Once again..
The feeling is a natural thing for me by now..
Looking at the window by the table, I have this thought of sitting at the edge of the window. Staring at the sky- with tears.
There's no particular reason. I just feel like something deep down in my heart is grieving.
Yesterday, it was raining. My mind and heart is racing against the logic. It's so cold here when it rains. But it's soothing in the same time. I'm addicted to the sound of the sky breaks into tears. I have companion. Make me wonder what would it feel like.. to jump from this window..
Today I look down from the window. Yes I sit at what little space the window has to accommodate me. It's quite tall.
Once again..
I wonder would all the feelings inside me be gone when I fly down from here? It's only the second floor of this building.
Maybe I would not necessarily die right?
HAHAHAHA
WOULD SOMEONE FINALLY REALISE WHAT I'VE BEEN KEEPING IN MY HEART.
This is really burdening my mind..
I looked down..
Tingg~ someone is at the door.
I remember I ordered pizza just now .
Hmmm.. I looked down again, battling with the unsettled dangerous mindset I have just now.
Hmmm, nahh nevermind I'll save it for next time.
Let's eat 🍕 first....
Dear myself let's looking forward to another day while looking for another good motivation to keep going on😌
