Chapter 4

Sienna cried her heart out on Kim's shoulder. She was only

23 and already pregnant, but her age wasn't what scared her. Sienna could not

afford to raise a baby, her family barely survived through the month, and their

house was in no condition for an infant. She would have to stop working for a

few months, which meant no income... and the billionaire's money wouldn't last

forever.

Sienna didn't want to bring the baby up in a life where she

or he would struggle. Plus, she wasn't mentally prepared to be a mother and

keeping the baby meant that she would raise it alone. She would have no help

from the billionaire... heck, he wouldn't even know he was a father. All she

knew was his name, and by now, he was probably back in South Africa. There was

no way Sienna could get in touch with him, nor did she want to.

"Okay... uhm, we marry you as soon as possible, so at

least then you'll have a husband," Kim suggested.

"That would be unfair to the man I marry. Plus, the

billionaire had blonde hair and blue eyes... how do I explain that if the baby

has the same features?" Sienna shook her head. She and Kim had been

brainstorming ideas on what to do.

"Shit! True, uhm... well, we have 3 options. You keep

the baby, give it up for adoption, or I'm sorry to say this, but have an

abortion."

"Kim, I don't even have money to go to the hospital to

give birth."

"Girl, you have a lot of thinking to do. I'm sorry to

be the bearer of bad news, but you need to make a decision and quickly. You

fell pregnant 3 weeks ago... and a babies heartbeat develops at 5 weeks. If you

choose to have an abortion, I suggest soon before it develops

further."

"What would you do?" Sienna asked and looked at

her friend for an answer.

"I can't answer that. You need to decide on your own,

but I'll support you no matter what. If you choose to keep the baby, then we

can raise it together." Kim smiled.

Sienna nodded and gave her friend a hug. Kim was a true

friend, but Sienna would feel too guilty if Kim helped her raise the baby. She

wouldn't put her responsibility onto another person, which was why adoption was

out of the picture.

Sienna stuffed the pregnancy tests at the bottom of her bag

to keep them hidden and left Kim's apartment heartbroken. She at least stopped

crying and walked home, where she pretended everything was still good. She

would be such a great disappointment if her parents found out she was pregnant

before marriage, and things had just started to get better.

"Mom, how did you know Dad was the one?" Sienna

asked as she washed the dishes. Her mom sat at the table sorting through

documents that stated how much debt they had. Her Dad had already turned in for

the night, and Hanuel was still at the hospital.

"Oh, well, he was kind to me and looked after me

without expecting anything in return. Your father has a good heart which is how

I fell in love with him. After we had you, I knew that the heavens had put us

together. I guess when you meet the right person... you just kind of

know."

"Okay."

"Why do you ask, my daughter? Have you met a man?"

Her mom inquired with a hopeful smile.

"No, no... nothing like that." Sienna quickly

replied, embarrassed. She felt her cheeks were on fire as she started blushing

and kept her head down so her mom wouldn't see.

"Don't worry, love will come to you. You're only 23 and

have a life full of great potential ahead of you." Her mom added with a

yawn. She then kissed her daughter on the cheek and went to bed, leaving Sienna

alone with her thoughts.

Potential... with a baby? Her life felt like it had come to

a standstill. All of her hopes of working hard and eventually finding love had

come to an end. If she kept the baby, then who would take care of the baby

while she was at work? Both her parents could barely move around on their own,

and Kim also worked. Who would want to be with a woman who has a child from

another man? Yes, it did happen, but only lucky women found someone to love

them and their babies. Sienna wasn't lucky, and she was not remarkable. She was

a nobody.

The next morning Sienna left the house early to go shopping

before work. She spent the whole night tossing and turning. She didn't sleep

and thought about what she wanted to do; eventually, she came to the brutal

truth and realised she didn't even want to be a mother. The thought hadn't even

crossed her mind before. Yeah, maybe one day she'll have children, but first,

she wanted to be earning enough money and find a good husband. Sienna decided

she had made up her mind. She would save her own life and not let the baby

suffer, so after one night, she decided the best option was an abortion.

Luckily, North Korea made abortions legal this year so she

wouldn't have any problems. Sienna knew that the decision was made quickly, but

she didn't want to wait any longer and risk the chance of changing her

mind.

She walked into the busy streets of the shopping centre and

watched as everyone set us business for the day. She walked past a clothing

store where they had a set of black underwear on display, which made her

remember what the billionaire said.

"... buy new underwear. Black preferably."

Sienna found that she walked into the store and touched the

fabric of the underwear. It was soft and felt fragile against her

fingers.

"It would look good on you." A kind lady stated

and smiled at Sienna. The lady grabbed a pair for herself and walked off

towards the changing rooms.

