly, we all know parents wont allow. I just enter as the his apartment as it is unlocked, suddenly what i see makes me fall the food mom had sent for him. All i did wall pull the knife in his hands and slap him tight, maybe a little to tight its gonna leave a mark. I could see he was in various emotions all together like anger, sadness, tension, depression and frustration. He looked at me with big eyes, he looked miserable, and pathetic, way worse than the nerd he is.

"Hyung, let me just do this and it will all end no more, no one will suffer, no one needs me anyways, no one loves me, please hyung" he said half crying, sniffing and sobbing. If I dont help him he will get worse, so after showing him a glare i hugged him, tight and let him cry as we both slowly sat there, he cried the whole day, sitting there, and comforting him is all i can do.

Now comes the main question, how on hell is he gonna pay his school fee, well i cant say my parents will help, we are not that rich, though providing him two meals a day is what is gonna do, and the apartment he is using also needs rents, so we need minimum of twelve thousand bucks only for school and apartment and more five thousand bucks for other payments and also three thousand bucks for daily items. And since its not possible for him to earn this much money, we ended up in a solution of school fees, he will ask for scholarship, the next the rest of stuff still means nine thousand bucks, we will earn by going in underground rap tournaments not only for competition but for high price money and namjoon will be taking all the money till he gets a proper job after school.

Well this what we do till our school years, and end up in a university, and now namjoon is eighteen, and we decide to officially work for some company as interns before they give us jobs permanently. And yea for this we leave going to the underground battles, we were doing fine in our university until i met this cute boy jimin, i dont know what he did but i had to ask him out and well, now he is in my arms and namjoon approved, im still worried for him, he has been in depression since years now, even though he dosent shows much, but i know that fake smile better than anyone.

{Namjoon's p.o.v}

I like sitting outside in the university playground near the trees, and many times, i slip to the park near by, and tody was the same, when i was sitting in the park, while some small children played, when a good looking guy, with plum lips and cute smile, his eyes were just like the ocean deep, and he played with kids and even offered them chocolates.He was just so attractive playing with the children and laughing,I just couldnt help but stare at him and glare at anyone who approached him. I dont know why i had the urge to go and see him again, so i used to go daily, and many times i used to see him, he was an angel, he always came by 1:00 p.m and leaves running by 1:30 p.m. , he was a sweet man always smiled at the kids, maybe someday i want him to smile at me the same way.

His hairs swayed with the whistling wind, they were perfectly cut according to his face and made him look cute, and his black along with brown highlight at patches on his hairs were just so beautiful, he was so cute, even tho he is older for sure, he looks so much younger to me, he is unlike me , he was well dressed with a proper fashion sense which looked so perfect on him, and when he smiled, there was this weird tingling sound in my ears and my body felt giddy, somehow i liked this feeling.

somehow me and yoongi had uncut hairs, and even wore big black spectacles, we looked like some shit *** nerds and we had bad sense of fashion, we looked untidy, so people usually didnt hang out with us, but even tho jimin was the popular rich *** kid, he just accepted yoongi because he loved how yoongi played the piano and had secretly followed yoongi  and seen how yoongi played other instruments and loved music, and jimin loved this about yoongi, jimin was to be honest very handsome and cute, he ad a bright personality and many friends, still he has a pure heart so i accept him as my friend. But i never felt like that giddy after seeing jimin as i do looking at this man .

And here im sitting with yoongi and jimin who is sipping some drink, well i wanted to talk to the man but im way to shy or introverted, and he came, i looked over to jimin sitting between me and yoongi so we dont end up in a fight like always, he looked back at me, I nodded, he shook his head, and this continued irritating that old grandpa .

"Its already 1:15 pm"

I signed and shook my head, and just accepting a defeat, when jimin got up and walked to the man, they were close enough for us to hear their conversation.

"umm... hello im jimin, park jimin"

"hello, im seokjin, kim seokjin, how can i help you" and he smiled slightly embarressed.

"No, actually, you are cute and kind,and my friend there wanted to talk to you, he is just too shy to talk to you so he asked me talk instead"

He giggled, jin giggled and i was also blushing thanks to jimin embaressing me in front of my only crush, like wow.

He waved at me and bowed, he checked him time and said he would talk tomorrow, and left i could see redness growing onto his ears and neck. And jimin returned , yoongi complimented on how cool his shawty boyfriend was, making me scoff and we returned back to uni to  complete our classes.

 Well the next day we trio were back on the spot waiting for the man, he came towards us and smiled as jimin greeted him with a hug and a bright smile. Well i wanted to do that but im bad at physical contact and will only make it awkward..

