Day 2

I knew I had to set my priorities straight

(Doesn't mean you left, my life would stop... I just didn't know that someone I never even met in person could hurt me this much. )

I won't let this heartbreak ruin my studies.

(They'd get mad at me if I flunked or get lower grades.)

Even if what happened between us plagued my mind, I kept trying to push through.

(I was trying so hard not to break even more... It hurt so bad.)

We had practice that day.

(Remember when I excitedly told you about me joining the news casting category on our school contest? I was so worried because I thought I wasn't good enough but you assured me that I am.)

I had to pretend to my friends that I was alright but alas, I failed.

(I wore shades that day to cover up my eyes. I was ashamed showing up to my friends and looking like a mess. My eyes were really red and puffy because of me crying, my eye got worse to be honest. It stung so bad the whole time...)

What can I say, they teased me a lot, oh how much I wanted to complain to you.

(They used to call me a "trophy girl" but that time, all they did was play music. Specifically those that can remind me of you... Even teased me for crying as I saw someone that looked like you...)

I cried yet again... They kept telling me that "pretty girls don't chase"..

(But what could they do? It was you that I wanted... You, that I loved so dearly.)

They did their best to try and comfort me as they know I'm not really okay..

(I was just putting up a front that I am... You used to scold me for it. Oh how time flies hon... You're not mine anymore.)

I didn't really want to go home that day.

(I knew I had to face my mom and I didn't want to break down in front of her...)

I tried my best to pretend in front of her that I'm fine.

(it felt so suffocating. How much I wanted a hug that time.)

I continued on with some work.

(I didn't really want to have the time to think)

I had some music on, the ones I used to love.

(I really regret dedicating them to you love, that's how I loved you on my own way.)

With eyes filled with tears I kept working.

(I needed the distraction from my thoughts of you.)

I stayed up and did my homework

(I needed to so they won't be mad at me for crying over a boy and letting my heartbreak destroy me)

I tried my best to continue

(While I was doubting and questioning my

decision that night my love.)

My best wasn't really that enough.

(I cried more than doing what I needed to do.)

Did I really give up on you?

(or was I just hurt enough by your actions and words?)

Did I really think my decision through?

(Even if I did, I kept doubting myself... The thought of me leaving you plagued my mind. I didn't really want to leave... I promised I wouldn't. )

Did you really love me?

(I knew at some point you did... But after knowing you fell out of love, I couldn't really get that thought off my mind)

Was I enough for you?

(They told me I was... They even told me that you don't deserve me. How cruel, right?)

Truth be told, I didn't really want to let go.

(It really was just a random night to the both of us.)

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