CHAPTER 3

CRIZA'S POV.

Ang sakit na nalaman kong hindi ako naging sapat sa kanya. Binigay ko naman lahat. Ginawa ko naman lahat. Pero hindi parin ako naging enough.

"Even if you've done everything if he's not satisfied, it still won't be enough." I said as tears welled up in my eyes.

"I need to be enough with the person i want to be with for life! I don't need a person who treat me like a toy. Please CRIZA move on and let go! Stop it Criza don't cry anymore, it's so painful." My tears would not stop falling.

(Ay kapag nasasaktan pala napapa english BWAAHAAHAAH Charot.)

Tahan na self kaya mo yan, huwag na huwag kang magpapa apekto.

Habang umiiyak ako ay pumasok si Mommy sa aking kwarto.

"I know you're not owkey baby, nakwento na ni Shineitthe sa akin ang nangyari." Malungkot nitong saad.

" Most times we are too scared to admit that we are hurt because we see it as a sign of weakness but there's no way to achieve a healing without recognizing hurt baby." Sa kanyang sinabi ay mas lalo pa akong napaiyak. Hindi ko lubos akalain na yung taong nagpapasaya sa akin ay siya palang unti-unting dumudurog sa akin ng patago.

"It's very easy to hurt someone and then say sorry. But it's really difficult to get hurt and then say I'M FINE."

"It is hard to forget someone who gave you the best memories ever Mom." Emotional Pain is the worst because physical pain can heal, but emotional pain will forever be there. I know my Mom is worried about me.

"I'm ok Mom! Don't worry about me." I smiled. I hide the pain behind my fake smile. Because they said that a fake smile may fool the crowd but it never eases the pain.

"I know that you're just pretending to be ok baby, don't worry your Mom is always here for you my princess. I'm always ready to listen." She said then she hug me and also she kiss my forehead. She's really a sweet mother. I'm lucky couz i have a mother like her.

"Thank you Mom!" I wiped my tears then started to fix myself.

"It was nothing baby. Fix yourself na punta tayo sa mall para makapagrelax ka naman. Kapag tapos kana sunod kana sa baba para makaalis na tayo." My Mom said. Tumango lamang ako. Tumayo na ako at kinuha na ang towel bago pumasok sa sarili kong banyo.  Actually nandito sa loob ng kwarto ko ang banyo. Ito kase ang hiniling kong ipagawa nila kaya walang nagawa sina Mom and Dad kundi sundin ang hiniling ko. Ako lang kase ang nag-iisang anak nila kaya lahat ng gusto ko naibibigay nila.

Habang ako ay naliligo nagpapatugtog ako at sinasabayan din sa pagkanta.

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb

You're not the only one

I'll take you by the hand

And I'll show you a world that you can understand

This life is filled with hurt

When happiness doesn't work

Trust me and take my hand

When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony

Are better than misery

Trust me I've got a plan

When the lights go off you'll understand

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing

Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know)

I know that you're wounded

You know (You know you know you know)

That I'm here to save you

You know (You know you know you know)

I'm always here for you

I know (I know I know I know)

That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love

Pain, can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love

Pain, I can't get enough

Pain, I like it rough

'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain than nothing at all

Rather feel pain

"You know, what is the most painful thing? When you know, the most important person in your life doesn’t even care about your existence, and there’s nothing you can do about it."

I tried so hard not to keep thinking about him, but my heart doesn’t work that way. It misses him even more if i try to forget him.

Owkkeyyy Goodnight people!  Enjoy reading.

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