Chapter 1

(Character info)

• Rain Ferrow age 36 (age 10 years ago) 24, height 5,6

• Calix M, age 28 (10 years ago) 18, height 6,9

Rain's pov

10 years ago... "Rain!"... As I slowly look back i always see you, running towards me while opening your arms as you gave me a tight embrace, you used to be that small little kid i used to read stories long time ago, became my huge admirer... "Rain..." Calix said while looking down, "is there something wrong?" I asked, but suddenly he hug me and whisper to my ears "i...i like you"... He was blushing as mess as i look at him, i chuckle "its the 15th time you confess to me" i smiles looking at him... "And probably this will be the 15th time i rejected you" he sadly look down "i know... But im not giving up" calix said, i just smiled and grab his cheeks "are you about to cry again?" I chuckle.... "No..." He responds sniffling , i sighed looking at him "please dont waste your time chasing after me calix, im not the type of person someone falls in love with..." I said " I fell in love with you the moment i saw you, i dont know how, i dont know why... I just did" he said looking at me, " i love you rain" he lean closer to me closing the gap between us... And slowly touch my cheeks as he was about to place a kiss on me... But i avoid it... 'why did i?... All my life i just want to be loved... why am i scared?'...

' i act like i dont care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up this big wall of toughness and pretend everything is fine. Like i dont need somebody's affection but in reality i think im just too scared. scared of not being good enough. Or of getting hurt. Scared of letting someone in. Maybe even afraid, afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone who will eventually let me down. Afraid that my heart will break into a million of pieces because i gave my all to someone who promised they wouldn't hurt me...'

"Im sorry Calix..." Tears flow down from my eyes, "im...im scared" he wipe my tears as i rest in his shoulder, " dont be scared... Im always here" calix said, "you don't understand... One day you'll get tired of me and leave me alone..." I cried "I wont... Rain you'll never be unloved by me..." He said... I hug him "i... I will try loving you" i whisper, "really?!" He shouted happily, i nodded as yes.. he hug me and place a gentle kiss on my forehead.

'Starting that day me and Calix were inseparable... He gave me a lot of attention, and love... But sometimes hes a bit possessive on me, like some wattpad stories... '

'All my life I've never thought that someone would love me for all of his life...'

'Two years passed..

Calix gave me the best years of my life, he was the perfect boyfriend i could ever ask for...'

I was reading a book '10 years that i loved you the most'... "Why do you keep Starring at me?"i said looking at Calix, he chuckled "Im just looking at my future husband " he said... "Stop joking around" i said sarcastically... I continue reading my book as he placed a small box beside me "whats that?" I ask him... "Open it" he said... "I told you stop spoiling me with gifts" i said, he just smiled at me... I have no choice but to open his gift...

In my surprised... It was a beautiful ring " will you marry me" calix said while kneeling, my heart began to burst as i hear those words

"My love will you spend the rest of your life with me" he smiled... I was speechless at that moment, that i couldn't find the right words to say to him, i just nodded as yes... I burst into tears as i hug him tightly" i...love you" i said he place the ring in my fingers and it was a perfect fit, he suddenly grab my cheeks and place a gentle kiss on my lips, "i love you rain, i always do".

'I was happy from the start... But then me and Calix began to distance ourselves...'

10 years later (present)

'There was a distance between us...

Every day i woke up without you by my side greeting me good morning... I understand that your busy on your job being a ceo but cant you atleast spare a time to be with me?' i sighed.. ' its been lonely since your not here' i pick my book and sat next to our cat named Leo... Many days passed Calix didn't come home, i remembered that today was our wedding anniversary... 'did he forgot?' i look down sadly as i wait for him to open our front door... I patiently wait... Until... Our door bell rang i hurriedly run towards our door hoping Calix is home... But sadly a delivery guy gave me a bouquet of flowers " good morning sir, Mr. M told me to deliver it to you since he's very busy "oh ok" i responded sadly "thank you".

I read the letter he sent me 'Happy Anniversary'... He didn't write anything else... I place the letter in the table... And ware my jacket and scarf, i left home and visit the cemetery... "Its been so long dad..." I place the flowers , i cried as i sat next to dad's grave "i miss you"...

Many days passes Calix finally come home...

He angrily walks in... I was confused so i planned to ask him " whats wrong?"...

"Like you care" he responds angrily... I stayed quiet nothing to respond to what he said... He finally talk to me "Rain..."

"Hmn?" I look at him... " Lets divorce"... My world shattered into pieces... I understand why he wanted to divorce me in the first place... Its just that he broke his promise, i stand strong holding my tears... "Im sorry rain" he said " i understand" i respond immediately... " Its just that you've change-" i cut his sentence "I didn't change at all Calix, its just that you never knew me well..."

I slowly look back not wanting to have an eye contact with him " i understand your decision...", 'I never thought you'd do this to me...you promise...' i kept my feelings in me, and walk away...

We didn't talk to much that day, and Calix also left for a business trip... I cried non stop

Hugging my pillow, 'i knew from the start that he will get tired of me...and leave me alone...' i kept crying I've never felt so heart broken before...

-to be continued-

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