hidden in the darkness, cruelty opens many doors

I looked over to the closet. Such childish things I should have left behind. Yet I could not... It called me closer... Beckoning the comfort I yearned. I stepped toward it. Was I really turning to childish whims? I opened the door and stepped in, closing the door behind me. I sat in the small space. This place no longer felt as safe when I was a kid...

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A fuzzy memory of a slightly open door. "I can't believe you. You are sick all the time, and you expect me to care to every whim? I'm sorry, LuiYun. I can not do this. I'm leaving. " This voice was deeper. I don't remember who it belonged to. The sound of the door slammed, and a small girl tugged on the ladies' dress. "Mama... where is Father going? Why can't we go with him? " she asked. The lady looked into my eyes and then beyond me before they grew distant.

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A memory. Not a fond one. There were never many fond ones. This was the first time I ever entered the closet... the reason. I had so many questions my memory blocked the answers to. Best I left it. I sighed, beginning to feel tears prickle my eyes and fall down my cheeks. Why would I have to suffer this world any longer? Was it even worth it? My vision blurred from tears. Then I saw a light, a light outlining a door before. How had I never noticed it? How long had it been there? What was beyond it? I wedged my fingers into the gap and began to try and pry the door open. It would not budge. "Why!? Why, like everything else, do you have to be so difficult!?" I pleaded with the door hitting against it and before long resting my head on it, tears streaming from my eyes. A tear fell onto the door and slowly glided down. The door began to light up more. A word forming is a glistening red. As it formed, a fiery glow ever so slightly shone from it. My fingers traced the word carefully until the end, I read the word and triumphantly laughed and cried, so simple... "Push." I placed my palm gently onto the wood, bracing for anything that may come. As I gave it a gentle but firm push, the door swung open, and I fell in.

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I screamed as I began falling into a sky full of stars, the door growing smaller and out of view. I frantically looked around to see a way out. I wanted it all to end, but not in this way. Not today. I wanted a simple change of fortune... It's not a change like this. I felt my heart begin to race as I became more frantic, looking below me to see how far below the ground was. All I could see was stars. I felt fear, as though I was going to fall and hit the ground in a ball of fire. I tried to calm myself, although it was difficult. As I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, I realized... my hair was not flowing up nor down. That would mean I was falling with no direction. But how? I opened my eyes. Calmer. I sat up and looked around me. Even the stars began to look fake. It seemed as though I was sitting on nothing. I stood up and began to walk towards the nearest star. It glowed a gentle white, flashing ever so slightly you could say it was barely noticeable. As I reached to touch it, my hand was ready to feel the star, I woke. I woke in a bed, but not my bed. It was a very big bed, enough to fit six of me on it. The bed had white satin comforters with red embroidered roses petals all along it. The petals gave a sort of fiery glow. The frame draped with red material. I looked to my window. It was not my window, but rather than a small dirty window clouded with smog, it was a clear spectrum of many reds. A big window with a white nook and red velvet cushioning. The window showed a view of a maze and a bright blue sky. The glass stained shades of red, which shone many rays onto the floor. There was a dresser in place of the nothingness that stood in my room. Its red wood made it feel expensive. I looked to my closet. It was the only thing that remained the same. Its old wooden doors were barely able to close, but rather than a uniform and emptiness peaking out, it was an assortment of ballgowns . I rubbed my eyes and pinched myself. Who's room was i in? Was I dreaming? As I rubbed my eyes again, the door opened, and a servant walked in. Their traditional servants' clothes did not cover up the person hidden beneath. I could clearly see the person standing await for orders. "HaniSo?" My voice still the same, I knew I was myself, she made it clear this was a prank. " Yes, madam?" she replied in a uniform yet lifeless matter. 'Madam? who is she trying to fool? maybe I should play along and see where this goes?' " I never called upon you," I replied sternly. Her face grew worried. "I-well I... I came to check on madam to see if she was alright. was it the stars again, madam?" HaniSo replied, the fear in her eyes made me instantly regret being so stern. Was this a joke? What kind of joke would it be? "Thank you. For caring. I appreciate your efforts to console me." I said, smiling towards her kindly. She looked confused as though I had never said a kind word to her in my life. "I will notify Queen LuiYun that you have woken immediately. Would you like me to remind you of your duties today?" HaniSo replied, smiling slightly, ignoring my appreciation. "That would be much appreciated. I would also... I would like to know some answers to a few questions, " I replied, I might as well try to get some answers. "Sure thing. Well, today's duties are sitting through 2 queries of the locals, signing a new policy, and attending the ball to find yourself a suitor." HaniSo replied. I beckoned her to sit on the edge of my bed. She was hesitant. I needed to know more. This all seemed like royal duties. Something felt all too real. As she sat, I began. I would only ask three questions. I did not want to overwhelm her. "So I have duties?" I asked she looked to me as though I had gone mad, then shook her head. "Yes, madam. You play a high role in the family as the queen is always busy and the king... Well, let's say that he's been lost for years."I'm part of a royal family?" This was my second question. Now, there has to be a lie. HaniSo looked at me concerned but then replied, "Madam? Are you well? Have you forgotten your princess, LuiChin?" she brought her hand to my head and then removed it. I sat stunned. I was a princess? I must be dreaming.

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