What is love?!

POV of Kim (ml)

I am from a multicultural family where my dad is German and my mum is Korean, I have two senior brother and sister so obviously I’m the last born of three children. My family is more of your typical traditional Korean family where we practice the extended family system with a twist of European influence. As a result, the family gets together at least 3 times a year. I live with my Korean grandma in New York (yeap, I’m a nanny’s boy!) and I extremely love my family.

Not to brag but I’ve always been surrounded by love all my life and there’s love everywhere I go. I always try to encourage people around me to spread and open up to love.

I have always been a capable and a positive person since a young age, I started drawing my future goals when I was only three years old and I held my first art exhibition at that same age. At four, I won first place at the nationwide piano competition. I accomplished so much achievements as I grew up to the extent that my community asked me to run for the post of a senate to which I refused. I always succeed in whatever I set my mind to do even in love.

The first person to captivate my heart was a girl I met when I was only ten years old, Adele. We were of the same age and from different schools, we met at a friend’s birthday party. I remember watching beauty and the beast as a kid and I fell in love with Belle so I began using her as my beauty standard for all girls who approached me when I was young. So when I met Adele I was mesmerised. I saw Belle in her and I couldn’t resist the edge to as her out. Who can question or control how and the appropriate age at which one falls in love!?

At my first attempt, I was utterly rejected by her and we remained best friends but I never gave up. I kept pursuing her for four years till on her fifteenth birthday she finally said yes. It’s never easy pursuing a woman like my paternal grandpa once said, “chasing after a woman is like waiting for a talipot palm to bloom” but the chase is worth it.

Our relationship was constantly like we were in our honeymoon phase, we never got bored with each other and everyone knew we had plans toward marriage after university. The only person in my family who had a second opinion about Adele was my maternal grandma, I never understood why because Adele was an angel in disguise. She was the person I had all my firsts with, “kiss, sex, fights, alcohol, clubbing and many more.

After university, the topic of marriage was brought up but she kept changing the topic and postponing it so I thought it was one of those cat and mouse chase cycle I had to go through again so I gave in to here demands. After fifteen years of being with her, she suddenly asked for a breakup! I was hit so hard that my philosophy on love shuttered, my first and only relationship lasted for twenty years with an additional four years of friendship with the same person!

She never gave me any tangible reason for the breakup and I thought we were doing well. It’s been a year since the break up and I constantly tell myself it is all my fault, due to this I suffered psychologically and have never had a steady relationship. My last relationship lasted a week which by the way is the longest I’ve been in after my relationship with Adele.

So tell me what is love!? Some one should please help me kindle this passion I had for love because I’m breaking down mentally!

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