Some Hearts Have Blood Clots.

Yinning's POV:

"Onii chan! Onii chan! Wait for me! I am coming!" I cried as I was running towards him, my only world, Yuzuru.

"My little cup cake! Don't run so fast. What if you got hurt or something?"

"I am fine, don't worry about me!"

"You know right, dad will come tonight after so many months.."

"Don't mention him!"

"But why ?"

"I-I hate him!"

"How can you hate him, cupcake? He is our dad!"

"Onii Chan..Do you mean that you love someone..w-who tortured mom..and left her a-alone..."

"No Yinning..he didn't meant-"

"I hate you Onii Chan! !!I hate you! You always side with him! Do you love dad more than mom?!" Shouted little Yinning as he started running towards the road.

"Yinning wait! No stop-"

" Wh-What..happened to y-you..."

An Ambulance arrived and my brother was taken to the hospital..

"It's all because of you! Your face..your voice..all is similar to that monster! Why didn't you die??!!???"

"M-m-m-mom.....? No wait! What are you doing?!"

There she went with her knife, and till now, I still have that scar on my back..

At the hospital

"I am sorry...But this young boy has gotten both of his legs fractured. I am afraid..he may not be able to walk for a very long time. He will be discharged after 2 weeks.."

Said the doctor.

"What do you mean?!! Are you crazy or what? Yuzuru has his basketball competition after some weeks!",

"Please try to understand"

"WHAT about all the money I wasted on him?!! And he can't even walk now! I want to talk to him! Where is that bastard?!!!"

"Sir..he is unconscious right now..no one is allowed-"

"I am not no one! I AM HIS DAD, you bitch!!!"

'It was all my fault...If only I was the one who lost my legs..then Onii Chan's hardwork wouldn't have been wasted..I still remember he used to practice every night and also skipped his meals, just to reach the top...And just because of my stubbornness..H-he...Why am I still alive? I should have died already...'

My mother was sent to an asylum.

I was left alone with dad.

My brother was discharged..

It didn't matter how many times I tried to apologize to him...I never did..It was like...I was being trapped in a cage..Where it was dark..and all I was able to hear was..

"It's all because of you..Why can't you die?!"

"It's okay..Little cupcake.. please come out of your room.. Please..I know it wasn't your fault! Please! I really want to talk to you! I want to see your face! You haven't eaten anything for weeks! Please don't do this to yourself!"

Onii Chan kept shouting outside the door.

Even though I locked myself in, I was still able to hear him..hear his screams..his cries..feel his emotions.

But..I wasn't able to say a word..It felt like thousands of hands were pulling me behind..and asking me repeatedly, "Why didn't you die?"

I lost my appetite..

I lost my interest in living..

I lost my smile..

I lost everything..

For the whole day I used to keep looking outside the window..with a blank face..

asking myself, "Why did you run?! Why are you alive?!!"

I wasn't able to sleep..my eyes turned red.

It felt like I was disappearing.

I saw my brother waving at me.