Chapter 5

to do something wrong is to have the courage to bear the

consequences, so i am ready for the misfortune of a

lifetime.]]

in the heart-wrenching silence, song bailao's lazy voice

sounded again.

"your seduction skills are also too clumsy, aren't they?"

i froze and looked up from his arms, facing his drooping

eves.

his pupils were as dark as ink, and his facial features

appeared deeper and lacked temperature in the dim light.

"just can't wait to dedicate yourself?" his thin lips were

faintly upturned when he spoke, but it was by no means a

friendly arc.

he thought i had fallen off on purpose so that i could throw

my arms around him. this person has a bad temper, but

his imagination is quite good.

"no..." i hurriedly struggled to get out of his arms, stepped

back slightly, and stood an arm's length away from him.

i stared at a vague pattern on the carpet and defended

myself weakly: " really just fell." "

he let out a cold hum of disdain from his nose, as if he were

laughing at me until this time. in the afterglow of the corner of my eye, he bounced his shirt, as if trying to brush away

the unsightly folds i had left on his clothes.

for the next dozen seconds, none of us spoke. time is so

long because of the blank space that it is difficult to sit still.

i heard song bailao suppressing his impatience and sighing

heavily from his nose: "then will you wear a tie?" "

fingers nervously ** a little, i swallowed uneasily spit: "this

is also…. not really.

he didn't say another word, walked up to me, pulled the tie

from my hand, and without much gentleness lifted the

collar of my shirt, and even began to tie it for me.

i stiffened my neck and let him toss and turn, not daring to

move. the gaze was inevitably facing his face, and i had to

admit that even in the alpha, which was generally excellent-

looking, song bailao's face could still be called stunning.

unlike liang qiuyang's delicacy and zhu li's immortal qi,

song bailao's good looks are more masculine and more

aggressive. if liang qiuyang and zhu li are precious

collections displayed in museums, then song bailao is a

magnificent scenery in nature.

without a minute, he skillfully tied the tie that i couldn't

toss and turn before.

"all right." he adjusted the position of the tie to make it more obedient to my chest. i was finally able to breathe

normally without having to deliberately hold my breath.

i saw his eyelids lift slightly, stagger his face, walk back to

the bed and quickly put on the white blazer. as soon as i

turned back, i saw that song bailao was still standing where

he was, looking ahead with both eyes. i noticed that there

was a dressing mirror behind me just now, and he was

silently staring at his reflection in the mirror.

"come here." he seemed to perceive my gaze through the

mirror and commanded without turning his head.

obediently walked over, and he gave way to some

positions, motioning for me to stand beside him. i did it,

and the mirror immediately appeared as if we were

standing side by side.

dresses of the same style, he wears black, i wear white. he

was tall and handsome, dazzling; i was pale and gaunt,

cowering and shrinking.

"is it worth it?" he looked at me in the mirror and asked.

not worthy at all, even a little funny.

if he wants to make me ashamed of himself, he probably

doesn't have to do it that way. I've always been well aware

of what this marriage meant to him and the role i was

playing in it.

i don't open my eyes: "the clothes are a little big."

the dress on my body should have been customized

according to the size of zhu li, and put on me, just like a

child wearing an adult's clothes, funny and ridiculous.

my reaction, which may have made him feel a little bored,

looked at me in the mirror for a while, turned and took off

his coat, and did not continue to stab me.

"i'll make the tailor a size smaller." he casually threw his

coat on the armrest, and then leaned back into the sofa

leisurely.

i stood in a daze for a while, thinking it should mean "over",

and took off my coat as i walked to the bed.

"do you know why i want to marry the zhu family?"

i undressed and looked blankly at song bailao.

he crossed erlang's legs and supported his chin with the

back of his hand: "in the energy industry, xia sheng and the

ran family are called two giants, and the zhu family has

begun to get involved in the energy industry in recent years,

and zhu yunsheng must choose one of them to cling to if he

wants to squeeze in." and i also need to co-opt new forces

against the ran family and break the deadlock, so it

doesn't make a difference for me whether it's the zhu family

or the yang family. he downplayed it, and the canine teeth

under the thin lips loomed, "although your two brothers are not very good, but the commercial marriage has

nothing to do with the will." i hope that after marriage, you

can abide by your duty, do what you should do, and don't

cause me trouble. in this way, we may be able to coexist

peacefully.

he said this bluntly, and he was very rude. but i didn't seem

to have any choice but to nod my head in agreement.

