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I was born with their wish.

I was born with their future wish.

I will live base on their wish.

Life is mine, but method of living is theirs.

Not like I can change.

I tried my best.

Now I am tired of this all bullshīt.

Still eating it.

I am human too.

I have heart too.

Others can do something doesn't mean I am capable of doing it too.

But got habits they provide me.

I have to make me do something I am not capable.

Maybe my heart doesn't want it, so I fail.

Not in my hands all things.

Few things easy for me but few kinds of hard.

Like out of my reach.

You want me to fight for myself.

When you never let me speak for myself even front of you.

I got no energy to do it from strangers.

When I am not even capable to ask it from you.

I start to hate myself to this helpless how can you stand seeing me like this.

Doesn't it hurt you, or you all only pretend to me in past, or you all pitied me?

Sympathy from you both seems good in past felt like true love now it's just left in the past.

Now you want me to tell you same thing I am repeating over these months.

At this stage I want to call you dump or idiot.

Maybe I am idiot myself to seek help from you.

But in end it was you both who helped me in the past.

Now you want me to say good things.

I said good things as you wished, didn't I?

But I can't stop those tears which pulls me apart.

I can't smoothen my voice to fake happiness.

You just have to leave me however I am because I can't stand seeing no help from you.

I am sorry in end I couldn't be like them whom you admire.

Because I lack those things they got.

I am tired of working hard now.

Better I work on nothing at all.

If it's fake why you show it.

If it's true why don't you help me as I want.

Don't make me hate you.

I thought about you as my life's hero once but that problem was only created by you though.

Like I have ruined your on plan I felt sorry.

This plan was accepted by me but didn't you indirectly force me ?

Seems like you both forgotten.

Wants me to remind you,

Bet it will hurt you to core of your heart.

I did once And I don't care anymore.

You have hurt me countless times.

I never told you about it.

Why you have to make me realise my mistakes?

Yeah I done mistake, I am not robot I can do mistake.

I am not programized to act at it.

Get tired of me already.

I show no interest in both of you.

Why you even want me to live as you both wish.

I talked too much, and you will never ever be going to know what I feel about you truly.

Such a shame on you both efforts spent on me.

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