Everyday I grow tired of myself. I am a puppet of everything around me. I try to do something on my own which I would like to do wholeheartedly, but I find others turning their back at me. I hate myself for this, for being a coward, for not being able to stand on my own feet. I want run away, but I find myself coming coming again. I want to start something new and make others like me, favour me and be with me, but I find myself running in circles. When everything falls apart and I want to be myself, everyone who once supported me turned their back at me. Why am I so unlucky? I pray to god if he is truly their he would help me, but what is the use of prayers when I am not able to change? That's it! I don't want to be myself to be influenced by others. I don't care about what others think. I'm a free spirit and I will be. I won't change myself for others anymore. I want to be and will be myself.
