CHAPTER ONE : MOVING OUT OF TOWN

...AVA: "I never thought my life had an importance. I always thought that something was missing but never thought much about it. My parents decided to make me feel better by changing a bit, a change of atmosphere. The others looked a bit jealous of me. They said I'm an attention seeker yet, I can't get frustrated. It always seems to bother me, not to be able to be happy since he died. They all say it's not my fault but deep down I already know that they are only saying this so that I can feel better. Yes, it wasn't my fault, but none of that would have happened if I wasn't so stubborn. If I didn't get mad at him, maybe he would still be here with me. Only if I did take the phone at that moment, maybe he would have felt better. I could've helped him but didn't. It does is my fault....

...Today is the day. We're finally getting out of this place where everything happened. I don't want to leave but maybe if I do, I'll fell better. Who knows? Maybe I'll fall in love or die? Maybe I'll make friends? All I know is that I don't have to feel bad anymore. That I can actually make something of myself. I'll forget about the past to focus on my new life. I'll try my best to have a better life, for him since that's what he wants me to do. New town means new house, car, clothes, school and people....

...I don't like people. I despite them more than anything. They think they are superior to other creatures. Some people think they rule the world because they have money and I hate that. Why? Why do they have to be so mean to the others? Nobody knows what they really want. This is why I don't like people....

...Still in the car thinking about life. Why do I have to be alive? How did my soul end up in this frail body. I really want to know how, but I will never find out why. No one ever told me how or why I was here. Not even my parents wanted to tell me how , so I gave up. But from now on, I'll always seek the truth whatever it takes. Even if I have to sacrifice my life, I'll still look for it. That is something I know....

...You may be asking me why every single thing I just said has literally nothing to do with each other but they do. You'll soon find out why. But for the moment nothing will be said. All what you need to know is that this is the story of me , a depressive person met my husband who the identity will be mentioned another time kids. So just contemplate the moment. Not everyone can do so....

AVA: "I never thought my life had an importance. I always thought that something was missing but never thought much about it. My parents decided to make me feel better by changing a bit, a change of atmosphere. The others looked a bit jealous of me. They said I'm an attention seeker yet, I can't get frustrated. It always seems to bother me, not to be able to be happy since he died. They all say it's not my fault but deep down I already know that they are only saying this so that I can feel better. Yes, it wasn't my fault, but none of that would have happened if I wasn't so stubborn. If I didn't get mad at him, maybe he would still be here with me. Only if I did take the phone at that moment, maybe he would have felt better. I could've helped him but didn't. It does is my fault.

Today is the day. We're finally getting out of this place where everything happened. I don't want to leave but maybe if I do, I'll fell better. Who knows? Maybe I'll fall in love or die? Maybe I'll make friends? All I know is that I don't have to feel bad anymore. That I can actually make something of myself. I'll forget about the past to focus on my new life. I'll try my best to have a better life, for him since that's what he wants me to do. New town means new house, car, clothes, school and people.

I don't like people. I despite them more than anything. They think they are superior to other creatures. Some people think they rule the world because they have money and I hate that. Why? Why do they have to be so mean to the others? Nobody knows what they really want. This is why I don't like people.

Still in the car thinking about life. Why do I have to be alive? How did my soul end up in this frail body. I really want to know how, but I will never find out why. No one ever told me how or why I was here. Not even my parents wanted to tell me how , so I gave up. But from now on, I'll always seek the truth whatever it takes. Even if I have to sacrifice my life, I'll still look for it. That is something I know.

You may be asking me why every single thing I just said has literally nothing to do with each other but they do. You'll soon find out why. But for the moment nothing will be said. All what you need to know is that this is the story of me , a depressive person met my husband who the identity will be mentioned another time kids. So just contemplate the moment. Not everyone can do so."

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