Letter

We all love reading the old chats,old letters and hearing old call recordings of someone we love.

I love it too.To bring back the silly memories of the past.To crack a smile on my face.

I came to my old apartment again to check if I missed any of my belongings.

Most of the stuffs were already moved to the new house and my old room was now empty as the sunlight made it's way inside.The little birds were chirping in it's nest as it ate the food brought back by it's parents.

I opened the drawer of the nightstand and saw a jewelry box.The box was very clean though it was a little rustic but once it was my very valuable belonging.

I opened it to see if there are any colorful plastic bangles or some old markers but I didn't find any of the sort.

I only found a letter with a few beads.I opened the letter and started to read.The letter looked old and the words in it was a little faded but it didn't bring any trouble reading it.

As I read the first line I knew who wrote this letter and the memories started flashing.

'Dear Meat ball,

I should say the contents of this letter to you face to face but I don't know if I'll be even able to say a line from this.Because nowadays you look different.

I know you are still the meat ball that used to cry when you saw a dog.I know you are still the person who will smile like a fool if you see a new ice cream stall open in our way back home.

I know you are still the one who will ask for a piggyback ride back home after the sports day.I know you will still smack me if I call you meat ball though you are thin.

But something changed.I don't know if the change is with you or with myself.I can't see you in the eyes these days.My heart beats like crazy when I see you smile.

I thought something was wrong with my health and Yeah...Something is wrong with my heart...It beats your name...My head is filled with your smile...Nowadays I find even your embarrassed face cute...Maybe I always did...

I didn't plan on telling you this because I thought if I tell you this our friendship will break along with my heart but I know...I know if I don't tell you I'll regret it for the rest of my life.I will live with the fear that one day you'll find out the truth and leave me.

But you know that I can't hide anything from you so I will not hide this too...

I still remember the first time we both met.I was just 8 years old when we moved to the house near yours.

I still remember the girl who had chubby cheeks and was wearing a pink T-shirt which had a picture of a cow with it's baby calf.You were in pigtails and you even had a tooth missing.

I still remember the time when you cried and climbed on me as you saw a dog barking at you.

I still remember the time both of us and some of our friends went to a horror movie and you clinged onto me like a baby panda.It took me a lot of effort to take your hands off my shirt as you slept on my shoulder.

I still remember the girl who was looking flustered and confused as a guy proposed to you in front of the whole class...Well that was not a good memory but I remember you rejecting him.I asked you why but you just avoided the question.

But do you know?I felt very relieved and that was my first time being happy as a person was heart broken infront of me.

I don't why I was happy and relieved then.I couldn't name the feeling and the sound of butterfly flapping it's wing in my stomach.

Atleast not that time.But now I can name that.Now I know the reason for the weird feeling I get when you smile at me.

Now I know the reason why I did those stupid things like staring at you when you were sleeping in the class and smiling blanking like a fool when I gave you a piggyback ride.

If I continue writing this I may write a diary instead of a letter.So I'll just say what was in my mind every second.The word which was in the tip of my tongue but couldn't be spitted.

Stupid meat ball...

I love you...

Am not asking for a reply...It's just what was inside my head for the last few weeks or longer without me realizing and I knew if I didn't get it out of my mind I'll go crazy...

Whether you have the same feeling as me or not please just don't try to avoid me.

And know one thing...You may not like me back but I know this for sure...I love you with my heart and soul...I loved you before...I love you now...and I will love you forever...

by,

Your lovely with a cracked head...'

As she finished reading it her eyes were filled with tears which doesn't seem to fall down and a smile was tugged on her lips...

The tears were because they didn't end up together back then and the smile was for this silly fool who wrote her the letter with whom she married and is gonna move in with today...

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