Hey are u emma? a familiar voice sounded from nowhere,suddenly my heart sounded thup,thup no no no its should not be him ,I turned around and saw yes it was victor!!! breaking my voice he spoke u changed so much I didnt even recognise u ....*yes its because of u sounded my heart* how abt talking i in private again breaking silence he said ,no I was comfortable here wht do want now I asked u didnt even change a bit just silly as before,my fist folded tightly ,if u changed from fatty to slim u think u are miss world no ur same as creep dont give me an attitude he said,well is this u want to say I m going bye I said while moving he dragged my arm forcefully I am abt to give my fist punch to him ,before that someone hit him on his head I turned my head and saw its "sara", dare to touch my friend again she warned him and taken me with her to the car ,she sat beside me ,unconditionally tears are rolling down from my eyes,she patted my back and said its ok we reached home and I said I was ok and laid on my bed and closed my eyes ....The past of me appeared infront of me
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It was my college days ,one day while I was sitting on my bench suddenly I heard a voice saying to me " hey u are cute " what ? it was for the 1st tym I heard someone saying me I was cute ,yes I was not pretty,slim ,I am just 5ft ,fat,dark skinned and with spects on my face ,I only listened to people saying fatty,nerd,......but it was my 1st encounter saying cute I turned my face and saw it was "victor" my first love and also last ,replying to him I said may be ur mistaken I have to go I raised up he said hey wait a min can I have ur num ? ,what ?cute,num my head spinned its my 1st tym ,I reacted and moved fast and returned to class my heart sounded thup,thup so this is called 1st feeling ,next day same boy appeared infront of me with a smiling face ,I tried to run faster but he shouted loudly hey are u ignoring me I ran a little bit faster away next day the same,next day, ok what do u want from me I asked ur num he smiled ,ok take I gave it to him ,when I returned to home I saw a text from him whether to see or not in a big confusion state I saw hey hi he kept ,I replied hlo .....and normal conversation started b/w us he used to ask alot abt "sara" my best friend who is always there for me and protects me from bullies I usually thought normal and said details abt her when he asked ......one day he asked hey can we meet ,,,.....I said ok because he looked decent in his conversation and looks bring ur frnd with u he mentioned I didnt take those words serious ,I went there with sara ,she asked me is he reliable ,I said idk ,then he came with a red flowered bouquet ,my heart ran fast as it could he straighly came to sara and said"" I love u """ wait what ❓❓❓❓ sara looked at my face with a angry look wht is this emma ❓❓😡😡 she asked me I said I dont know ,how would I know ,I asked victor for explanation .................
"Then he replied that he fell in love with sara at first sight but she rejected him so he find an alternative way to convince her and used a bait and the bait was meeeee ,when he used to ask abt her I thought normal but,but,but............ I dont know this is the real reason behind it ,,,,,breaking silence sara spoke u used my frend to track me dont u have any shame she thought u have feelings on her ,,,,,
victor replied to me what do u ever saw ur face on the mirror how do u think I like u heavy bag ur just a fatty girl I never thought he laughed loudly by saying those words,breaking the silence there was a slap on his face .......yes it was from me c'mon sara lets move from here I moved out but it was my 1st heartbroken time sara gave me all strength as my best friend I tried to change my physical appearance and became emotionally strong
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..but after many years that scar again started to ache I just want to ask him
why did u play with my feelings????
Why did u given hope to me???????
How dare u to play with me??????
How can u just take it as a playful joke???am I joke to u?????
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The bright sunshine woke me up ,it was sara ,she opened curtains and said get up u lazy bird we have to go for work today there is spcl offer in canteen dont u dare to starve me we have to go wake up she shouted like my mom emotionally I hugged her tightly ,she said u gonna suffocate me come on we have to start our life newly she said with a smiling face ...........................
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There are many challenges we have to face emotionally try loving urself give urself the motivation to build new you and have a truthful accompanying you like my sara .
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