40. The Feeling of Being Stricken with Grief

1 1 . Medical Certificate 

2 2. A Bowl of Wonton 

3 3. "Where You Are, Where My Heart Is" 

4 4. Could They Be Together Forever? 

5 5. Suspicion Caused by a Potted Orchid 

6 6. Doctor Ai 

7 7. Conflict 

8 8. Let's Break Up 

9 9. Jasmine in Memory 

10 10. It Just Felt like a Rape 

11 11. “Fool, Do You Know You Will Lose Me Forever?” 

12 12. Brother Jiang, Be Nice to Me Henceforward… 

13 13. The Most Valuable Thing in the World 

14 14. “Are You Gay?” 

15 15. Four Kittens 

16 16. Brief Intimacy 

17 17. Bitter Struggle for Survival 

18 18. Jiang’s Lover 

19 19. An Understanding Wife and Loving Mother 

20 20. Gentleness of Doctor Ai 

21 21. Doctor Ai’s Scarf 

22 22. He Definitely Fell in Love with Zhishu 

23 23. A Smart Golden Retriever 

24 24. Sleep Together with Doctor Ai 

25 25. To Investigate Wenxu Jiang 

26 26. He Came Back 

27 27. I Love You, but Don't Treat Me as a Fool... 

28 28. Zhishu Had a Fever Again 

29 29. Love Made People Tolerant and Silent without Complaint 

30 30. I Have No Desire for You at This Moment 

31 31. I Like You Very Much, Zhishu! 

32 32. Who Was the Winner in Love? 

33 33. Trouble Caused by a Scarf 

34 34. Wenxu Jiang, Tell Me How Long I Can Live Without Love 

35 35. The Most Uncontrollable Thing in the World 

36 36. You Are the Only One I Want 

37 37. Wenxu Jiang, You Were Crueler to Me 

38 38. Break up with His Lover 

39 39. An Uninvited Guest 

40 40. The Feeling of Being Stricken with Grief 

41 41. Don't Leave Me. 

42 42. I Quit Therapy 

43 43. I Am Such a Sucker 

44 44. He Rushed Madly Into… 

45 45. A Lover Kept by Wenxu Jiang? 

46 46. Long-lost Sweetness 

47 47. He Is an Expert of Leukemia! 

48 48. F*** your love! 

49 49. Memories 

50 50. Not Nightmare, But Reality. 

51 51. Ziyu's Efforts Slightly Paid off 

52 52. Brothers’ Confrontation 

53 53. Blood Stained the Ground. 

54 54. You’ve Got White Hair. 

55 55. Nightmare and Heartache 

56 56. The Crucial Clues 

57 57. Jiang’s Arrival 

58 58. Rush to Hospital 

59 59. This Life, Next Life. 

60 60. A Hug of Suggestive Invite 

61 61. Jiang and Ai Met 

62 62. Let Him See Me. 

63 63. The Fawning Was Pointless. 

64 64. Police Came 

65 65. Being Kept in Custody 

66 66. Visiting the Cemetery 

67 67. His Dignity Collapsed After So Long 

68 68. Leaving Hospital 

69 69. A Message From Jiang 

70 70. Before Jiang Left... 

71 71. In the Cost of Zhishu’s Life 

72 72. A Stranger Opened the Door 

73 73. Negotiation With Mayor’s Son 

74 74. Heart Attack 

75 75. I Just... Want to Hear His Breath. 

76 76. Irresistible Gentleness 

77 77. Happy Birthday! 

78 78. Don’t Touch My Zhishu 

79 79. Xia Cheng is Dead of Severe GVHR 

80 80. Endless Snow 

81 81. Little by Little, He Became Cold... 

82 82. Extra: Ziyu Ai 

83 83. Extra: Wenxu Jiang 

84 84. Extra: Assistant Song 

85 85. Extra: Zekun Li 

86 86. Wenxu Jiang's letter 