Taehyung POV
"It sure is gloomy again," I whispered to myself as I sighed and saw the gloomy weather again outside the window. Ever since I came here the weather has been this way. It feels like the clouds express the unspoken thoughts and pain that I felt every single day but showing the opposite expressions on my face.
*Knock *knock
"Good Day Taehyung-sie." my nurse greeted as she prepares my food and medication for today.
"The weather shows the complete opposite of your greetings nurse Park So- Ra ."
I answered as I walk towards the bed and lay down again and just watch her move around the room as she checks my vital signs and asks about my bowel movements.
"Please eat your meal now Taehyung-sie. After that drink your medicine and take a rest."
"Again? My back is aching from being in bed for I don't know how long already."
I got up, sit and flash her a wide smile and said,
"If I finish my meal today, can I go to the rooftop later at night? I promise I won't get caught this time."
She just let out a loud sigh and responds,
"You said the same thing you got caught Yesterday and the day before that and the day before that. You are getting me in trouble too, I hope you know that."
"I'm sorry~ I didn't saw the time. It was so fresh up there and the stars are so mesmerizing. I even took a lot of photos I can give them to you for free if you're interested."
My photography is my way of convincing her since she enjoys looking at my pictures. She helped me sneak in my camera so that I won't get bored as I was held for further observation and immediate treatment whenever my symptoms occur, now and then.
She looked at me for a while as I kept on showing her my huge boxy smile with my eyes begging for her approval.
"Fine! But if it's going to rain, promise me that you will stay here and rest. The Doctor might check on you tomorrow and I don't want to get in trouble again."
"I promise! You won't regret it this time."
"I hope so Tae. I hope so."
After she checked all my vital signs and telling me to drink my medicine after my meal, she left the room, and everything is silent again.
I am Taehyung Kim. In case it is not obvious yet, I am currently staying at the hospital because I was diagnosed with Brain Cancer. The Doctor didn't tell me what stage is my disease already since they are hoping to tell it to my Family first. Little did they know, my family doesn't care for me. I'm enjoying my stay here now and agreed to it too since nobody is with me to help me out in case my symptoms occurred.
After having a meal and taking my medicines, I can see that it is still quite early for me to go out since there are still a lot of nurses that I may encounter since it is still 4:39 pm. So I decided to take a nap and let time went by until I can go to the rooftop again.
I don't know how long did I pass out. As soon as I woke up I immediately look outside the window and saw that it's already dark outside. I look at my watch and it's already 9 pm.
I got up and took my dextrose with me, wore my slippers, and checked the hallway. It was already so silent so I snuck out and head towards the elevator to go to the rooftop with my camera hanging on my neck.
Not long after, I finally arrived at the rooftop. As the usual time and day, I'm by myself again in here. Enjoying the view of the stars in the sky.
I was busy gazing up at the sky when I hear someone humming. It was a soft tune that gives me so much peace and made me feel the cold breeze that touches my neck. It also made me feel
Safe.
When the humming stopped, I immediately got up and starts looking around. Not far from my spot, I saw a boy who is on his way to the elevator. He seems younger than my age, but he sure is tall. I wasn't able to see his face since he wasn't facing my direction. When the elevator opened, he was stepping his way in when I decided to call him.
"E-excuse-. . UGH!"
My head starts aching and I'm starting to fall on my knees because of the chronic pain that I'm feeling in my head. It feels like I have been stabbed by hundreds of needles.
I'm starting to lose consciousness when I saw somebody holding me in his arms and pressed his little heart-shaped device. His voice sounds so distant, as my vision starts to darken. Not long after, I pass out completely.
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I slowly open my eyes and as I turn around, I realize I am in my room. Nurse Park So-Ra is also fixing my dextrose and checking what seems to be the Heart monitor that is now attached to my body. I grunt to let her know that I am now awake, and she immediately looks at me with eyes expressing so much concern.
"Tae, thank goodness you're okay. Do you need anything? Water? Food? Are you in pain? Tell me."
she asked as she looks at me in the eyes.
"D-did I get you in trouble again? "
It was the first thing that came into my mind since I don't want her to get in trouble again because of me.
"What? No. The nurse that saved you is my colleague and her patient also snuck out last night to go to the rooftop. The good thing is they have an emergency device that informs his nurse if he needs help. It was a good thing he noticed you and immediately inform his nurse and informing me that you collapsed. She just helped me to bring you here to your room and informed the Doctors. I was so worried you know?"
"I know. I'm sorry."
"It's okay. Just take a rest for now so that tomorrow you are prepared to meet Doctor Kim."
she whispered as she fixes my blanket, for me to go back to sleep. I was about to close my eyes when I suddenly remembered,
"By the way, do you know the patient who stayed with me before you arrived?"
"I'll take you to him tomorrow. Now, go back to sleep."
she said and left my room.
I guess I am getting more worst.
I whispered to myself as tears start to form in my eyes. I immediately wipe it off, let out a loud sigh, and just close my eyes and force myself to sleep. I don't want to sleep feeling empty again without anybody on my side.
I guess the medicine is effective to make me fall asleep immediately.
