Prologue

I am all alone. No one cares. No one ever has. Everyone who loves me eventually leaves me. I am a freak. Always have been, always will be. “Hey, Patches, guess what? Today I left another team. My parents took yet another thing from me. They took a place that I felt safe, like I belonged. There’s only one person that still loves me. One person that won’t abandon me. It’s my sweet little Zach. Even still, we like different things. She likes video games, I like card games. She wastes her money on me.” I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I stared at the cold night sky. The stars shone bright like a thousand gemstones and the full moon as white as a unicorn’s coat.

“I don’t deserve her care. I don’t deserve the things she gives me, lets me borrow. I don’t deserve her friendship. I am useless, a useless human being. I will never be able to give her anything in return, to repay her, and yet, she cares about me anyways,” I said.

“You’ve been here all along though, haven’t you, Patches? You’ve watched over me ever since I was a little kid. And you’re just a stuffed animal. I might be crazy. I know deep dwn you’re not alive. You’re not going to save me. You’re not going to give me a friend. You’re just an inanimate object that I hug at night. I miss you. I miss the days when I was young and naive. When I could really believe in you. When I didn’t know better. Growing up is hard. I want to quit. I dont want to stay here, in this horrible world. And yet,” I curled into a ball on my bed, “and yet, I am too much of a coward to take my life.”

“What if it gets better? What if I miss it becase I was gone? Sometimes it feels hopeless, but I will never give up my life. I will never give up my hope. That’s what I keep telling myself. I wish I had my fantasy world. I wish I got to go to another world. I would be a hero. I could find my romance. I could get my smile back. If there is a god above, please hear my prayer. Please, give me a chance to live another life give me my anime world. I’ll start as a slave, even, but I know I can d it, if only I have another chace at life. Who am I kidding? No one’s listening. Goodnight, world.” I laid down on my bed and I slept. THis life I led was a liserable one. My parents didn’t love me. They only cared about my accomplishments. I was all alone. All alone… except for Zach. Zachriel… please… I only want your love. That’s the only thing I live for. I’ve lost so much please, if you’re going to take anything away from me, don’t let it be her."

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