000 - Ella and the Broken Maya
Maya has been added to the Chatroom.
Ella
Hello Maya! Welcome to my Chatroom. We have a very simple set of house rules here which are (1) anything mentioned in this chatroom will stay in this chatroom and (2) whatever was talked about in this chatroom, please keep it to yourself.
Maya
Hello. Nice to meet you.
Several minutes of silence passed by.
Several minutes once more passed by before Maya finally started to type.
Maya
Hello. I'm sorry. I'm just kinda new with this and all. 🥺
Maya
I'm from J Country and I am taking up Business Administration. I am a scholarship student and I usually focus on my studies before anything else. So far, I've been very motivated due to my determination to achieve my dreams.
Ella waited once more for Maya who once again became quite and this time for more than 10 minutes.
Ella
What made you doubt yourself? Your previous motivation and all.
Maya's Status didn't change for quite some while.
Maya
I really am determined to achieve my dreams. As an ordinary person coming from a less privileged family, all I can rely on is hardwork and perseverance.
Ella
What made you think otherwise?
Maya
I was really determined before. I was purely just trying to pursue my dreams before.
Maya
But everything changed because of him.
Maya's fingers quivered as her eyes reddened.
Maya
I really didn't want anyone to know about this. But I just couldn't bear it all silence so I tried to find a way to this out of my system.
Ella patiently waited as Maya tries to find the courage to word her thoughts.
Maya
Well, I liked this guy who was everything I've ever dreamed of.
Maya
Ordinary but cool. Reliable and approachable. He's an admirable man who succeeded despite living in extreme poverty in his youth.
Maya
You know... Like the common cliche story of some people becoming phoenixes from mud.
Maya
He was my inspiration. My role model. My idol.
Maya
And somehow he became the first man I've ever loved my entire whole life.
Maya
He had been my professor since I was freshman. And he is currently my Thesis Adviser too.
Maya
And I believe we've become sort of close over the years I've been his student.
Ella
Oh my God. Have you confessed yet?
A few moments if silence passed by.
Maya
And I won't. I've decided I won't. I shouldn't.
Ella was shocked and confused at the same time.
Ella
But why? I think you'll hit it off with him if you try.
Maya pursed her lips and sighed before writing another chat.
Maya
I was a motivated student trying to earn high grades and as much credentials as I could for my resume. I was his most motivated student.
Maya
At first it's all about me wanting to achieve my dreams and all.
Maya
But as I spent more time with him as his student, I started seeing different sides of him. It began from pure curiosity. I was curious about the only professor who took our problems and matters as students seriously.
Maya
He's really popular amongst us students. He's responsible and kind despite he's strict attitude as a teacher.
Maya
He's also fun and easy to get along with. And as I tried to satisfy my curiosity, I started wanting to see more of him.
Ella bit her fingers while waiting for Maya's chats. Maya didn't type anything until after more than three minutes have passed by.
Maya
And yes. I did fall for him. And I became more motivated because of him.
Maya
I became motivated not because of my dreams but because I want to spend more time with him. I wanted to see more of him. And him being my Academic Adviser made it easier for me to meet him.
Maya
And we became really close too. We had this sort of friendship between a student and her teacher. But my growing feelings made everything feel so wrong.
Ella
But you're currently writing your Thesis right? You'll be graduating soon so it won't feel so wrong to confess soon.
Maya chuckled and smiled sadly.
Maya
Yeah. That's what I thought too. Forgetting the fact that he is more than eight years older than me and that he may either already have a lover or a wife.
Ella gasped in realization and suddenly didn't know what to say or how to react.
Maya sighed and started to type again.
Maya
I tried to ask around but he's too private. No one knows if he had a girl or a wife at home.
Maya
He never talks about himself too much too.
Maya
He's too mysterious. So mysterious it made me panic and worry even more.
Maya
What if he's taken? What if he already had kids waiting at home for him?
Maya
And God forbid but what if he's actually a psycho in disguise? I fell in love with a psycho then? 😭
Ella fumbled nervously. She set up the Chatroom out if boredom and rarely ever really encounters people who wants to talk about anything.
