chapter two

2 years later

Have you ever been hungry? Oh no . Not that one day where you don't eat and think that is hunger. It is not

. Imagine you're in the Sahara desert. There is no water or food you've been walking for days but there is nothing that you can devour. And then suddenly you see a clear , perfect river …right when you think you can drink cause you've claimed the spot .

The owner of that river forbids you from even taking a sip. not even a tiny tinny droplet of water.

Well that's me . It has been 2 years since I got married. Don't get me wrong I love Jaden …very much .

But I'm really pissed . He acted so innocent the first time he heard I was not pure anymore.

As if he had never had a woman in his life.

I used to dream about him invading me . But it's pointless . He usually walks naked in the house and I could see him standing tall and proud. Which feeds and escalates my desires .

I'm thirsty for pleasure . I'm so tired .

I looked at him examining his body. It was already late at night . When he came home smelling some weird perfume drunk again . His clothes were out of place.

He must've had sex with another woman again. This had become the new normal .

The most intimate thing we've ever done is kissing only when his father was home. Which was about 18 months ago since his wife died . He went to the north . Hopefully to moan for his deceased wife. Not because it would be awkward looking at me .

He is the only thing that kept me sane. Just the stupid memory that vividly stays on my mind . My own husband is denying me my right . How absurd. He refused me . I've never heard anybody saying that I'm ugly

.

I'm not really an egomaniac. But seriously black ink hair with ink blue eyes to go with them. Skinny but with the correct fats in the right places .

I wonder why I never thought about cheating . I've always hoped that I'll make this guy lay me down even if it was once a week.

He passed right in front of me and didn't even care to greet me . He passed me and order the maid that I'm sure he onced fück to run him a bath .

This was really annoying. Who did he think he was?

Something in me snapped. I've been tolerating him for the past 2 years and he never even feels ashamed about it.

"Jade you know we lost the partnership with the southern gate keeper right?and you went out drinking" I tell him

"So…?" He turned his head in disgust . And holy shït something in me was boiling in me .

"Instead of sleeping around you could do your responsibilities as the next heir of the Mannar ."

"Oh and who are you a whöre that married me for power . Knowing that she was not pure anymore. "

"And let me guess all the women you fücked are virgins …?

"No but they are not hypocrites like you are. "

"What if I was the one doing the same thing you're doing to how you would feel?

"Nothing because that is what you are to me .

since you're concerned about the route father is coming soon " he turned around . and continue walking upstairs .

I stood there rooted to my ground . The sound of his name left me feeling wet.

I felt my body tensing up when Jaden's mom was alive. She didn't quite like my personality since she thought I wasn't feminine enough to carry her grandchildren. I didn't mind the guns, they actually filled me with excitement. I was not really that much of those sweet girls, who wanted nothing to do with guns. My father taught me how to use guns and how to defend My self . And even now I pretty much did all the work Jaden was supposed to do . What an äss hole. tell me about it

Apparently I was not good enough because she already had a woman that she considered perfect for his son. Even after having sëx with her husband I didn't feel a thing about her. The only thing I was concerned about was my own husband . Who had never even bother to touch me .

I love things that I know I shouldn't have . And Mr Ricardo was precisely what I shouldn't have .

He is the perfect poison that I shouldn't use. But I want him . Maybe that is why I never pity his wife . It felt as if my burden was lesser after she passed away . I could reminisce and mästürbätë all I want without even feeling a slight guilt.

Now that I think of it,my wish was to have sex with the love of my love . Now the love of my lover wouldn't even touch me. I'll just make sure I keep the one who stained me close, hopefully he'll dirty me more.

If this guy doesn't want me . I'll just get another guy. Not necessarily his dad but some like him . Powerful and dominant.

But who? Most man in my life are scared me

Or some empty mind dummies.

Ricardo was coming.

I felt a tinge of pleasure thinking about it . No, I just realized I like a man that has the same wild personality. But also someone stronger than me, someone who takes control. A man precisely like Ricardo. And oh baby there is no other Ricardo better than the mam than once invaded me .

I want him .

I want my father-in-law.

"now when is this soon ?",I mumbled under my breath . I needed to touch myself. It was itching.

***Download NovelToon to enjoy a better reading experience!***