"Sam, I'll be a little late. You go to the restaurant first."
I was nervous reading Khiro's chat with me, he's my boyfriend in an app.
And this was our first meeting.
We only knew our first name in real life, but we never saw each other's faces.
"Okay babe, I'll wait."
Shaking hands typing my reply to him.
I'm afraid of how he'll react when he sees me.
This may be the last time we meet.
And I am hurt by that fact.
I love him so much.
Why did I look like this?
Will he accept me?
How I wish.
I waited a few more minutes, for Khiro to chat.
"Sam, where are you at? I'm going into the restaurant."
"Near the window, babe." I chat with him.
"Sam?"
I turned around, a man was talking to the woman next to me. I thought I was the one he was calling.
Wait, is he Khiro?
"Sorry, I'm not Sam" The woman replied.
"Khi-khiro?"
He is, because he turned around when I called him.
He is handsome and good to bring clothes.
As for me, nothing.
"Y-you're Sam?" I could see the surprise in his eyes, and his reaction was hurtful.
"I'm Sam. Samantha Cruz."
"Why do you look like that?"
"Bay-babe. Khiro, Where are you goin..."
I was hurt when he suddenly ran out of the restaurant.
In a hurry.
I thought he had a surprise.
That's right Sam, he'll surprise you.
Suddenly my phone rang.
He was chatting.
"I'm sorry Sam, but I can't accept you as a girlfriend. I don't like fat, dark and you don't have fashion when it comes to clothes. I thought you were beautiful. What can I present to my family and friends, that I date someone like you. I don't want you to be my girlfriend, my love isn't that deep. Let's break-up. "
Suddenly my world collapsed.
Is that so?
He can't accept me because I look like this?
I would have replied when I saw that he had blocked me.
It hurts.
Very painful.
I thought what he was feeling was true, I was the one to hope for.
I was the first to love, the one who failed. So I am the loser.
Fake feelings in a fake world.
