My name is Rayna I am leaving a life of Hell I wish to see Heaven but failed to I’m hated by everyone I am a slave in my own family I am happy that I am not disturbed by anyone but I am sad that I can’t get my family’s love sometimes I wonder is this Hell or Heaven the moment I was born I saw them sad when I turned 5 I saw them annoyed when I was 10 I saw them angry and now I am 15 but never saw them happy the moment I was born till now I experienced hell but still I love my family a lot.
I always think that they are just like this because they want me happy they are thinking about my happiness but till now I was never happy with the decisions they made each word they said to me it hit like a train to my heart I always think that you’re just thinking about my happiness they never cared about me. Can never listen to me I can’t express my happiness nothing there are only a few moments in these 15 years that I was happy but those also were ruined by my family but I won’t give up I will make them fall for me I really want their love but they never loved me still I won’t give up I will work hard to make them proud for me I hope that will happen one day one day they will think that they are blessed to have me as I think.
Mother had a disease when she gave birth to me that’s why she was in coma for 5 years and in these years my sister nonstop has been creating misunderstandings between me and my family after mother recovered she did the same and I was hated by all.
Every time I told not to create misunderstanding but I don’t think she’s doing this intentionally well I am having every evidence that she is doing it intentionally but still I don’t think that . First she told him that I have stolen things seriously I was just three years old my family didn’t believe me and checked my room and it was found I seriously didn’t knew when it came there how it came there but I just the truth still didn’t believe me I was very sad .Each time I asked my sister and my siblings they just said sorry and I just say that it was just a mistake and I thought it was a mistake but it has never been a mistake very intense for me to be hit I don’t know what I did but just they want me to be hated I really don’t know what I was home school for five years and after that mother also recovered I was sent to school after school I came back and I sent to a house with a few maids I was always tortured by the maids when I go to school I need to make my own breakfast and I need to do anything everything by my own and when I come I need to do my housecleaning they also enjoy and my family was always thinking that I was in a very good place and I must be enjoying but I was regretting.
And now I am in love with a boy but the problem is that my sister love him too so I don’t want to disappoint her so I think I just need to move on I was trying to cling to him but I am always bullied by my sister but I don’t think that she mean it that boy came to recognise sister and they are just having little fun so I also want love but I never get it I don’t know why but I think my sister should have it because because because I don’t know why I feel like crying I am in love with him for three years but I don’t understand why that he is liking my sister in for three months yet whatever I have everyone is just trying to take it from me and I just give it to them happily expecting love from them in return but I never get any I know I am sad but I don’t have anyone I know I want to love but I don’t tell anyone about it I just have to set along and wait for the time inside my heart because if I can’t express it then I can’t even handle it.
It’s been five years and now I am 20 I’m still being treated like that only still I love my family but yet I don’t understand is it hell or heaven.
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