Kat is the only person, who understand and comfort me she's always by my side at my worst and happy dream
she's my best friend since in grade school she always motivate me from my crush, comfort me, and share her shoulder for me to lay my head and cry...a very cunning ,motivated friend i have is a gift.Shes the only friend i can't hide a secret from she knows whether i'm sad, mad, inlove she comfort me in his own way..shes a friend i can always count on
I always believe in true love..soulmates, and anything makes a person happy and inlove but even though person keep motivated and inspired..pain always cames up
"You dare to fool around, you fool him, but not me"
she says cunningly and laugh.
"i didn't mean it..i'm not fooling around and i wont
dare fool anyone..either Don or you..."
"okay..okay i know, your not like that....but you can"
she says..daring me in a suspicious smile she wears
she always makes fun of me in a pathetic way she has
she hugs me and i start hug him back. im happy in a short period of time...and for a whole day i keep smiling in unstopable way, more than that every thing makes special for me.
days later°•°•°•°•
in a church ceremony... i stand from afar to see Don was singing..he looks at me in a shame and smile a bit. then look away..
I steal a glance at him when the ceremony is over,i can't hide it caz i'm not really good at hidding so, he sees me, he waves, and--i wave back...and from thier his friends sees it.
and something's whispher at him ..that change his mood all of a sudden*
I'm forbidden to take a move over him. but i really love to be with him.
He can't feel it. and its broke me in that way.
so, i take a move and bring my self closer to him, but, i can feel hes not comfortable..so i make myself clear, facing reality isn't really flows the way you expect.
5 days pass°•°• he continue to give me a cold shoulder all the way he see's me...
one time~~~~
i tried myself and tide to confess my feeling's for him...so i take my move everytime i see's him..but it's all still the same..maybe i really don't know him that much..and i just keep acting like i kniw everything~~
But i didn't give up that easily.i waited for this moment for year's until we finally know each other.I still challenge myself and try to capture every chance i get.Because whether he likes me or not. i still have to confess my feelings for him...
2 weeks pass~~days~~
and finally i get a chance to explain to him..
he was sitting in the corner..from a place i use to see him before...i can see his sad..and guilty...hes rubbing hes glasses and didnt wear them...i take my move to get closer to him..
"why are you here" i ask
"nothing serious..--are you still finding your book?
are you still searching for it?"
He says in a cold tone he have...
"ah.i forgot to tell you though. i found it long ago~
are you okay,? is something's up?..will you mind if i
ask?"
He just nodded...and say in a cold voice
" yeah. i'm okay, thiers no need to warry about"
"oh.!you keep avoiding me..and gives a cold shoulder
did i do something wrong?"
I ask him in a very calm way to ask him..but,
"no.you did nothing wrong"
"then why are you so cold to me all of sudden"
I ask in a cold tone...
He glared at me and smirk as if i pissed him off
"you have to stop liking me."
He said all of a sudden...and sight...
"what?"
i completly froz..i did'nt expect him to say it in a cold tone..it freez me death, seeing his pissed when saying those words..i feel my heart aching..my heart that slowly brokes it self..hearing those words makes me really guilty..caz i make him mad at me, for some reasons, his nit in a good mood, and i ruined it by making thoughts of him
"wait...how did you know?
"i aready know since the beginning..your friend toled
--i didnt believe it at first as if..caz i dont know
you at that moment..she says shes your friend..she
just want to help you out...
"Who is this friend..are you talking about"
"Elijah"
i smile...im upset but also happy..i know she just want to help me out...but gone wrong..
im a little upset caz he act first, before me...
"Elijah? shes like my little sister...i know she never
mean what she said"
"But shes nit wrong. am i right?"
I'm guilty and dissapointed i never had time to explain my self to him...
---sight---
"yeah..i do like you.i like you. but, more than that i
also been inlove with you---i want to be with you i
love to be around you...to see you..and waste my time
with you---"
He glare at me once again..and sight---patiently
"you've gone to far" He said
"you can't love me in such a short period"
He said dissapontedly...
"but i love since forever...i love you since i first saw
you."
He smirk saying..
"Franz.-really is right, all girls are just the same"
"im not."
I stop my self from crying to show him..i'm really is strong...and to show him i'm not the same as all the girls they knew...
He stares at me for a sec.
"you not?.your just like them."
"well...i'm not like them.. i'm not one of the girls you
use to know ---and i can prove it ---
"what if ill say i don't like you"
He said..
---my heart broke through pieces..i can cry..but i stop my self from crying in front of him
It hurts..it hurts a lot...i feel like i'll die unscathed
im dying inside..hearing those words makes me really pissed off..
"i dont want you to like me...im nit in a rush, i can
waith till you like me back..."
"i know.you really dont mean what you just said"
"ofcourse not. i mean everything i just said"
I replied fearlessly....it gives me hope just finding myself around him..
"i'm not waiting any for return...i just want you to
be happy with you, i'm not asking you to like me...or
answer me now...let me be happy by finding myself
with you."
You can treat me as a friend ...or whatever you like.
i just whant to see you around..to see your smile..
laugh..and giggles...i want to hear sing...i want...
"i didnt do that. i never"
" ofcourse you where...you wear a horse laugh..i can
still hear it even you've been so cold from me..this
past few days"
"stop joking around"
"well... i'm not --- i'm not joking around..i'm
confessing my feelings for you"
--You already know that i like you. but you still
choose to laugh with me-- isnt that a enough that i
can still be your friend"
"i already have a lot of friends"
"but i use to be your friend"
"you want to be more than my friend,"
"maybe your right...but i'm willing to wait"
"but, you'll be waiting long"
"i can waith. even for a thousand years"
I say every word in instant, with confident...i've already waited for so long...and i can't give up just like that
I gather all my hopes, dreams in one person....
the only thing i know is that i can have him if ill just wait
days pass°°and i can't even forget what i just have said...Don maybe really upset, and even dissapointed i act like i know everything..even i know nothing..but, i'm really happy now, because for the very first time i knew how to fight for my love.