"i see." i turned my back on him to change back into my

clothes, and was hesitating whether to fold the dress i had

taken off, when song bailao behind me saw my intentions

and stopped me in a cold voice.

"leave the clothes there, you can go."

as ifi had been pardoned, i straightened up and went

outside, almost impatiently leaving the room where song

bailao was located.

secretary lee sent me downstairs, and it wasn't until i

walked out of the summerson building that i dared to look

back. the towering 28th floor, whether from the bottom up

or from the top down, should not be perceived according to

the reason, but i strangely felt that there was always a line

of sight falling on me from the tall building, lingering.

obviously, i just tried on a set of clothes, but i was

physically and mentally exhausted. after returning home,

the bowl of white jade jade noodles had already swollen into a lump of gnocchi. although it must be difficult to eat, i

was hungry and tired, and i really couldn't have the heart to

reopen the stove to cook, so i could only eat this bowl of

cold noodles.

after eating the noodles, i put down my chopsticks and held

my palms together against the bowl of soup in front of me,

forming a fist.

"happy birthday to me."

i didn't really feel much about the day i was born, in

previous years, when master was there, he would celebrate

my birthday for me, and after he left, even i didn't

remember much. this year, i will think of eating bowl

noodles, but i just want to make a birthday wish.

i put my forehead on my thumb, closed my eyes and

whispered, "i hope my child is healthy and well." "

in the past twenty years, i have made only a few wishes,

and even fewer have been realized. he was born seven

years ago, and i didn't do anything for him, and i could only

comfort myself in this way. i always blame ning shi, but in

the end i am not a competent father myself.

i cleaned up the dishes and took another shower, and it was

already eleven o'clock in the evening. i sat down at my desk

and used the key to open my diary and jot down what had

happened today.

since seven years ago, i have had the habit of keeping a

diary, and all the voices that cannot be said during the day

are held in the diary, which can also be used as my daily

catharsis.

[i saw him again, and he made me scrupulously abide by

my duty.]

when song bailao asked me to try on clothes in the evening,

i paused until an ink spot that could not be ignored

appeared on the paper, and then i raised my pen again and

continued to write.

**

after writing a journal, turn off the lights and fall asleep. i

don't know if i saw song bailao's relationship today, and i

had him in my dreams.

zhu li knocked on my door, smiled and invited me to a

party, saying i would like it.

at that time he was well disguised, gentle, beautiful,

excellent, and allowed me, the son of a mistress, to call him

"brother", and you can imagine how flattered i was as a

young man. i trusted him unconditionally, feeling that he

was the opposite of the arrogant and indifferent classmates

of the school, a white lotus flower that came out of the mud

and did not stain it.

i didn't expect that the white lotus was really a white lotus, or a black heart lotus with profound taoism.

he often asked me at the dinner table about my situation at

school and asked about the details of my relationship with

my classmates, and at that time i thought he cared about

me, and always hid the truth, telling him that i was fine and

that everyone was friendly.

in fact, he was just watching my jokes and admiring the

crappy performances i wanted to cover up.

not long after, zhu li took me to a carnival party. on the top

floor of a building, there is an infinity pool with panoramic

views of xiangtan. i don't know what the theme is or who

the organizer is. from the moment you enter the door, you'll

be greeted by a dazzling array of alphas and omegas,

gorgeously dressed in signature bite stops and bite-

resistant collars, playing within a safe range. there were

also betas on the scene, only a few, and i soon found out

that it was the waiter who poured them wine.

many people came to greet zhu li, and he was also a

dazzling presence in the upper circle that could not be

ignored. zhu li introduced me to them one by one and

called me "younger brother", whenever this happens, the

opposite a or o reveals subtle surprise.

