Cruel
??
Why is it that only he suffers?....
Jungkook could feel his eyes tremble with tears as big droplets of guilt fueled tears slowly made their way to the pristine white screen of the tab he was using which was slightly slanted on its stand, the tears somehow slipping down to dampen the white paper below
His wide Bambi eyes that always had an everlasting fire to survive looked exhaust as dark curves lined his eyes, his light tan skin flushed with traces of dried tears mixed with fresh tears streaming down his face....
His luscious lips were dry as his well-built physique shuddered gently, his hands finding its way back to the digital pen as he resumed to draw...
It was very cruel for someone to suffer so much...
Yet he knew there were people who suffered the same fate...
But why did it hurt so much?
Even the slightest stroke of the pen to draw him was painful...
It's as if his heart was being pierced by thousands of pins..
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
Why would it always be you?
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
Why... *sobs*
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
Why always YOU, Kim Taehyung...
With the last stroke of his pen he stared at the completed drawing, the painful smile the little character had on his lips urging him to bawl his eyes out. His heart clenched as he could feel another gush of tears as he read the dialogue....
Kim Taehyung | General Kim
It's alright... *Smiles lightly*
Jungkook clicked the button hesitantly. As soon as the episode was sent Jungkook felt a huge urge to crush his pillow with a hug...
Jungkook quickly ran to his bed and hugged his pillow for dear life as he buried his face in it dampening the pillow covers… He sobbed uncontrollably...
He knew it was all fiction...
He knew Kim Taehyung did not exist...
He knew his suffering were mere pages of a manhwa....
It was devouring his insides...
Like a leech draining its host...
When Jungkook first agreed to make a Manhwa out of the novel 'Grotesque' written by his favorite author Lee Ji Eun...his Noona who he had been in contract for 2 years...
He was like every other reader, he started of as a simp for the male lead but as the story progressed he felt himself lean towards to one of the small side characters...
The fact that this side character harbored pure affection towards the heroine which in return was turned a blind eye on... was something that made his stomach twist in knots....
The fact he was not even one of the male lead made it worse...
He was just a pathetic blind side character whose life was doomed since his birth.....
A boy born into darkness whose fate was sealed to only ever know the murkiness of this materialistic world...
Yet the affection Taehyung possessed was something divine... It was like the untouched petals of the softest lotus whose color was the beautiful blush of a shy maiden, growing in a pond filled with the sweetest elixir mankind ever knew......
That's when he heard his phone go off as he shuffled in his bed to get it...
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
📲 - *Hoarse Voice* Noona?
There was a brief pause the voice resounded...
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
📲 -Were you crying, Kook?
Jungkook rubbed his eyes as he sat on his bed his baritone voice trembling
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
📲 - No! I just finished last slide of today's episode...
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
📲 - Yeah I just received it! Amazing work, Kook! I sent u the script for next episode It's going to be very emotional ! Make sure u submit it by next week.
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
📲 Yes Noona!!
Jungkook stared at the caller ID. His Noona Ji Eun was the best selling Author for 5 years straight.... Bagging the Daesan award for all 5 of her novels she wrote...
Ji Eun's novels were different from one another....
Each of an unique genre, settings, time span...
Yet there was one similarity....
None of her protaganists get their happy ending in the end.....
Its as if she was obsessed with sad endings....
Each and every single one of her books were loaded with stuff that could make a grown man bawl his eyes....
Ever since he was of age Jungkook was someone who preferred happy ending over sad ones....
Fictions were the only place the impossible events can be possible....
But ever since his Noona who was his upperclassman in his middle school debuted as an author...
She had magically changed his preference. He liked how she broke the fairy tale ending bringing the harsh essence of reality into fiction world...
Ji-Eun was like a fresh gale amongst the whirlwind of simple-minded plots..
As if his mouth was the third catastrophe that had somehow affected his Noonas continuous streak of tear wrenching novels…..
Ji Eun had finally written a novel, out of all the normal genre she usually wrote from....
It was a mix of historical romance drama with hint of societal evolution mixed....
A genre only his Noona could pull off...
It was an ugly love story...
Between a saintess and the Duke...
