A letter to Wayne

I’ve been fidgetting my hair thinking about how to write her this letter now that I am here in front of your grave across the ocean.

I had traversed it and had decide I would finally do it, I thought giving a letter would put it all behind but I gues it did not so I wondered over and over if I could read it to you.

So listen very well to my words if you can see me right now.

...It's been cold or was it warm ? Wherever you are it must be hard....

...Even so maybe one thing is sure, it was never easy and never pleasant to hear you left....

...A memory of a someone else and a heartbeat that wasn't mine to begin with....

...You had sacrificed your life, a new opportunity to become an adult , a wife or someone’s mother. ...

...A life, the one i am living now,....

...Probably i am in a time and your on a space or some kind of parallel world we did not crossed to meet each other again but in a way somehow i exist now and i decided that i will make my life better now that your no longer amongst us....

...For that i owe you much....

...I owe you an explanation and maybe a name I have made for myself thanks to you....

...For you I’ll sacrifice my age and we get to know the concept of my realism and your end....

...Its simple and plain, just like that summer with you my beloved Wayne....

...You are the girl that used to be and the one that isn't here, she is the one who gave me a day and a whole new year after year....

...A chance to survive and a night to pass by, it is to her I owe my life and my story for I was once endangered, but it is me who is forever greatefull to her act of love , the one I only once knew how a person loves unconditional and raw....

...Wayne, wherever you may be ? for saving this plain girl with the most basic but yet exotic background, Asia Sign , I am forever in your dept and will keep this heart and take great care of it....

...Asia...

I at least hope you like the letter Wayne , because it was my last chance to say it with my whole heart what I felt even though I still do not say it with the exact words but I kind of did and somehow I hope that somewhere, where spirits bring you, you heard the letter that I was proclaiming out loud yes the loudest sound that only you can hear and the water will collect is the sound of the drums inside of my body in the middle of all the organs of hat conducts my life cuss even if I have lived it without you it wasn’t possible Wayne and oh boy I wish you were there , you would probably say something smart something that would make me cry and smile at the same time.

Rest up Wayne you deserve that at least, after all why you did for me..

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