chapter 5

You heard your mom sniff and softly approach you. She was crying. 

How dare she. 

"D-Dear I'm so sorry--" She reached out to you but you slapped her hand away, cold eyes meeting her damp ones as you chuckled lifelessly. 

"You think that's enough?" You growled lowly, having enough of the bullshit you've been put through.  

With all your remaining energy, you turned around and stomped out the house, brushing off your 'mother's arms when she tried to pull you back. You needed to get out of that house. 

It took awhile to finally hear your mother's sobs dissipate in the wind, as you stumbled your way towards the park. The walk seemed endless with your tears still falling down your cheeks. People looked at you concerned, but you ignored them and continued walking, wondering where the tears come from and why they never stopped.  

Although you felt like losing consciousness then and there, you forced yourself to go on, wanting to see the person who have stolen your heart at just a glance. 

Jeon Jungkook. 

You thought about him. Everything about him. He was the epitome of perfection. He was pure, innocent, kind, selfless, and gorgeous. It was as if all the evil and

negativity in the world feared to taint him, to taint his immaculate soul.  

Meanwhile, you were his polar opposite. You were desperate, sad, weak and selfish. Yet here you were, walking towards where you first met, hoping to catch a glimpse of those plump lips you had almost had a taste of. You weren't worthy of him, and yet you continued to look for a faint chance, hoping that maybe this time, something would go right for you. 

You were greeted by the familiar scent of the fresh grass of the park, and it would have comforted you, but there was no Jungkook to be found. 

And then, your walls broke down. 

You fell on your knees and sobbed, your form trembling as you gripped the weeds that grew on the ground tightly, wincing as you felt sharp rocks dig into your skin painfully, causing blood to rush out of the fresh wounds. Your skin was tingling in desperation, pure hatred coating your heart as you squeezed your chest, urging the pain to go away but failing helplessly. You screamed, and then realized nobody would ever bother listening. 

You were alone. Always have, and always will be. 

It felt like hours until you finally felt yourself become swallowed by the numbness of pain. You weakly scooted towards the closest tree, leaning on its trunk as you brought your knees to your chest tightly, welcoming the mixed smell of grass and blood. You buried your head into your arms, taking slow deep breaths, when all of a sudden, a familiar voice called out your name. 

"Y/N?" Your breath hitched. 

It was him. 

You inched closer to the trunk, hiding your face deeper into your arms, not wanting him to see how pathetic and helpless you were. "D-Don't come any closer" You choked out. 

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