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"Come on now So-ra sie, take me to him already!"
I said as I bother her while she is busy monitoring me and the equipment that is attached to my body.
"And do you want me to take the heart monitor as I take you to his room? No! I'll be in big trouble again."
"I already told you I'm fine! You can remove it from my body it's starting to annoy me too."
"No! Now get up and eat your meal and drink your medicine."
she instructed me with a serious face and tone.
"Fine."
I immediately got up and decided to eat my meals.
After eating, I noticed the medicines that are placed in a cup.
"I hate this medicine. It's making me drowsy and make me sleep for hours."
"Well, there is nothing you can do. That's the medicine that is prescribed to you."
I didn't say anything and just put the medicine into my mouth and gulped down some water.
After that, I decided to lay down and slowly my eyes start to feel heavy, causing me to fall asleep.
*Uggggrrhh (Vomiting)
"That is disgusting."
Yep. I didn't swallow the medicine. I hate sleeping for the whole day. It's giving me so much backache. I slowly got up, remove the connection of the heart monitor to my chest, walk slowly taking my dextrose with me, and peek at the door if there is anybody or a nurse that will notice me in the hallway.
When everything is clear I walk calmly towards the elevator and noticed that a patient also enter the elevator. When I arrived at the elevator I noticed that he went to the last floor, which I assumed to be the rooftop. When the elevator open I pressed the button that would lead me to the rooftop and I was almost caught by a nurse.
As soon as the elevator opens I walk out and start to look around.
"Am I seeing things now? Did I just saw a ghost?"
I whispered to myself as I felt goosebumps because of my sudden realization. I was about to head back to the elevator when I saw a boy standing on the edge of the building.
My body suddenly reacted and run towards him and pull his arms from behind.
"What the hell?! Do you have a death wish or something?!" I shouted as I successfully pulled him to safety.
"What do you know? I'll probably die anyway! Why should I waste my life, hoping that they will cure me? Get out of my way!"
His words made my blood boil. Unintentionally, I gave him a loud slap.
"What the fuck are you saying?! There is hope if you believe in it! You are here because the doctors believe they can give you the second life you deserve. Everybody will die because that is the cycle of life! Shouldn't you at least enjoy the extra time that you have rather than giving up yourself by jumping into the facility that is trying to save you?! You are stupid! While everybody else is trying to fight for their life to have another moment with their loved ones, you are here trying to waste your life when you still have time."
I couldn't help but shout at him so he can hear me and let my words made him realize how stupid his point of view is.
I can hear him whimper as he holds his face that I slapped.
"Stop acting like you know what I am going through!"
"I know! Because sooner or later I may die too. Just like you. Just like everybody else who is here with us hoping to be given another life."
He stares at me and sobbed. I feel his emptiness so I immediately hug him.
He hugs me tightly as he cries on my shoulder and releasing the frustration and pain in every sob and cry he makes.
"Are you okay now?" I asked as I hand him a glass of water.
"Yeah. I'm sorry if you have to take me here to your room just to give me water."
"It's nothing. Just don't do that again. It was the lamest idea a person could think of. It's also not worth it." I assured him as he slowly shows a smile on his face.
"What is your name by the way?" He asked as he looks at me in the eyes.
"I'm Taehyung. Kim Taehyung." I responded.
"I'm Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook."
After introducing each other names, he stayed a little while and we exchange conversations. To say the least, I am older than him for he is 25 and I'm 27. But as I glimpse at his physique he looks a little taller to me, and his body is well-toned.
I'm jealous.
We are still talking when someone knocked on my door.
"Taehyung-ssie it's time for you- Jungkook?!"
I can tell she's surprised to see the person sitting on my bed beside me.
"How did you end up here in Taehyung's room?"
"Ohh hey, nurse Park. He saved me, that's why I'm here."
"Well, it seems to me I don't have to take you to his room Tae."
"Eh?" I ask, giving her a puzzled look.
"It was him who saved you last time. You are so anxious to meet him an hour ago and now you are talking to each other."
We look at each other and I finally realize the thing that is hanging on his neck that is bothering me as we speak. Because it was the heart-shaped device that helped me to be rescued when I pass out.
"So it was you!"
we both shouted together.
"I wanted to thank you for saving me yesterday, but my nurse here doesn't allow me to go to your room because my body is connected to the heart monitor."
"So. . .How did you go to the rooftop without that monitor?"
"Taehyung-ssiiee~ you snuck out again and took off the monitor?!"
I just showed her an awkward smile and responded,
"Yesss? Kind of."
"TAEHYUNG-SSIE!"
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"I'll take you to your room Jungkook. As for you Taehyung-ssie, no strawberries for a month."
"I saved his life though!"
I yelled as she holds Jungkook to take him to his room.
"It's not an excuse! Now sleep."
"Goodbye Hyung. Thank you."
"Hey, Jungkook-ah! If you need anyone to talk to, just come to my room okay?"
He smiled, nodding his head, and said,
"I will! Bye."
Then they both left my room.
I lay down and smiled as I look at the ceiling and felt glad that I am not alone anymore.
-End-
