Episode 2

What should I do? run? Talk to him?

I looked at Oliver, sending him a sign.It's time to go Oliver.

"What happened, Noah? You two know each other?"

Clearly he didn't understand.

"Yeah, we were both classmates in middle school." Matthew quickly answered with a small smile on his face.

He didn't think twice and that made my heart ache.

"That's great! you two probably have a lot to talk about. Should i leave and let you two talk?"

"It isn't necessary Oliv-"

"That would be great, thanks."

I tried to reply quickly but Matthew interrupted.

Why? Why does he want to talk? It will just make me feel worse. Make me feel hope again.

I looked at Oliver's back as he kept moving away.

I ran my hand over my neck and then over my shoulder, feeling the sweat cling to me. My body was shaking. I missed him but I knew I wasn't emotionally ready to talk to him.

"Want to talk? I won't force you."

I was stressed and the heat outside did not make the situation any easier.

"Yeah, let's talk." I answered after a long silence.

Yes, let's talk. Going now will only be more embarrassing. We are classmates after all.

The bell rang suddenly so we both agreed to meet again at the break and talk.

The lesson went slowly. I could not even listen. My head was somewhere else. My leg did not rest, trembling and moving all the time.

I want to go home. I want to go home.

The break has finally arrived.

I wanted this day to be over. I want to go home and sleep. But of course, here I am, sitting in the grass, waiting for him.

"Hey, long time no see." Matthew has finally arrived.

"Right..."

"I never thought I would see you here."

"You're the one who's new here, what are you doing here? "

"Well, my mom wanted to go back to town, so we came back. We've been here for almost a year. I moved between the two high schools on vacation. The first one didn't suit me. But I didn't expect to see you here ha ha ha."

"Whatever" I told him quickly. Has he been back for almost a year? Is it really because of his mother? If that is the reason he should have stayed in New York. It could have been better for both of us.

"Still, I'm just your middle school friend?"

"What? Are you annoyed? What did you want me to say 'Hey, this is my ex!' ?"

"You did not even hesitate a bit..."

"Ok, sorry."

It's still awkward to talk to him. I have no idea what to say.

"Would it be weird if we continued to be friends? It would be awkward if not ..."

I was scared. We? Friends? But ...

Flashbacks went through my head. I saw both of us. Laughing, having fun, it was so nice in middle school.

"we can't." I said immediately. Looking back, it was fun. But we're just going back. Nothing will change.

"Why?" Matthew looked sad. it seems like we both are not over the break up.

I didn't mean to hurt him.

Matthew, i love you. I love you so much.