these people are well hidden, but i can still keenly capture

the emotions that can be called "disgust" behind their

perfect upbringing.

the only difference between them and my classmates was

probably that one of them still maintained at least the poor

surface kung fu, while the other side didn't even bother to

maintain the surface kung fu.

zhu li was surrounded by his friends, who talked about

everything from the financial situation to the international

dynamics, and it was almost like a group of underage high

school students. it was also at this moment that i clearly

realized that the power and wealth of this world and even

the future are only in the hands of a few people, and the

participants in this party are the best of them, and the beta

will never want to squeeze into them.

i couldn't fit in and walked away dimly, just trying to find a

quiet place to stay until the party was over.

this may be the purpose of zhu li taking me there, so that i

can recognize the reality and know the gap with them.

to the cacophony of music, i was attacked from behind by a

sudden, strong force that overwhelmed the wall.

i looked back in horror and saw a strange alpha, wearing

bright amber contact lenses, a bite stopper that looked like

brass, and a terrible shape with jagged canine teeth.

"the smell on your body is very clean." he sniffed me and

laughed drunkenly, "want to play with me?" "

the beta on the party with a tray dressed in revealing costumes, enchanting makeup, flirting with ao, is more like

a "service industry" than a waiter. i even suspect that these

betas are the "fun" they are looking for. and without zhu li

around, i obviously seem to be an object of casual

entertainment in their eyes.

"i don't want to play..." i pushed him away and blindfolded

him into a hallway.

the alpha behind me chased me unhurriedly, as if to think i

was going to play with him again.

"don't go, slow down..." the other party twisted and leaned

against the wall, "little beta, let me mark you..." he said and

was amused by himself, laughing inexplicably there, i don't

know if it was some medicine.

i kept turning back, turning another corner, desperately

finding it a dead end. fortunately, there were several closed

doors on both sides of the corridor, and i was in a hurry to

go to the doctor, so i chose one of them to twist the handle,

and i didn't expect to unscrew it.

i hurried into the room, closed the door softly, and exhaled

a long breath with my forehead against the door. but before

i could fully put my heart back in place, the unusual noise

coming from behind me instantly made me nervous again.

when i entered the door, i only glanced at it briefly, only to

catch a glimpse of the moonlight and the light shining through the huge floor-to-ceiling window into the house,

casting a lattice-like reflection on the ground, and found no

one else.

jerked back, and i saw a dark corner where the lights were

not shining, a large soft and messy bed, and the *****

alpha slowly sat up with his forehead covered. after a while,

a delicate and soft female beta sat up next to him.

seeing the black grid-shaped bite stopper worn on the

lower half of alpha's face, my heart moved and i had a

vague premonition. sure enough, when the other party

moved his hand away, i found that the other party i knew,

ori had seen, was song bailao.

he also saw me, not knowing whether it was a hangover or

unhappiness to be disturbed, and his brow was tightly

twisted: "who let you in?" "

i was also embarrassed by this situation, but let me go out

again and i was afraid of encountering that strange alpha

again.

i hurried to explain to him, "i am... have we seen you forget?

that day at the back door of the experimental building, you

climbed over the wall and came in. i tried to evoke his

memories, "I'm zhu li's younger brother, and there's an

alpha out there that's been pestering me all the time."

please, borrow me to hide. he raised an eyebrow: "zhu li's… brother? he looked at the

beta beside him and raised his chin at her, "you, get out." "

the woman tucked her curly hair together and pouted with

some dissatisfaction, but still obediently got out of bed and

got dressed, not daring to leave without a trace of

complaint.

as she passed me, she rolled her eyes at me, as if to blame

me for disturbing her good deeds.

there were only two people left in the room, song bailao,

and i was nervous against the door, not knowing what to

say for a moment.

in the end, song bailao opened his mouth first: "zhu li

actually has a beta brother?" "

his eyebrows were slight, and he seemed to find it

incredible.

i sipped my dry lips, "we... there is no blood relation."

he suddenly realized, "no wonder, you don't look like each

other at all." "

there seemed to be a deep meaning in his words, and i

didn't like his tone very much: "how can i compare with my

brother..

the door panel behind me was suddenly slammed, and i stared at the door in horror, stepping back away from it, my

heart beating violently, almost jumping out of my chest.

my back suddenly reached a strong, hot human wall, and i

looked back in amazement, and song bailao stood behind

me, his hands on my shoulders, pushing me aside.

