lonely girl

I thought it will be nice if I am invisible to others. Even though it is so good to be loved, but it is not enough to be trusted. Because I am so insecure about him. I was always on watch because of my parents instructions and fight with the school about my love.

Every one knows about my love and my record of steeling money was a popular hit of gossip.

You know I became alone and there is no one for me to rely on. It becomes even lesser after the fight with the school with my parents. They didn't miss me. I was devastated and exhausted but what drained me is still an unknown one to me.

I was become slow on everything even my marks become very low. But they don't care about it. They just continue their life. So I cried a lot of days. I mean it, lots and lots of days until I found it is meaningless to cry anymore those days I found physical pain is so good then the pain in my heart, and it really helped to release my pain inside. Whenever I hit the wall I cut my hand to see the blood. I have an imagination like my pain is overflowed in the Jar when it has no space I cut my hand to realize it. It actually helped me very much to keep running. I will not say it is best option and not recommend to anyone who is bottle neck their emotions but just understand there is someone overthere is waiting for you to recognised by you just look into the mirror and live for thet person with the smile that never fade because of other's words and actions:)

I thought even though I cried I go to school I go to ground. I never laid back on my bed and I refused because it, makes me weaker and weaker day by day. So I started to avoid everyone and everything. I just did what I like to make myself happy. In this process I understand no one will be there for you every time. So I learned lot of things and kept my mind busy. So I literally forgot my parents. I don't need them. For money, I saved for my self from price money from the even

Oh! forgot to say I shifted into the football team, and I am the team captain. And I was so proud of it, and it becomes my pain reliever. I love it and I live for it but I didn't fully emerge in it I did both I mean athletes and football

it's so excausting and drained me physically but I mentally become healthy I learned a lot and lot of things. I saw what not others usually don't see.

I really say I became mature in lot of ways in those process I doubt myself for not performing well

Really...... I doubt myself and when I see someone better than me I felt worthless and it made me and my arora become silent and invisible......

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