Dreams Shatter

Everybody knew Jake and I broke up when he and Candice started dating. She avoided us and didn’t even look at our faces when she walks pass by. Ethel and Kate got worried that our friendship will be fallen apart because of a one guy. It is not ‘will’, it was already fallen apart.

I am a type of person if I despise someone, I despise it. I always trust my instincts.

“Ms. Aubrey Abner. You rank first. Congratulations”

“Thank you”

I am an honor student and because of that, many people knew about me.

I’m anxious yet, feeling devastated to the point I ask myself,

If they found out I’m pregnant, are they going to leave me? Are they going to judge me? Beauty and brain yes, I owned it but got into this accident, that’s a bad luck surrounds in my way. I have my hopes and dreams. I want to live and have a permanent job in the future. My dreams are simple yet, it’s difficult to reach.

My father is a strict man. I will always make it on top just to make my father proud of me but, as I keep exerted more effort, I feel like I drowned, pulling myself in the darkness of the ocean depth. Ethel, my friend, rank second in class but my dad keeps telling me to let my grades higher than hers, higher than my usual grades I got.

“Ms. Abner, I have something important to tell you. I think you need to tell your father what you want when you grow older. Next year, you will be a college student and you must be critical when it comes picking a coarse. Last time I checked, you want to become a doctor but you wrote here you want to become a lawyer and the reason why it is because it’s your father’s choice.”

My teacher gave me a piece of paper that is about my dream coarse. Looking at the paper, it feels like I betray myself and force me to do what I don’t want to do. I slightly smile to my teacher.

“I will give this back to you and have a deep discussion with your family. I mean, Ms. Abner, you rank first because you’re smart and sharp but I don’t know if it works to you if you follow your dad’s wish. As a teacher, I will be happy to my students who their dreams they want to achieve so, I will give this paper to you and pass it on Monday, okay?”

“I don’t know, sir. My decision is always whole that I want to become a doctor but, having him as my father, I think I don’t deserve to oppose his request. Yes, picking a coarse is critical but I have to go this way. I don’t need to change that and besides, I’m smart like what you said, sir. I can do it even though becoming a lawyer is what I hate.”

My teacher smiled at me and it seems like he doesn’t like my decision. I want to become a doctor but my father wants me to become a lawyer. I don’t know now. My mind is jumbled and my life is a mess. After having a discussion, I looked down, staring at the lower part of my body.

I think I don’t deserve to become a doctor or lawyer, I’m pregnant and I don’t know how to explain this to my dad. Secrets will always uncover especially when months goes by, my belly will have a small bump, my life is a disaster.

Every day I cry. I want to blame Jake. No. I want to blame myself why I accepted Jake’s confession three years ago or this will never happen to me but, I loved Jake. He cares at me and always be with me when I have hard times that I couldn’t handle my father. I just didn’t expect he did this to me.

He cheated on me yet, he sleeps with me. Now, I don’t know…

I just don’t know…

I’m pregnant and I’m afraid.

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