"get out of the way."

i was still stunned, he had already walked over and

slammed open the door.

"if you don't want to die, get out." he made a wicked threat

to the people outside the door.

"song, song bailao?" the man seemed to be frightened, and

i could even hear in his voice the image of a puppy

whimpering pitifully from its throat with its tail between its

legs.

song bailao's reputation at that time was already very loud,

whether it was in the family world or in fighting fiercely.

his excellence is there for all to see, and his rebellion is well

known. even as a fellow, alpha would not easily provoke

him.

the door was soon quiet, and song bailao closed the door

again. only then did i realize that he was completely *****.

he stood in front of me with a big grin, like a living marble

statue, and the texture of the muscles and even the light and shadow formed by the outdoor light projected on his

body were all permeated with an unreal beauty.

although the lower body is hidden in the shadows, it is also

very impressive to look vaguely.

i looked away awkwardly, "hmm.. thanks, thank you."

"this is not the place for a beta like you to come."

i was stunned, the words were correct, but he said it too

directly, making my face very ugly.

i was at a loss for words that night, i couldn't get in the right

place, i was holding my breath and had nowhere to vent, he

kind of hit me at gunpoint.

i put my eyes on him and asked him, "where should i be?" "

ning shi asked me to join them, but they did not accept me

i don't want to pretend to be their kind, but i really don't

have anywhere to go.

at that time, i was still very naive, thinking that everyone

was human, so why should the beta be inferior? i could go

on my own, but they couldn't drive me away.

"where you beta should be." song bailao reached out and

rubbed the back of his neck, circling in circles, avoiding the

weight and light, "anyway, it's not here." "

i endured for a long time, and i didn't treat ning shi with any outbreak, but after he said these words, i refuted him

with a strange heroism.

"to put it mildly, aren't you born of beta?" since you also

have half of the beta gene in your body, shouldn't you stay

here?"

this can be said to be bold, and i immediately regretted it

after i said it, but it was too late.

i not only poked song bailao's reverse scales, but also

poked them to death.

by the time i reacted, he had grabbed me by the neck and

slammed me against the wall.

my toes touched the ground, i had trouble breathing, and

the blood seemed to be frozen on my face. i struggled to

grab the hand around my neck, but alpha's strength was

not something i could resist, and his hand was like an

unbreakable iron tong, which could not be shaken at all.

in a trance, i even saw a tyrannical blood light flash in song

bailao's eyes, as if he was going to kill me.

i thought i was going to die, he really wanted to strangle

me. but gradually, the pressure on the trachea in my neck

became smaller and smaller, and i could breathe smoothly

again.

i gulped in the precious air, because i was so eager that i coughed up, tears coughed out of the corners of my eyes.

he pinched my chin and forced me to look up: "what do you

know?" think you can tell me when you hear that i can do

just one or two pieces of gossip? it's because of a self-

righteous beta like you that i'm here. he looked at me like

he was looking at an ant, "it's really disappointing." "

he withdrew his hand, left me there, turned and pushed

open a bathroom door and walked in.

i covered my neck and watched with trepidation as his back

disappeared behind the door, until the faint sound of water

sounded in my ears, and then i pulled open the door and

fled the bedroom as if awakened.

after the party, zhu li found me in a dark corner.

he asked me helplessly why i was hiding, and i smiled at

him and said that i was not used to the noisy environment.

his gaze lingered around my neck for a moment, then he

moved away indifferently.

when i got home, i looked in the mirror and found that i had

a clear strangulation on my neck, which was vicious and

glaring at the skin, and i could see it as long as i wasn't

blind.

Sorry for the late update

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