episode 5

ranasa : i cant lose her .

arush : [had tears in eyes and seeing reza's sleeping] i just want her to be happy .if staying away from us give her happiness i am okay with it . you know before she used to smile whenever she sees me , now....... she just feels suffocated maybe......... . i couldnt protect her not that time not even today . i feel useless . that day i lost two people he saved her for me but....i lost her because i am dumb .

ranasa: can i ask you what ....

arush : you have rights to know

flash back :

when reza was 8 , arush was 10 and rayan (arvind's son ) was 14 . rayan was first born of the family ,darush was 4 years reyansh was 8 years . rayan was loved by everyone . he was reza's favorite and he showered love on her a lot . swetha just gave birth to shruthi at that time . everyone started concentration on shruthi .even rayan was with her and started spending more time on her reza was not able to accept shruthi at time ,she thought shruthi took rayan away from her . once when devaki was feeding reza shruthi started crying devaki just left the plate and immediatly ran near shruthi reza told her friends about it how she hates the new baby . then one of her friend told that her parents started caring about her when she ran away from home . reza thought even she should do it . once she ran from home and stayed in ruhiya's house . when her came back home in the evening she saw noone realised that she wasnt at home whole day , she was not able bear that day packed all her chocolates and dress in a school bag and went off out that night . everyone was busy with shruthi and swetha (became week after giving birth ) . rayan didnt see reza but didnt care thought she maybe with someone . in morning when devaki saw reza bed neat and untouched she searched reza in whole house and when she was not there and they realised they didnt see her whole day yesterday . devaki called raj and siya about it and told them to come as fast as possible .

ranguwar family enemy saw reza unprotected outside and took this as a chance and kidnapped her and as none searched her whole night it was easy for them to take her to their base at that time . reza was kept in the base for two years and tortured and beaten . she was forced to eat raw cow meat (raghuwar family culture is not to touch meat ) . her body was bearly alive with all the torture . they used to try all the types on chemicals on her , with all the torture she started hating her family , thinking she just left her , she promised herself that she will never let accept them from now on .

here in the family everyone was searching for her .even rajvansh family (riya was childhood friend of ajay ) once when they found her location rayan came to protected in the process of saving her he lost his life .

when she came home swetha was hateing her as rayan was killed saving her. swetha became depressed and everyone again in process of saving her and swetha could bear rayan death and divorced arvind saying she couldnt be with him anymore . when reza came back their was a wall build between them and reza made it more strong and everyone were recovering from rayan death and and they forgot to see reza broken and her would because she was silent rarely speaking . once in a fight between cousins

shruthi : (crying) because of you rayan brother never return , you sent him away i hate you ,because of you mama left me and daddy you go away , go away .

reza : ( tears in eyes) you came you started it .

darush :(pushed reza) you are a witch . mamma told witch gives sadness you are a demon

arush was silent and did nothing , he was not to accept her because of rayan's death . reza was silent and had tears flowing

reza :(crying seeing arush ) you should have asked raghuwar to not give birth to me then , from now on live a happy life without me . from now on i will rather die than accepting you guys . you know (seeing shruthi ) because of you everyone hates me , i hate myself , i was princess for them before you came . i wish you shouldnt have been born ......( arush slapped reza) .

reza ran to her room and called riya because riya was only who made her felt loved and broke the wall between them . and they were close eachother .

riya :(happy) hello darling .

reza:(crying )

riya : (panic) what happened darling ? are you ok?

reza :( crying ) i dont want be here . i wanna be with you . take me from here . they make realise i shouldnt be born . darush said i am a witch i dont wanna be here . please take me with you . i feel suffocated here. i get head pain here everyday please i wanna be with you .

riya :( calm ) baby are you taking medicines everyday ?

reza :(crying) please i wanna be with you .

riya: (calm) okay i will leave now wait for me okay dont do anything till okay or i will get angry .

reza :( crying) okay come fast ,okay .

reza was struggling from physotic depression.

People with psychotic depression have the symptoms of major depression along with "psychotic" symptoms, such as: Hallucinations (seeing or hearing things that aren't there) Delusions (false beliefs) Paranoia (wrongly believing that others are trying to harm you) .

only elders in family knew it not cousin. after their talk reza locked herself in her room .

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