Weeks pass••i'm still waiting for my glasses to call me..i wonder if he needs my help, but i guest not..
Maybe it would be best if i just let him think for now.
month later°° every sunday i went to see him. but he never shows,ti'll i finally went to cheer him...
in that moment i think he consider me as a stranger he use to know...
"Am i'over thinking again^arjjjj..i think i have to take every first move to come back to him.."okay. i'll try my very best.."FIGHTING!!
"yow..!Fighting!"arent you just give up...i hear your
lover ,push you away".---give up..he's such a jerk
anyway...ill help you find someone better"
"ofcourse not.besides he didn't push me away."
"then...why didn't i hear something aboyt him this
past few weeks..from you"
"do you mind?"
"what, im just cheering you--down"
She said, while laughting...i roll my eyes and countinue cheering myself, i have to do keep this up..
"hey gurl, i care about you, what if he have already
someone in his mind..maybe you should just give up"
"Kat, i've been waiting for him since forever' i cant
just let him go that easy..beside's we don't really
know if he already someone in mind"
"i'm just saying...caz what if-- he already have are you
willing to let him go.."
I feel like thunder hitting my heart...because what if.. I can't keep him forever...facing reality isnt really good at all...but i know only thing..ti'll i still have my chance i wont give up..
August 23 ... 12:21 a.m
I meet a boy..in on my way to school..his not someone i should know before, but he looks really familiar when he smiles at me..he's not like Don.. when he talk's but, he really get my attention..from thier we walk along the way to school..his not from here..hes only a transfer student..so, i guest he needs my help,
All around the campus..when two of us walking he can't stop talking about me..he said i was familiar, in some aspect...he ask a lot of question like...
"you really look familiar, i think i used to know you
before" do you live in here? nearby?...
I just aswer his questions, but it gets annoying..
but it helps me get rid from pain couse of rejection from branDon...till i realize i already smiling while answering his lots of question..its pathetic and nothing makes sence from all of that question he all ask...
after that,
I left him in our school office, and let my teacher help him out.
But, he run after me and ask in an urgent
"Hey, wait..i still dont know your name"
----btw i'm lawRence...call me Rence for short.,and
you?.
He ask...with a smile^-^
"oh.. I'm Sam..nice to meet you lawRence"
"nice to meet you as well..Sam^-^thankyou"
He said and left..after that moment i realize i forget about my moodless soulmate in a whole day..i forgot about branDon*
then and now..he still didnt contact me
He hope he have some reasons..giving me a cold shoulder and rejections...
I went home..slightly smiling...byt for now. its nit Glasses that makes me smile...a cute boy whom i meet just now...its annoy me for some reasons..but it helos me out..from sadness i already incounter..my deep love for Glasses..really trap me, makes me really crazy about it..
Sunday ceremony camp-- for all young people-- again
I should know that the cute boy i meet from other day live nearby from our church...
we meet to often and now in a vacation camp held by our church...
For branDon and my fellow young people that also attend in a camp..we find each-other again perform again for God
But rather than that its nit the same as last two years...
i found Rence sitting beside me and start talking...
i also meet another friend thier i meet Glasses bestfriend..but shes a girl-- i feel a little sad knowing thier really is close..that girl i used to know her as Kia* she is beautiful,and nice they both laughing from afar.
my Glasses and Kia*
im sad at that moment thinking it should be me"
from last two years..
but that time i'm not always empty caz i have rence comforting me....i get to know Rence better...hes also kind, handsome, sweet, and comfy, its not hard to adjust around him.. as the matter of fact we both get along well in a really short period of time.. and also
"i'm sorry, but do you mind...i stalk you a little...a
while ago-- and i see you and i study in the same
school, in grade school, thats why..maybe..you really
look familiar..."
I was shook...slightly happy at the same time, i never know someone like him. as curious to know me alot.,beside's i really can't remember him...from a young age of mine, during grade school
i can't believe someone really know and remember me for so long...somehow my pain inside start to grow in a happy way..
I found Glasses looking at us in a cold look he has, then look away after i look at him straight
I found a lit of friend in our camping as Andrew, Josh, Jason, Kia, and also Franz, my Glasses always mentioned before..they all Don's best bodyyss...
aside from that..I also have Rence and Kat behind my back...we get back, use to know alot, having fun in a catage ...
after our camping for two days..
I see Glasses never spoke to me again..i feel guilty and also sad, upset, and alot a loner always have...
A week later...during sundays school i meet my Glasses along my way..i feel his cold glance that looking straight in eyes...our both eyes meet..in a sad look
i try to talk to him..but he always give me a cold shoulder...
i gather all my strenght and pull him over,..stoping him with my both hands, i hold his hand to stop him from walking away..., i feel his hot hand holding my hands back..i was shook and try to let go, but for my surprise, he hold me pressly, the feeling he won't let me go,knowing he hold me back..i also feel his shooking body even i was behind his back holding his right hand..he hold me really tight..then..he turn and look at me again directly...
"what do you want?" He ask coldly
The feeling he hold me back,..even him won't let go...but still, he give me his cold shoulder...
"...i..want to..talk to you..alone, can i?
he nodded...
"ill call you after this.:"
I feel my his hand for a sec. ti'll he let my hand go..off from his..
bzzzzzbzzzz•••°°°
my phone in an instant ..it was MyGlasses calling me..u can feel he needs me...
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----Sam----♡👓♡