Jungkook was invested wanting to read what his brilliant Noona had cooked up..only to be left with an unquenchable thirst of guilt which burned his very being.
It was unlike him to drag a novel more than a day but this novel....
THIS BLOODY NOVEL took him months to complete
He could not bear to read such cruelty, yet he forced himself his steel heart that had gone through the most pathetic novels finally broke down...
He could have simply put away the novel for the amounts of emotional imbalance it was giving him...
He lost his sleep, his peace of mind....
Jungkook had never considered himself to be an emotional character....
But this one character had made him lose it...
A character who was not of significance....
A character who was not even a supporting lead....
A minor blind side character....
A stepping stone to stabilize the protagonist's love....
If it was merely left there he wouldn't have grown this attached to him...
If he had merely overseen the side character's arc he wouldn't have ended up in this stage...
It was the way Noona had explained how the blind man expressed his innocent affection even though receiving none for himself....
Taehyung loved her like a delicate flower as if she was the most feeble petals of orchid knowing very well the orchid would never bloom for him...
His feelings were genuine...
they were as innocent as the first snow on the winter season...
yet they were not of significance...
To the world he was just a plot device....
But what made Jungkook to almost throw the book was when....
The great general Kim, the blind warrior died days just after the confession
His demise covered in mere sentences…
'He died in a stampede....'
It was as if the whole universe was planning to make him suffer as he stared at the cruel sentence appearing on the glaring white screen of his phone...
Jungkook felt his body stiffening as he read the vague sentence that had been tormenting him for months...
His vision became blurry as he got up wiping his tears as took a shaky breath before deciding to call his Noona to cancel the contract...
This novel had already drained him he couldn't let it suck him dry...
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
📲 - Noona…*Sniffles*
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
📲 - Kookie *Pauses* why are you crying?
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
📲 - Meet me at the Il-sun café!
The call ended as Jungkook pulled the coat over him roughly as he quickly left for the café.
Jungkook entered the café his eyes searching for his Noona who he spotted sitting in the corner seat..
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Jungkookie! Here! *waves*
Jungkook quickly strode there, his long legs eating the distance between them as he sat across Ji-Eun.
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
*Notices his swollen eyes as she passes a tissue*
Why is my little Kookie pale? Have u not been eating well? Let me order your-
Ji-Eun who was in her own world of concern looking at the younger who was as pale as a paper was broken out from her trance by Jungkook's interruption.
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
Why should he be the only one to suffer so much Noona?
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
*Stunned* Kookie?
For the first time Ji-Eun heard words she never knew her little Kookie was capable off...
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
I am sorry, Noona *Sobs* I guess I became too attached to a side character that I can't bare visualizing his sufferings..
Ji-Eun was taken aback looking at the younger who broke into tears as she tried to hold his hand only for him to revert back….
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Jungkook...
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
I am sorry, Noona! I can't continue to be the artist anymore! I am really sorry....
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
Your novel is ruining me *Wipes his tears harshly*
Ji-Eun was left speechless as she saw the younger's genuine anguish...
She had always known the younger had odd fondness over the character she wrote who none of her readers seemed to mind that much..
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
You can mock me for being a weakling….
Jeon Jungkook | Manhwa artist
But I cannot continue this work knowing it would shatter me... *Leaves abruptly*
Ji-Eun stared wide at the empty seat across which was occupied by the younger as she gasped processing what was going on before she gave chase to the younger who already stepped out of the café..
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Kook!
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Jungkookie! WAITT-
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
JUNGKOOK-AH *screams*
Blood pooled over the whole area, as Ji Eun hugged Jungkook tightly, though she looked stable her eyes were dilated as the warm liquid painted her dress red as she pulled Jungkooks head closer to her chest...
People flocked around them like pests as flickers of cameras flash went on, Ji Euns manic eyes fluttered everywhere as she rubbed Jungkook's shoulder which were loosing their heat...
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Jungkook..
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Not you too..... *whispers to herself*
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
Not again....*Unfocused gaze*
Ji-Eun's muddled head was pulled out from her trance by the strange voice of a child as she gasped before screaming her lungs out...
Lee Ji Eun | Story Author
CALL THE AMBULANCE! *screams*
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