So from that day onwards i started to be one of his friends, we used to talk and laugh together even tho it was just half an hour, it was fun and sometimes yoonmin would leave us alone, to be honest he was a fine man, a lovable man someone who could even make the most depressed atmosphere just a cheerful onw, when many months later when we were close to our graduation, just after our final exam i sat with him and asked him,

"UMMM......jinnie there is this person i wanted to ask out to be my lover, but idk how to" he had an unreadable expression idk what he was thinking but giving a genuine smile he continued

"firstly, change your hairstyle and sense of fashion, then go with bergenia plant, but remember take the flowers not the whole damn plant, and ask in a soft tone, maybe try talking to me like how u will ask"

"umm.. ok so jinnie will u be my lover?" i said in my normal tone, which is cold according to people, he looked at me and shook his head

"jimin will help you, i have to go, btw i wont come for two days"

"ok but why?"

He looked at me in the eye with a peircing look,"dont have to know" and he left, and suddenly yoonmin jumped in front of me from the bushes near by "looks like i have to help again huh?" jimin looks at me sipping on his drink "tomorrow at 8'o clock am. be prepared i will get my car and no need to carry any cash or card, you too mah lovely baby, be prepared at joon's place" He said and left.

Next day in the morning we did as were told and soon jimin drives in front of my apartment in his BMWC and he drove us to a clothes store and two men helped us try many clothes on, while he got himself a wallet, well not like we did not try to stop him, its just we were forced into it, and he literally judged our clothes and apid for us, we got like so many clothes, I never even got in my 25 years of life. Now ik why jimin always has the best clothes, its cuz he comes to these expensive showrooms and gets the best of the best thing. He then drove us to an expensive saloon i have inly heard of and we had some serious glow up after a hair cut and coloring of hairs, mine was in purple and properly styled with my newly bought silver rimmed glasses, i looked like some proffesor, i dont believe im so handsome, and yoongi got a black color haired than his natural brown growth, now he looked so damn hotter, WOW!!!! i cant thank jimin enough.... And finally we reached home, just to find his dad had appointed yoongi and jimin's personal secretary and me as the director, well our marks could have got us that job, after all straight 99.9% is some hard work, well i have to thank jimin for all he has done with whatever help he asks me for and anything. And what's the best is jimin taking over his company as soon as we join that is a week laterI swear jimin is the purest soul alive and his afmily too, they gave us jobs just based on our marks previous year and  we will get our m arks in next three days.

So finally i topped the uni, and yoongi is second, everyone looks at us as if we were the best thing they saw as we walk behind jimin, who was third because of his english marks, he literally led us to a flower shop, got the told flower by seokjin as the flower to be taken and pushed me inside the park, with people starring at us trio, i heard them compliment 'those three are so beautiful' and i walked inside with a nervous look and the flower in hand ans seokjin sat there looking at the fall seasons beauty as i walked to him and he looked at me with widened eyes and walked towards me "u-u look s good joonie"

"Thanks"

"are u going to confess?"

"umm...yea"

"go the person must be waiting, u shouldnt make the person wait, dont waste ur time with me" he had this bitter smile, he looked sad even with the smile

"so...Kim seokjin will u be my lover? and stay by my side till the very end, idk how exactly i fell in love with u, but since the day i laid my eyes on you, i have loved u"

he looked shook and his ears red, and slowly the tint spread across his face and neck, he nodded literally crying,and finally for the first time i hugged him, he cried on my cheeks, when two others join our hug, we all hug together, from that day onwards i worked hard got a bigger apartment, alongside yoongi and jimin, well jimin could afford a bigger one, but he wanted to be near us, damn that boy, now jinnie's parents didnt agree their son being gay and that also a younger male, so it was alot of hardwork when they finally agreed, and cancelled his, so fixed marriage with lily, because he was gonna suicide, that was worst time in our lives....somehow they agreed.

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.So now i had the reason to live,well so i work hard, to get a job and within a few years i get a much bigger apartment and now my house is where we hang out, and yoongi and jimin right next door, like they bicker so much and many times jimin comes over, in anger, and jin is so used to this like me, we too bicker, but seriously not this often. And i just hug my angel in arms, well isnt this a beautiful fairy tail? Well the biggest problem was his dad, he even had grounded jin for sometimes, they sent men to beat me up and even woo me with money, and then somehow they allowed.......atleast someone loves me, i hope he dosent leaves me like mom did.....

***"Baby I love\, i will never leave\, im not someone else\, im urs and only urs\, take good care of me and i will be ur perfect wife\,do not leave me\, no matter what we will sit and atlk it out\, dont leave me please" *** I say to him\, well yea im bottom\, he hugs me and presses our lips together\, he says it with the kiss\, we dont need words\, we just need to drown in each others eyes.....

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