What If .... 4

Since after that incident , I stopped going to my grandma's house

She never cared for me like a real grandma

She loves me but she hates me too

I don't know what I did. Is it because I was forced to be an adult or is it because I can't behave like normal child?

I still don't understand it

My whole childhood is filled with great memories and getting attacked by men

I was a kid too. I was in same as their kids age too

i don't understand where I did wrong to make me feel like i need to grow up so that I can fly away

Fly away, so far, from this world

Where no men can able to touch me

That incident forced me to think like I need to grow fast.

Like i imagined i grow up fast not by my age, but by mind.

I was more than 18 years old by mind when I was 7 years old.

What if ... What if he never touched ?

What if they never left me alone?

What if it never happened?

Maybe i lived like a normal kid without any hesitation of being a kid

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