She waited and sighed before typing something she knows is dumb but will type anyway.
Ella
Don't worry Ella! Think positive! Even if all else fail, let's at least believe he's not a psycho.
Maya was left speechless. And before she knew it, genuine laughter escaped her after spending so long feeling sad for nothing.
Maya
I'll take it as you comforting me. Thank you.
Maya smiled. And sighed and spared lucky charm in her desk a look.
Maya
Fortunately, he wasn't a psycho.
Ella slapped her forehead when she read Maya's chat. She scolded herself for being stupid.
Maya
I saw him with a women recently. And they were really intimate.
Maya
Yeah. They were really close. Their arms were linked the entire time. And they hugged a lot of times.
A realization struck Ella.
Ella
You stalked them?!? 😱
Maya closed her eyes in embarrassment.
Maya
I mean I couldn't help it!
Maya
I saw the guy I like who I fantasize to be still single being intimate with not just a normal woman but beautiful and sexy looking one in broad daylight! 😭
Ella sympathetically looked at her screen and sighed.
Ella
Was he intimate with the woman too?
Ella
I mean it could be one sided intimacy from the woman.
Maya sighed and thought for a moment before typing.
Maya
I believe so. I mean what kind if decent person would allow anyone be that intimate with him in public for shallow reasons?
Maya
At least let me believe he is not. 😭
Ella thought for a few moments before typing a response.
Something inside Maya cracked. She heard the pieces of her glass heart break into pieces. Loud and clear.
She joined the Chatroom to strengthen her will to give up. But hearing someone tell you that your love is hopeless is another form of heartbreak.
Maya
En. I've already decided to do so.
More than ten minutes of silence passed by.
Ella wanted to beat herself so much. She scolded herself for her brainless words and bit her finger waiting for Maya to chat some more.
Maya wiped the tears from her eyes and faced her screen.
Maya
Please give me a few more moments.
Ella waited silently and patiently.
Maya
I never knew I would ever experience something like this. I was just like most other motivated students out there before.
Maya
I am an introvert so I don't really have friends. And my family's strict about these matters so I can't talk to them about it.
Maya
I don't have much experience in dealing with other people. And I literally have no idea about love and relationships so it's kinda hard for me.
Maya
Am I weird for being like this?
Maya
Maybe I'm just over reacting or something but I just can't help it.
Ella sniffled and wiped her years with her hands.
Maya
I love him. I love him so much.
Maya sobbed and wiped some of her tears with the sleeves of her shirt.
Maya
I love him that's why it hurts so much.
Maya
But anyway there is a first for everything.
Maya
It hurts now. But maybe one day I'll find someone better or someone who will love me too.
Maya
I will try my best to move on. I will focus on my credentials, get a job, then focus on my career. I'll try to do well.
Maya
But I can't stop the pain and my love for him. At least not yet.
Ella cried silently and sniffed.
Ella
Jiayou! Maya, I know you can do it.
Ella
It'll hurt now. But soon the pain will fade.
Ella
And maybe soon, someone better will come to your life and make you happy.
Maya smiled at the surprisingly touching words of the Chatroom admin. She can't help but think the Admin was kinda cute and clumsy.
Maya
En. Thank you. I'll really try to be happy and find someone better soon.
Maya
Thank you so much for hearing out my story.
Ella smiled through her tears.
Ella
You're welcome Maya. May you be blessed with a flowery and beautiful path towards happiness.
Maya
Thank you. You too. ❤️
Maya laughed and collected herself. She picked up the lucky charm on her desk and put it in a common box for small mementos in her drawer.
Maya
Thank you so much for today. Goodbye. 🥺❤️
Maya has left the Chatroom.
Ella wiped her tears and smiled. "Jiayou Maya!" She cheered.
Comments
Silver wings
It was really a touching one . I like how an chat between two strangers became a part of comfort towards Maya . And I love how both of them respect each other . It is hard to find someone like that. Let's look to another chapter
2022-02-06
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Silver wings
it looks like she is flattering him .
2022-02-06
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Silver wings
yeah me too . What did that man told her ?
2022-02-06
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