SCARELY LOVE

Yes , i did chocolate,flowers ,teddy bears and all the cute things a girl can think of. The inner child in me would scream so loud whenever I got all those,I was his baby .Also with time ,we would go for picnics,writing each hand written letters,going for cinemas,and bytheway quality time was his love language.I would always feel happy and energized when I spent time with him. He was now becoming my safe space. I would rant all my problems to him.I loved so much. It was deep and unconditional.

As time went by, things started changing. He was no longer the lover boy I was used to.He wasn't romantic anymore. His behaviours towards me were so alarming. He became abusive and disrespectful at some point.He would insult me with huge words which I gave a deaf ear.He came to a point that he would lay hands on me.For crying out, I was only a girl friend. Even if I were his wife, still, he had no right to lay hands on me. Whenever I visited his place, I would come out with tinny bruises on my body. I would come up with stories and tell my mom that I got hurt while playing during breaks in school and she,would buy them. All of this happening I still stayed telling myself at the back of my mind that he would change.

I loved him that I was too blind to see all the emotional, mental, and physical tortures.We would argue all the time via the phone. Each conversation we had would turn into an argument, and it was so draining. And guess what ,I was always the one at fault. He would guilt trip me and make it seem that I'm the one with an issue.I remember there was a time he was flirting with a girl on one of the social platforms, when I asked him abt it ,he denied it.Away from that he came up with an excuse that he was going with the boys only to find out that's he spent the entire night a girl's place and u yes he told me that nothing happened and I believed him.Also there was a time I asked him for us to go out for movies and he told me that he had meetings later that evening so it would be impossible for him.Yes girl!!I believed him I found out later that he had gone to see one of her girls.I didn't think had any idea where i got the information from. It came to a point that I wanted to walk out without him knowing. I was only five months into the relationship, and all of this was happening. No, this is not what I had signed up for . I had seconds thought,I couldn't tolerate him,I deserved something better and not all of this miseries.I was now practicing, the law of detachment. It was going to hurt,but that was the only step I had to take.

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