She grabbed her size, found a matching bra, then paid for

the items and left. Sienna's heart was beating rapidly as she gripped onto the

bag where the underwear was in. Why did she buy this? Why did she care about

what the billionaire thought? She wasn't ever going to see him again... yet she

found herself still drawn to him.

She walked past the abortion clinic, and after passing it about

5 times, she gained the strength to go inside.

"Hello Miss, how can I help you?" A nurse asked at

the front desk.

"I... want to have an abortion." Sienna softly

replied and looked away from the nurse.

"Okay, Miss. Fill in this paperwork so long. We are

fully booked but have an opening for the day after tomorrow at 10am. Is that

fine with you?"

Sienna nodded and went to sit down in the waiting room to

fill out the documents. She filled in her personal information and moved on to

the questions.

Night of unprotected intercourse: 6 November 2018

Identification of father: Not known

Please mark how the pregnancy occurred: Work-related,

recreational, non-consensual assault such as rape.

Tears sprang to Sienna's eyes as she read over the question.

She had been given money in return for sex... so work-related was the true

answer. Yet, instead, she ticked the last option as it would cause less

judgement and quickly finished up the paperwork. She handed the nurse the

papers and hurried out of the clinic.

She ran into a man outside who lost his balance.

"I'm so sorry," Sienna said through tears and

looked down at the man. He had on an oversized brown coat and dyed his hair

silver which made his light brown eyes stand out.

"Miss..." He started to say, but Sienna walked

off. She cried and couldn't believe that she was actually going to kill her

baby.

***

Later that night, Sienna tried on the underwear she

purchased and stared at herself in the mirror. Her hand held onto the cufflink

as her other hand touched her stomach. She hated that she still thought of the

billionaire and wished she had never taken his deal. Why didn't the bastard

wear a condom or at least pull-out?

She sunk to the floor and cuddled her own body.

"I'm sorry. I wish I could be a good mother to

you..." Sienna cried and whispered to herself as if the baby could

hear.

***

"Miss Chae-Soo? The doctor will see you now." The

nurse called. Sienna looked up and squeezed Kim's hand, who came with to give

her support. Today was the day of the abortion.

"Good luck, girl! Stay strong." Kim encouragingly

smiled as her friend stood up.

Sienna walked into the doctor's office, and the nurse placed

her documents on the table before walking out.

"Hello, I'm doctor Krystal." The doctor greeted,

and Sienna was thankful it was a woman. "I know this is a big decision,

but I'm here to help you all the way, so no need to be afraid. I'll start by

giving you an ultrasound. This will make 100% sure that you are pregnant and

tell us exactly how far into the pregnancy you are." The doctor explained

and showed Sienna over to an examination table.

"Is this your first pregnancy?" The doctor asked,

and Sienna nodded. The doctor then helped her lay down and asked Sienna to lift

her shirt; luckily, Sienna chose to wear a loose shirt and skirt for the

appointment. The doctor proceeded to rub a cold jelly-like substance onto her

lower stomach and switched on the ultrasound machine.

A scan of her uterus showed up on the screen as the doctor

pressed an instrument against her stomach. Sienna watched the screen and tried

to understand what she was seeing.

The doctor pointed to a small bean-shaped object on the

screen and smiled.

"That's the baby." The doctor stated, and tears rolled

down Sienna's face. She couldn't force herself to look away and felt mesmerised

by the little bean growing inside of her. After seeing the baby, Sienna's heart

overtook her mind, and she realised she was doing the wrong thing.

"It's just over 3 weeks old and appears healthy."

The doctor added. She wiped away the jelly and handed Sienna a tissue as she

cried. "I know this is a tough decision, but you need to do what's best

for both you and the baby." The doctor remarked and then asked, "Are

you sure you want to proceed with this abortion?"

Sienna was about to reply when the door flew open and

slammed against the wall. The sound gave her a small fright, and she looked

towards the door to see who had barged in. Her heart started racing as she

recognised the man. How was he here?

Billionaire Declan Foster stormed into the doctor's office

with his blood boiling. He didn't care who tried to stop him, but he needed to

stop the waitress before it was too late.

"You will not kill my baby!" He barked and marched

over to Sienna, who started shaking from the sound of his loud voice.

"Sir, this is a private establishment. I must insist

you leave." The doctor firmly said.

"Not without her, I won't." The billionaire hissed

and made his way over to the bed.

"Who are you, sir?"

"The father of this unborn child." He aggressively

replied and grabbed onto Sienna's wrist. He also took the documents on the

table and stormed out of the clinic while dragging Sienna with him.

"Sienna!" Kim shouted and ran after them.

"I'm okay!" Sienna yelled back to her friend

before Declan shoved her into a car. He stormed around to the other side and

climbed into the back with her. The driver started the engine and drove off,

and Sienna gulped as she looked over at Declan, who was breathing heavily. He

didn't look happy to see her.

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