Episode 2

Katy

I went to work Ana's shift, it was busy and that was great for me, because I didn't have time to think about how to tell Sebastian about the baby... I didn't tell him I went at a different time... I never call or text him when he's working... I don't know, I've never felt comfortable doing that... he calls or texts me when he needs to let me know about a dinner or if he's going to be late, but I never do it, I've never been to his company either, he never invited me to visit and I wouldn't go uninvited either... Now that I stop to think about it, we don't have that kind of relationship and that disheartens me a little... How did I never realize we were like this? I realized I've been settling for little... maybe because I've never been in a relationship I didn't realize how we were progressing... I've never met his parents... only his best friends because we met them the same day I met him... and I go to charity or business dinners but he always introduces me as Katerine and not as his girlfriend... And now this has been hammering in my head, I believe this isn't normal in a relationship.

Ana and I leave at 2 PM, we have to eat quickly, because it's busy today... I talk to her about what I've been thinking... she also agrees that this isn't right, even more so if I'm going to be the mother of his child... As soon as I manage to tell him about our baby, I'm also going to talk about the type of relationship we're having, because I don't want our child to grow up believing their parents don't love or respect each other...

We go back to work, at 8 PM my shift ends, I'm going to stop by a delicatessen to buy wine and a charcuterie board that Sebastian loves to celebrate... Today his friends are there for poker night, there will be time to get home, take a shower to relax, and as soon as they leave we can talk... I get nervous again and scared of his reaction, but I try to think positively as I enter the delicatessen...

As soon as I'm done with my shopping, I take a taxi, today I don't feel like waiting for the bus home... Another thing I'll need to change with the pregnancy will be about my job, I've been saving since I started spending nights at Sebastian's apartment... so I can use this money to invest in my dream... I make incredible dress designs and sew them by hand, I used to do that at the orphanage and after I went to live with Ana I made my own clothes... I just didn't do it anymore because I couldn't afford the fabrics and because I didn't have a sewing machine... but now with what I've saved in 5 months living with Sebastian I can start...

I get a taxi, and another thing that comes to mind is that even though Sebastian is very, very rich, he never said anything about me working as a waitress. Not that it isn't a dignified job—it is, very much so, as it's what has sustained me since I left the orphanage—but he never asked me to stop working or offered me a position in his company… not that I would stop or accept, because I like my independence, but still, this now sounds strange in my head...