well, according to me nothing is permanent in this world.. I used to think love is everything it's a fairytale where you will get your prince Charming. he will come ro love you and take you far away from toxic people and live peacefully..
all of my friends used to say their love stories.. we did this, we did that etc. etc.. I used to think it might be beautiful to love someone..
and then when I was 16 I fell in love at first sight with him.. I still remember our first meet he was wearing a black jeans white T-shirt with with black denim jacket and white snickers shoes... I fell in love at that moment everything stopped near me I could only see him move his messy hairs that were jumping on his head while he was running down the stairs just to meet me and the smile on his face when he saw me... that was the best moment of my life I could say.. it was our first date.. i was soo happy.. we had fun and enjoyed a lot.. the way he looked in to my eyes while we had ice cream.. I could totally see the love in his eyes... it was as if I was the only one in his world.. while returning home the way he held my hand, the touch alone was enough to create sparks in me.... every moment with him was magically magical.. I was in love with him totally .. all my heart my soul my mind everything was occupied by him.... I could no longer see any boys or mens around even my crush was invincible to ke.. I was soo in love with him... everything was perfect... it was same as my friends told me fun and love.... the prince Charming... everything about him was same as the fairy tale. . he was my prince Charming... but then I found that he isn't..
he left me on the rainy days of September in between the roads underthe rain... there we had breakup.. he left me saying that I was cheating on him with someone else.. and when I asked him to show the proof there he was making excuses.. haha... how funny right.. i lied to my parents for the first time in my life just to meet him... I didn't even knew routes of my place, I was a complete bookworm who never used to go out of my house, that fragile girl went out alone for 23 kilo meters just to meet him and after 6 months of a beautiful dream I got up with a breakup on my face... I silently went home and cried my heart out. . I slowly tried to forget him. . but after some days I met him in a cafe with a new girl a and there I knew the actual reason why he left me...
that day I understood that life is not a fairy tale... there is no prince Charming in life and even if there is then there where not loyal anymore... i was broke from inside.. he broke me... I was 70%broken...i started to distance myself from everyone... I changes.. I was silent all day... my best friends pandu and bunny got disturbed by my silence.. they were shocked as once a very talkative girl now was soo silent... they began to fear... fear that I might do something to me.. . they tried all means to make me talk... but was invain.. and then another friend pannu understood that I went into depression.. a mild one... so then they started to make me forget everything... they supported made me laugh... and then slowly I got out of my depression after 6 months.. till date evn my parents don't know that I had such heartbreak and also depression... I was completely out of him after 5 months.... slowly I got into track...
I was again cheerful and laughing happily... and then he fell in love with me.. ahh.. not my 1st love.. but my second love... slowly he made me believe that even If the first love didn't succeed there's always a second love to heal you... he made me happy and again I started to believe in people...
a complete 1 year relationship successfully... but then my nightmare started.. he started ignoring me.. not picking up my calls etc.. etc... he made me feel worthless and valueless in his life... and after the 1st heartbreak the thing I learnt was nothing is greater than self-respect.. the place where I am unloved where I am being feeling that I am unvalued. the place where I feel like I'm worth less or we can say where they make me feel worthless where they don't respect me is NOT the place I belong to... and there after 1 yr 6 months I had my second heartbreak while broke me 97%..there was only 3%of my original self remaining....
my friends feared I might again go into depression or might do something but no... I told them I'm not the old more... I am changed and I am strong enough to control my emotions. .
I stopped bielieving in love... but you know na... there always a way to love... and then he entered my life filling into colours of love.. showing me my worth... he was none other than my best friend.. my Baby.. I never knew how and when I started to love him... slowly slowly he became important to me... he became my addiction.. he showed me my worth my values in his life... he respected me like no one else did... he proved he is worthy for me and I am worthy for him... and finally we came together on April 28..
now I am 19 ànd we are still in relationship... it's been 3 months but still the love I saw in his eyes are the same not a bit wavered...
. i love him unconditionally and believe him blindly cause when I answered him he told me that he was in love with me from past 1 year and even after knowing that I had a boyfriend he still didn't stop loving me.... to be frank he was in one sided love with me from past 2 years.... I was shocked... and then I understood... he loves me truely not for my body not for my face nor for my beauty he loves me for my soul.. he loves me just for being me.... he loves me for me...
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I now understood that maybe some people find their soulmate in their first love some might get in second and some in third and maybe sometimes after a couple of experience.. but everyone surely finds their true ones...
my first love taught me to become strong
my second love taught me my worth my value and the importance of my self respect
my third love taught me that love is best with the right ones....
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. you might be thinking what kind of love was mine that I loved three times but I wanna tell you
it doesn't matter how much you love or whole you love or how many people did you love the only thing that matters is that you love the right person..
this was my experience of love and now believe that prince Charming does exists in real life but not like a fairy tale cause every love story is unique in its own and is fairy tale for the individual.. as no love story is complete without struggles hardships and moments that stops the time😁
and always learn to wait because
LITTLE BY LITTLE
DAY BY DAY
WHAT IS MEANT FOR YOU
WILL ALWAYS
FIND IT'S WAY. ❤❤💘💘
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thank you...
if you too have story of your own.. do share with me...
