"I can't fall in love with you. I don't want all the pain that comes with it." I thought it to myself after you gave me those preety smile of yours but without my realisation I was already in love with you.
I have looked you in million of ways and I have loved you in each. I was being a coward rejecting my feelings for you.
And someone already stole your heart, you love him more then your books, and you said you will do anything for him, you said you found your prince charming like in the books how the princess founds her prince and he finally agreed to date you.
I was hurt more then I could ever be but seeing you happy made me a little bit happy since your smile had the power to make me happy.
Seeing you both laughing and holding hands everyday while coming to school made me feel hurt all the time I thought you didn't need me anymore and you were happy without me.
But still I'll always be there for you so I can always check up on you whenever I have time, months passed we didn't talk anymore.
One day I saw you running out from the empty classroom crying, I wanted to chase you and comfort you like I used to in the past but I saw "him" chasing you so I left.
At night I couldn't sleep at ease thinking about you again, I guess I really haven't moved on from you but moving on from you was never my intention.
The next day I waited in front of your classroom in lunch break, I used to wait for you everyday like this but I stoped when you started dating, this time I was quite nervous waiting for you.
She came out alone to eat lunch like always, I called out her name and we went to the place where we used to eat lunch together, the atmosphere was preety awkward, I asked her if she is fine and she said, "about what?" I heard from someone that she broke up with her boyfriend.
I ask to her if she is fine after the break up, "No I'm not fine." she said it with a forced smile, I noticed her eyes no longer had that bright light like before it was too dark, it was not like her.
I hesitate to ask her a question but I somehow asked it, "How did you guys broke up?", she stayed quite for a while and looked up with her eyes drowning in tears, and let out a laugh.
The laugh that once made me feel like everything was beautiful; in this moment it sent me shiver down my spine when our eyes met I flinched from what I saw in them, so much disgust and betrayal she chocked back a sob, for just a second her mask which she wore to hide her emotions fell off and at that moment I wanted to hold her in my arms.
She coughed once, and uttered words in a cracked voice "He wasn't just my type and I was the type of girl he hated the most." In her voice I could feel the pain she was feeling I wanted to hit him with a knife technical saying, I wanted to stab him.
"I feel terrible" she said I had many questions I wanted to ask her but I didn't ask them.
I gave her a warm hug "I'm still here for you" I said, she cried out loud and I patted her back, "Cry as much as you want and we will go at the karaoke to sing some dramatic duets together and I'll let you choose them." I said to her, she laughed out her laugh made me laughed, so we both ended up laughing together.
The cool breeze of the warm summer day blew, her hair fluttering in the air. Oh what a pleasant sight it was. I hoped time will stop right at the moment and I hope I could be the only person seeing your beautiful laugh I hope our relationship always stays like this I don't want to be your prince charming, I want to be the person who can makes you smile everyday who will be there for you when you are at your worst and when you wanna sing dramatic duets after a fight with your dad and who you can have deep conversation with, who you can share your playlist with but I'll probably be lying saying if I don't want anymore then this.
And I'm sure those days will be back again when your coffee tastes like magic, your playlist made you danced, strangers made you smiled, and the night sky touched your soul. I hope you fall in love with me this time I promise, I won't betray you like he did, I will do anything which is the best for you and you will be the only person I'll share my tacos with.
