not a lover

^^^Rin: jack I love you, i didn't have the guts to tell you earlier, but I'm saying it now, I love you jack.^^^

^^^jack looks directly into her eyes and say honestly: I don't feel the same, I don't love you, I'm not capable of loving anyone, I'm sorry^^^

^^^Rin: I know he answered me honestly but why do I feel this emotions coming from him? I want to know him better even if I can't be with him at the end,^^^

^^^If you don't love me the same, then can we be friends, I want to know you better, the kind of person you are.^^^

jack: the kind of person I am?

^^^speaks silently: who am I? why is she even interested in me? I'm the kind of guy who doesn't talk to anyone in class? I have no friends so why?^^^

^^^jack: you want to know me better?^^^

...Rin: yes...

^^^jack: what if you regret knowing anything about me?^^^

...Rin: I don't know what I will do! but right now this is my decision, I want to know you better....

^^^jack: silly you, by the way the name is "Jack"^^^

^^^he smiled at me while saying his name, I felt my heart beating so fast, like never before, going to melt, I was so In love with this boy I couldn't think of anything else.^^^

^^^time past by quickly it's almost a month and we were still on holiday I waited till the end of April, finally school is resuming, I just realized I didn't have his number, I sat on the couch and keep asking my self why didn't I ask for his number or even his address 😩😩^^^

^^^well school is resuming tomorrow I said to my self I will just take it then^^^

...next day...

...finally it's time for me to see him after this past weeks, at first I was thinking of what to wear, so I called my best friend to help me pick....

^^^she thought maybe I went crazy on the holidays, so she said we have to talk today when it's time for lunch.^^^

^^^finally at school, everyone was staring at me which was weird, 👀 so I just stare back, while i was in class I heard there were rumors going around the class, that jack was a really bad person, they said he's one of the dangerous Mafia in town.^^^

I was really surprised, why would anyone think that?

He came late and was insulted. I choose not to believe this rumor, because he never said anything about it when we were together, then it hit me, I really didn't know anything about him all this time, I was scared....

School was over, I rush to him and walk with him, we were both silent for few minutes, I was about to ask how was his day, but he instantly said.

^^^Why do you still walk with me?^^^

^^^why aren't you scared?^^^

^^^Don't you think I'm hiding something?^^^

^^^Or your just stupid?^^^

*Look at you!!!!, you're insulting your only friend you have, do you really want me to go? Yes I'm scared but part of me didn't believe any of that, I thought if it was true, you might have told me by now. (I reacted that day for reason I still don't know) *I hug him and ask him as slowly as I can*

are you really a mafia?

^^^Jack: is she stupid? Or is she crazy? This girl she's different from others, she has gut, I will give her that.^^^

^^^Yes I'm a mafia rin,^^^

^^^I'm the devil,^^^

^^^I'm everything.^^^

He answered me honestly. I still don't mind, your still the guy I want, the one I want to be with.

Rin? I think you should stop following me and also talking to me, it's best this way,

Why would he say this to me? We Weren't dating,, but I felt my heart broken, it was the first time I felt this way, I didn't want him to see me cry, so I called him a jerk, I said a lot of things to him, I was walking home myself, his last word to me was

^^^Rin I love you too, but I'm a mafia not a lover.^^^

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