Greetings!

Hello everyone! Good morning/ Good afternoon/ Good evening! I’m 15 this year, a high school student. In this story, it will not be about anyone else than me. Like what genius people say be aware of what you think. Well, I will be sharing what I think and feel with you guys and hope you can give me your feedbacks and your thoughts about it too!

I’m going to write about my everyday thoughts, my point of view on something I’m interested about, what I learn during the day, what I experienced and my love story. My love story is somewhat complicated. I don’t think I like him in that way, but when he talk about someone else, I make me a little sad but not jealous. I think about him all the time and sometime would dream about the moment I wish we have had together and the memories that we actually shared. Well, I only known him in my grade 4 primary school, we’re about the same age and share same interests. I like talking to him and we keep in touch everyday but something is missing. He doesn’t talk to me the way he did to someone else or can I stare deep through his eyes normally. It will make me stop what I’m doing for a moment before I can proceed on what I am actually doing. You may say I have a crush on him. Maybe it is a yes. But he has a crush on someone else and the one who broke his heart. He told me once that he has a crush on my friend but she had a boyfriend. And that her boyfriend is his friend too. He gave up on her but maybe still loving her. The way they talk and the way they reacted together is rather making me jealous. I am not suppose to have a crush on him nor should I like him but I can’t stop it. Sometime, I would lie just to get a chance on seeing him and would just ignore someone else for him. Is it worth it? I do not know, I do not want to know the truth. It is bitter and hurtful. It is hard to accept that he actually love someone else and not me. Should I keep going? Should I stay the same way? Should I tell him the truth? The way I feel about him when he is with other? Should I say I am jealous? I do not really know what to do. I am scared to actually share what I feel with someone who know me. They would keep teasing me and not actually helping me at all. People would look at me and say that I’m strong and good at things. But reality that they don’t know is I’m very bad and broke inside.

I’m very glad to share what I feel with you as a stranger and as a friend. I will keep this as my memory and documentary. I’m sorry for any grammar mistakes I have. I’m bad at grammar! And hope you enjoy it!

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