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Ellie D'more 

My life was never like this from always , Dull lifeless ,no intrest in surroundings,but situation Change the person completey isn't it but we have to face it anyways no matter how cruel something out faith plays with us with unexpected people isn't it? Same happened with me and I am happy to be where I am now nothing much changed much but atleast now I am not dull ,lifeless ,I have intrest in my own little world that I have created which I appreciate more than anything ,I am changed but not what they wanted after destroying my innocence , but I am and will never be in millions years will be cruel like THEM ,I have changed myself by investing in me , working on me because crying doesn't change anything no matter how much distance you have to travel ,you have to start your journey at one point of time ,no matter how hard the path appears to be seen.

My highschool years were never Good infact it was far away from it I am impressed that I was able to survive it , but it cand barely living  ,but let it be maybe it was because I choose the wrong person for my life which lead to all the things, this whole incident reached me one thing in my life to never waste your feelings on anyone ,not everyone deserves it ,people are with you for their own benefits, because if not ,they wouldn't hurt you.

I never want to hold on to the past ,but we can't  make our mind to think different, thinking was ,or It is nothing I can control ,I can't help it ,but the least I can do is to try my best to overcome it by distracting myself, making my self more valuable for the people available in my life , moreover for myself,I want to improve myself for myself and that can only happen happen when ,I will try to move on and that's exactly what I did,I invested myself in my passion to enter a prestigious college, not everyone can enter there not atleast someone like me who is not so rich ,my family came from middle class we can live a good life but affording best college fee would be big burden to them because it's way to expensive they were on cloud nine when they get the news of my selection ,I was happy to be able to make my parents proud atleast.

Few months back I joined my university after attending never-ending counselling , form submissions  it was done . I am first year student in  business stream though it  nearly at verge of ending in few weeks of assignments submission, one thing that happened in my past of my high school is that ,I lost my interest to trust everyone easily ,heck I don't trust anyone except my parents now and I am sure that anything will  happen in future can't change this fact in future too .

But In my daily life something sure changed in my college when in half semester, I met a senior , the first time I met him was at the time of evening,when he was injured apparently he looked like he had a good fight though he was injured he has.... somewhat satisfactory proud look on his face maybe I was overthinking but it looked like whatever has happened has lifted his pride because of the look on his face doesn't give away any signs that his one arm and one leg is covered with mud and blood  , I didn't think much of it as at the moment we were only present their and he asked for help from me ,he had lost his phone in the accident so ,I just borrowed him my phone for the help and from that day ,he was the only friend of mine from seniors .

 earlier I was getting frustrated because I was getting late to take my bus to go home ,but due to college annual party program planning program got me late  well  I  never thought I will meet a liveing Greek god beauty and that to my friend,I have few friends but it's from my section only.

Many girls yet boys too think even ,I myself think how in the world he wants to be my FRIEND . Like how? After the incident , we started to meet each other more frequently ,at first it was awkward as hell because ,In past few years I have builded a protective shield around me which makes me unable to open up soon as ,I used to in past ,though he was more than beautiful I have seen my entire life ,he never flaunts it ,like my classmates do ,to gain our attention.

He said he wants to thank me for the phone help because of me he was able to contact his family  and friends though he never told me the reason of fight  .

And like this our friendship started but it was ended because of me, because I decided to give up first , without confronting him regarding the matter , 

Though Ares and I were good friends but we were starting to get more and more close until realisation hit me like hell, it was not a good sign for me , I don't want anyone near me to be this important to me , heck it isn't  even a very  long time that I met him , so I thought it isn't to late to fix your mistakes .

In past few months I have done everything through which we can avoid each other or basically me running away from him ,when he tried to approach me ,hell I think he have most patience than any person in my life that ,I have met until now. But I can't help but to think what I will answer ,when he will ask about my actions, 

My exam are over around a week and now everyone is planning about the college annual party in celebration of completing our exam faces smoothly, now I  am in my second year and Ares still have more than one and year or less than two years to complete his all studies.though I have told him about my studies excuse for exam for ending our friendship but it was not entirely wrong.

I don't want anything in life other than my respectful dreamcareer for which I have to score good marks  ,my parents happiness, because it. Is was that matters to me the most and I  doesn't have in me to torture myself anymore because of my own decisions.

Let's hope me and Ares never cross  same path again because I don't know how to react, how to explain and the only thing I can do is "Run" and it's what I will be doing to protect myself ,If I have to.

I can't let anyone broke,no matter what, I will not allow anyone to hurt me more.

I can't let my past repeat again.

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