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Having so much to say, yet you're struggling with how to put word's together to form sentences that's how It felt like reading Jenny's past dairy you could see she was clearly young she was still figuring things out trying to know where she fit in looking back to her past self she was clearly miserable sorry if that word hit you hard, but i think we all at some point can relate.

Damn.! This language isn't even my first language, she said aloud, many misspelled words made it seems raw even though all her life she has always being exposed to this language you could see she pour a lot of feelings into writing clearly she didn't even bother to try to reread it to check if there were some errors it's like, what word is it called again I think.. yeah I think it's called when you're being too emotional.

At home, even in school English was the first means of communication,, although they had their own invented English which almost everyone spoke and could understand because speaking was so much in style.

Everyone has to learn to read and write although at home mom and dad spoke with different language, which is their native language English was mostly what she learnt at school but wasn't the first language she heard, her native language has always been part of her everyone speaks it their accent jenny found that funny not until later on she realized that's just how majority of how her people sounds like, she found that cute:) and unique.

isn't it fascinating how most ppl from the same region their accent makes ppl go ooh he/she from this place. that's kinda unique.

Jenny's Mom always mix both language together while her dad always spoke in his native language bet you're trying to figure which side of part Jenny's from lol sometimes she wonder why she was born there but believe when she says she loves her culture, she embraces her heritage, her country and who ever she choose to be.

guess I'm making things difficult for you, I know but let make it a puzzle, hold on to that thought and try to guess where Jenny's from :) now let go of that thought:) because it doesn't really matter.

Can't remember when jenny start keeping dairy all she could remember was, she was a little kid with so many questions, she couldn't put much into words, couldn't bring herself to ask many questions for the fear of being a burden or being too much the only thing she could do was write it down to be sincere that felt much better, more secured, more like she had a close friend she could really trust and wouldn't snitch on her.

she still made this joke till date "think I realized what trust means too early than I should have" she always tells her mom maybe she had too many bad energy in her past life that's why she has so much trust issues in this life because she's quick to say "trust no one", easily dream of the worst that could happen, easily accept oh I knew that one day this too will come to an end that made her much of a poker face cause damn she always appears mean because of her reaction to some certain things were expected even at some point unintentionally treated her mom same way yeah yeah I know what you're thinking "unintentionally" but knows it… yeah! she does because she is an overthinker and at the end of her day she always reviews herself, things she had done and said whenever she's reviewing she put herself in second party position and realize oh my response was quite mean, my reaction was off, I shouldn't have done things that way maybe next time I should have done things this way, there are multiple ways I could have solved that problem then she tells herself never to repeat same mistakes again.

yup she isn't much of a fun person she get that alot. Don't be too serious with your life, try smiling a bit, learn to enjoy the moment bla bla bla.

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