noah let's break up i said to my boyfriend while im not facing at him.
wait what babe are pranking me if so that's not funny he said to me so i face him and i stare him with my cold eye that make him shocked.
im not pranking you noah i want to break up with you after i said that word i saw a pain to her eye im sorry love i need to do this while holding my tears back.
but why babe did i do wrong he said and hold my hand but i just immediately pulled my hand away from him.
you did nothing wrong noah i told him.
then why are you breaking up with me bella tell me he asked me in a begging tone.
please noah dont make it so hard for me i said to my mind while staring at her with my cold eye.
don't you see i dont love you anymore after i said that word at him i see how he shocked.
b-babe before he finished his word i cut it immediately because i can't take it anymore.
stop calling me like that noah im fucking tired to this relationship so accept the fact that i dont love you anymore.
no babe please don't leave me i cant live without out you he said and hug me in the back while crying.
it's hurt to see my man begging to me not to breaking up with him but i need to do this so i have no choice .
let me go what else do you want me to do to make you believe I don't love you anymore I asked him.
look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me first he told me after he said that to me I no doubt looked into his eyes.
i-I don't love you anymore now are you happy I said I crouched down at first but I was able to get my voice back to normal even though I didn't want to say that to him while I was telling him the words that I knew I would regret until I died I saw him stunned by the absence while crying, I hope you will forgive me one day noah.
I wasted no time and ran away from the place where I broke his heart and left him in tears and shouting my name.
as soon as I entered the house I sat behind the door and cried there.
shhh what happened bella tell me i will listen mom said to me and hugged me.
noah and i don't have mama anymore i hurt her feelings to leave me i said while still crying in my mom arms.
shhh you just did that for her own good my daughter but bella you became selfish when you didn't say your reason she will definitely hate you too much.
after mom told me that i cried even more in her arms i hope one day you will forgive me noah and i hope you can also find a woman who is not selfish not like me who hurt you.
NOAH POV
a week ago since bella left me but I still can't accept that she could leave me like that so when she left me at the playground I went straight to her parents' house to talk to her but the maid they left when i ask the maid they said that they don't know.
so I just left there and went straight to the bar and got drunk and looked for women to forget the pains he left me.
brother, come with me to the hospital, sophie told me they don't know yet about bella and me splitting up.
I didn't want to go but he forced me and when we got to the hospital he went straight to his doctor so I walked first and I didn't expect to see bella here again as I approached he suddenly kissed the man in front of him to be stabbed of too many needles my heart because of what I saw.
I thought you were different from them but you weren't as flirtatious as they were. I told him in a cold tone but he didn't speak and bowed.
I hope I didn't love you too much after I said no I turned around and walked after I got out of the hospital I got in my car and I just told sophie to just pick up our driver and then I went straight to the bar again to get drunk.
(TWO WEEK PAST)
after i saw that man and belle kissing i was drinking and fighting with the women at the bar every day but every time i kissed them bella suddenly entered my brain why am i still thinking about her i asked myself and I also sold the house we built for our family but now it doesn't matter because the person I promised is gone.
now im her in my room and drinking alone with my beer.
but mom and dad suddenly came into my room but I didn't know anything because they also knew what happened to bella and me.
how long will you do that my son dad asked me so I looked at him for a while.
I don't think so maybe when my liver burned I told him but he suddenly punched me and held me by the collar so mom calmed dad down.
honey calm down noah what's wrong with you you're not like that mom said in an angry tone.
It's not my fault that it happened just because bella left me mom and cheated on me, I said and suddenly there were tears in my eyes.
my son you need to know something about bella mom said to me but I just turned around and took the beer bottle again.
I don't care about him anymore, mom, let him do whatever he wants, I said and when Im going to drank it again, papa slap na bottle of the beer.
bella noah didn't cheat on you she had a reason to leave you my father said that make me confused my brain what they were saying.
my son bella has a heart disease after mama said that it was like pouring cold water on me.
wait who told you that I asked while i fell so nervous.
when you said to us that bella break up with you i call her mom and meet her in the restaurant and when i ask her while bella suddenly break up with you she said that bella don't want to hurt you so much because she have a heart disease after i hear what mom said my tears suddenly falling down in my face.
stand there my son go to bella's hospital first until there's time so after mom told me I got up and walked out of the house and pulled the car to the hospital when I got out of the car I ran and looked for bella.
noah someone calls my name i looked there and there i saw aunt bella's mom.
aunty where is bella please i want to see her I told her at first she didn't want to agree but in the end she also agree I was at the door of bella's room and didn't enter because I knew in myself that I made a mistake and I can't seem to cope if I see him struggling.
but i choose to come and it was as if I would fall from standing up because of what I could see and suddenly my tears would flow.
b-bella I called her she turned around.
w-what are you doing her she ask to me with his nervous tone but i just ran toward her and hug her so tight.
why, why didn't you tell me the truth bella why I ask her while I cried on her shoulder that she cried too.
I did that because I don't want to see you worrying about me and I want before I disappear you found another woman you will love he said so I cried even more.
shhh stop crying it's gonna be bad for your help babe i said on her and kiss her forehead.
since i know the truth i almost never leave bella's side i just leave when i buy food for me and for aunt.
and mom are also visiting bella today is february 14 day of hearts so i bought flowers and chocolate even though it's hard for her to stand up she still insists while I see her like that I can't help but cry secretly because I don't want bella to see that I'm discouraged.
noah i want when i'm gone go on with your life he said to me in a difficult voice so i looked at him but he was just looking outside.
you can do that bella you can get through that too we'll get married when you get out of here I said and hugged her very tightly.
I'm sorry but I can't seem to keep my promise to you noah I'm tired too I want to go to sleep after he said that my tears kept dripping.
please bella fight I can't do without you I said while my tears were still falling.
Please noah promise me that you still keep going in life even when im gone she said while his tears start falling down to his face.
I promise you babe that even without you I will force myself to continue my life because he looked at me and smiled.
I'm happy to hear that from you my love, my love I'm sleepy.
don't babe please I said while hugging him.
thank you so much noah be careful the last word he left made me weak and I cried so much and hugged him so tightly.
Happy Valentines day babe I whispered to her and cried so hard while I hugged bella, my aunts suddenly came in and she just covered her mouth and cried so hard, so did mom.
It's been three years since you left me babe how are you there, don't worry about me like I promised you I'll try to live for you do you know what I found out that you bought our house but you also passed it on to My name is, ooh of course you left me a letter saying I would open it after 3 years right.
LETTER:
For my handsome boyfriend:
how are you noah maybe it's been three years since I disappeared and I'm sure you're fine now but babe if the man I'll love in my next life chooses me I'll choose you again and in that life we'll be together as long as we live I just want you to know that even if I'm no longer by your side, my heart is still yours for the rest of my life, I'm becoming a dramatic babe until now, just fulfill our dreams, but with other people, you'll fulfill that because I don't have anyone to accompany you fulfill our dream goodbye my dear noah
from your beautiful girlfriend 😊😊.
after i read the letter i stand up with a smile in my face don't worry babe i will always choose to love you too wait me in the next life babe and i love you always even you not her.
